Ramadhan nightmare

ok, let's start here. i started watching his videos last year and i never stop get motivated by his videos. a Palestinian who is living in USA, brought up the issues about being a Muslim, Muslims struggles and what we actually can and can't do.  watch this video. my heart touched!

"count your blessings. 
  what you consider a nightmare
  would be someone elses dream"

Ramadhan Kareem all

of travelling and its angle

hey people, check out this video. em lovin' it!

this is not a new video produced by Aiman Azlan. almost 3 months ago. i just want to share the message in this video. it's just so true. i like travelling. my friends too. probably we always see the best parts of everyone else's experience without knowing the difficulties that they encountered.believe me, we encountered almost the same experience like him. stranded at the airport is normal! hahaha. there was one time, we were almost sleep on the street at Queenstown, Otago because that day was 31st December. people gathered at Queenstown city to celebrate new year and the hotels, motels, back packers were all full! we had a nightmare that we have to sleep on the street and it was freaking cold. FREAKING COLD! we called our friends, and he came all the way from Roxbrough to pick us up. Alhamdullillah, we were scared to death because people were getting insane because of the alcohol. dah siap kena kacau oleh remaja tempatan yang mabuk. just so scaraaaayyy. 

besides, we could see our friends' true colour, who is the most bossy, who is miss/mr 'i know everything' and all. and most importantly, you reflect on your own. i like travelling because i see everything in different perspective.

thanks for reading! May Allah bless you.

Bandung Travelog: Day 3

salam dan hello semua

ada orang tanya saya pergi Bandung 2 hari je ke? this person thought i went to Bandung for 2 only days because i wrote only 2 days travelog. my apology for that. no time dik! too busy emo-ing with practicum. huh? no,no. i'm just too immerse in what i'm doing now. focus, focus! hahaha. 

for the third day, we didn't do much activities. as for the first day, we went to Pasar Baru for shopping but only at level 0 and 1. we didn't realise that Pasar Baru was that big. besar gila kot sebenarnya. 6 atau 8 tingkat sebenarnya. tapi sedikit kepam sebab indoor punya tempat, tapi ada basah-basah juga. bukan macam shopping mall sangat. second day, we went to city tour and volcanic place. the driver drove us to Jalan Mode where all branded stuff were sold. i noticed most of the customer were Malaysian. murah la kot for Malaysia tempat tu. third day, we went to Pasar Baru again. melunaskan segala  hajat yang terbuku. hari ke-3 ni terserlah jiwa kewanitaan masing-masing. membeli tak hengat dunia. tempat macam ni mungkin kurang sesuai untuk lelaki sebab sooo shopping. lelaki mesti penat nak tunggu perempuan sebab membeli lama sangat. muka lelaki mesti nak mengamuk dah rasanya kalau tunggu perempuan membeli kat sini. nasib baik, trip kitaorang ni takde lelaki ikut. tapi aku ni hah pulak yang nak mengamuk. letih gilaaaa. sampai kan ajak Izzati keluar. satu sebab lapar dan panas dan pening. satu lagi dah tak tahan tengok banyak sangat benda yang boleh dibeli. nanti lagi banyak terbang fulus. baik pasar baru, aku terus tidur sebab kepenatan dan suasana sungguh menggamit kalbu. serious la ea, Bandung memang best gila tidur. sejuk tapi tak sejuk yang mcam ada snow tu. just nice. 

ni hotel penginapan kami. sangat selesa. kami pilih bilik ekonomi je. almaklum la student kan. tapi tips nya kalau nak pergi Bandung, tak perlu pun ambik bilik ada econ sebab suasanya cukup nyaman sekali. tak pernah rasa panas. *Hotel Kenangan, Jalan Dago*

kalau anda ke Bandung, jangan lupa singgah ke KartikaSari. tempat jual kek, candies, brownies dan sewaktu dengannya. memang sangat sedap.

breakfast dihotel free. malamnya boleh order ala-carte dan boleh hantar sampai dalam bilik. service hotel ni memang terbaik. pekerjanya sangat baik. generally i think memang semua orang Indon sangat baik. mungkin apa yang kita tengok dalam TV tu just sebahagian yang tidak bertamadun. Malaysia pun ada this kind of people. well, jerk is everywhere.

 last but not least, i like this. selalu minum ni masa kat Indon.teh botol. cool gila minum guna botol kaca. motif? ok, tak tahu. rasanya teh bunga tawar. as always la kan. orang Indon tak minum manis. harganya Rp 7000 je.

rasa macam entry tergantung. by the way, thanks for reading!

Ramadahan

alhamdullilah. alhamdulillah

bersyukur dengan rahmat dan kasih sayang Allah, sekali lagi dapat menyambut Ramadhan kali yang ke-23 dalam hidup ini. penuh tak penuh, lain cerita. heeee. yang penting penghayatan Ramadhan dan melihat Ramadhan dari kaca mata Islam dan tarbiyah itu lebih penting.

alhamdullilah, sekali lagi dapat berpuasa ditanah air, selepas berpuasa di perantauan tahun-tahun sudah. bersyukur kerana di Malaysia biah nya lain. kalau dulu, puasa dengan puasa rasa takde beza. yelah, pergi kelas semua orang makan disekeliling kita. pergi mana-mana aa orang makan. nak puasa ke, tak puasa ke, takde orang nak kisah. semua bergantung kepada iman masing-masing. tapi sekarang, berpuasa dia Malaysia suasananya lain. kalau tak puasa sure orang pandang slack. it's a good thing la sebab orang tegur indirectly. at least orang tak nak puasa pn segan. lagi satu, yang membuatkan puasa rasa macam takde makna sebab kelas still on as usual. test as usual. pernah berbuka minum air je sebab ada masa lebih kurang 5-10 minit je selepas habis kelas dan lepas tu kena sambung ada test sejurus selepas itu. dengan nak solat Magrib lagi. memang tak sempat makan la jawabnya. tapi tu la pengalaman yang yang mengajar kita untuk sentiasa bersyukur biah Islam ( tak sure boleh ke tak cakap biah solehah) di Malaysia.

sekarang rasa sangat bersyukur sebab dapat terawikh dekat masjid-masjid di Malaysia. masa dekat NZ, terawikh dekat rumah senior-senior je. semua perempuan. selawat dan tasbih masa solat terawikh tak cukup meresap dalam jiwa. nadanya lain. kadang-kadang pergi masjid dekat Mount st. yang dikelolakan oleh pak Arab. dia punya bacaan, panjang. kalau Qunut memang pangjang. ada orang sampai menangis-nangis. rasa kurang beruntung sebab tak  faham bahasa Arab kerana tak dapat menghayati doa tu. apa la yang di doakan sampai ada yang menagis, haru sangat. untuk tazkirah, memang dalam bahasa Arab. untuk orang yang macam saya memang terlopong la. sedih. tapi kadang kala ada la student Arab yang kind enough to translate it into English. at least faham la juga. sebab tu selalu ambil keputusan solat rumah akak-akak mana yang ada buat solat terawikh kat rumah. solat dekat masjid Malaysia rasa sangat homey. jiwa sentiasa bergetar terutamanya bila solat tu di imam kan al-hafiz. gitu. tapi yang paling utama, solat dimasjid yang betul-betul masjid, bukan random bilik yang dijadikan surau/masjid seperti di NZ. masjid besar dan selesa membuat kan diri rasa terlalu kerdil dan sangat teruk rasanya bila tak beryukur. 

plus point berpuasa di overseas, kita tak disibuk kan dengan urusan dunia. at all. yelah, mana ada nak fikir nak pergi bazar Ramadhan yang mana. memang takde pn. so, tiada pembaziran, nafsu dapat dikawal dan sangat tawaduk. berbuka je dengan apa yang ada. balik kelas dah lewat, kadang-kadang tak sempat masak pun. makan je apa yang ada. sedih, tapi ia mengajar saya dan kawan-kawan untuk kuat dan berdikari. kadang-kadang hidup bergantung dengan kakak senior yang sangat supportive. they are our families.  

after all, saya sangat bersyukur dapat merasai Ramadhan di tanah air lagi. cukup la menahan air mata dan kesesakan nafas merindui Malaysia. bersyukur dekat dengan orang-orang yang tersayang, dan insyaallah dalam biah Solehah. 

terima kasih sudi baca!

memupuk ikhlas

memupuk ikhlas starts from a small little thing called attitude.......

sesungguhnya jujur dan ikhlas itu mudah untuk dilafazkan. tetapi, hakikatnya, jujur dan ikhlas lah yang paling sukar untuk dinilai dan dihalusi kerana hanya Allah jualah yang maha mengetahui apa yang tersirat dalam hati manusia. 

ikhlas bila mana menggunakan sesuatu untuk kepentingan sendiri. ada seorang sister tu cakap kat saya, cikgu akan dapat marker. gunakan lah marker itu dengan sebaiknya. kalau kita dengar, memang tak dinafikan isu nya kecil, malah sangat kecil. marker je pun kan. gitu. cara kita dan orang cakap memang macam tu. tapi cuba kita perhalusi disebalik nya. marker itu ada lah untuk kegunaan mengajar. tapi kalau kita menggunakan kan nya untuk kepentingan beribadi, sebenarnya kita telah berlaku tidak jujur disitu. as simple as that. 

pada zaman pemerintahan Umar Abdul Aziz, beliau amat menitik beratkan harta rakyat. beliau akan menggunakan lilin untuk membuat kerja untuk kepentingan rakyat dan akan menghembus lilin tersebut sejurus dia melunaskan kerja untuk rakyat. betapa beliau sangat menjaga benda-benda yang kecil kerana ia berkaitan dengan KEJUJURAN. kejujuran ini sangat penting bilamana kita menjadi orang yang berkuasa. tapi ianya akan hihisap oleh Allah kerana ia melibatkan hak orang lain.

kindly reminder to myself and all of you. Ihya Ramadhan all~

ugly truth

 few years back, my dad's friend asked me:

( watak direfer sebagai Rasyid, bukan nama sebenar)

pak cik Rasyid: belajar kat mana sekarang?

Fareha: belajar dekat *********.

pak cik Rasyid: hah, belajar kt *****!!!! . nanti awak jadi cikgu JE la kan? dulu awak sekolah mana?

( at that time i wans't study abroad yet)

Fareha: saya sekolah kat MRSM Kuantan.

pak cik Rasyid: eh, sekolah elok tu. awak dapat SPM berapa?

Fareha: ******

pak cik Rasyid: keputusan awak bagus. boleh masuk U tu kan. kenapa nak jadi cikgu JE?

this is what we called typical minded. i don't blame him to have that kind of thought. i used to have this kind of thought too. in a way, people thought that teachers are those who do not really excel in their studies. setuju? this is epic people. i even have frinds who got straight 11As in SPM, yet decided to do teaching.

most people think that being a teacher is easy. kerja separuh hari kan? do you know that, that's only at school. preparing the lesson and materials is a different thing. post lesson is a huge another thing. before you get into the classroom you have to prepare. in the classroom you need to deliver and after the class, you have to check pupils' work. besides, teachers have to do secretary work too. i was suprised when i first got to school that teachers have to do most of the thing. because i'm a tertiary education student, we are used to do all the thing on our own, and when i see that teachers have to do most of the things to pupils, it was a shocking really. because pupils cant do anything WITHOUT a teacher. 

i agree with one of my friends suggestion that, there must a reality TV show that penetrates teacher's life. it's not easy. based on the statistics, teacher is the 4th most stressful job in Malaysia ( based on  research  PPKUM and casted by Forum Perdana Hal Ehwal Islam). teachers are dealing with people emotions people who want to go against the system, people who are not satisfied with the service and all sort.

 hasil kaji selidik Jabatan Kesihantan Masyarakat Pusat Perubatan Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (PPUKM) 2007 hingga 2008.

                                

if you assume teaching is easy, you are wrong. you are dealing with human beings, who have feelings and hearts. if engineers create and build most sophisticated building, we build our future generetion.  

thank you for reading!

teaching is fun

salam people

about my practicum of course. hehehe. something interesting about teaching is you see yourself in your students. young kids are very cute and talkative. i'm teaching year 3 and year 4. and you should know how they are. comel sangat. tak tahan tengok kecomelan gelagat diorang ni.   

i'm teaching using contemporary approahes where the emphasis is on the positive reinforcement and more to apply psychology techniques rather than the hard way. meaning that, i will not punish students as our teacher always did to us in our schooling era. dan saya berjanji pada diri saya sendiri dan mak saya yang saya tidak akan pernah denda, cubit, lempang, dan segala bentuk abuse murid-murid sepanjang karier saya. inysallah, even so far, i never even get angry at my studnets. biasala budak-budak, bukan jahat pun. nakal je. lagi pun tak sampai hati nak buat macam tu kat diorang.  budak kecil kot kan. 

in year 4 class, i use happy and sad box. i ask students who make behavioral problem like talking while i'm teching, disturbing their friend or some sort to write their names in sad  box. the well manner and the most active in class will be put under happy box. i put this one student's name in the sad box. then, he cried, cried and cried until i didn't know what to do. he told me that he wasn't talking. i told them that i will not punish them ever. interestingly, after the class finished, all rushing to go back. semua murid bersalam dengan saya. percayalah, bila orang bersalam dengan anda, dengan hati tulus dan murni, korang akan dapat rasa betapa sejuk nya hati korang.jantung berdegup kencang. comelnya. and this one person,  even he was crying ( saya ada register yang saya tak boleh terima lelaki menagis sebab nampak tak sesuai, tapi dia ni budak kecil after all ) and probably he wasn't satiesfied because his name was in sad box, still dia hulur tangan nak salam dengan saya. you know what i felt? MY HEART MELTED. 

ya Allah, betapa budak-budak ni hati diorang tulus dan sangat suci, dalam keadaan menangis dan mugkin tak puas hati dengan saya, boleh dia hulur tangan, siap nak salam cium tangan. tiap-tiap hari students melt my heart. auuwww!  

can you tell me how should i resist this lovely faces? bukan pedo eh. i see them as my little brothers and sisters.

participate in class activity. belajar pasal animals.

stay strong

i'm in need of positive thought. juggling with so-called working stuff and personal life make it hard for youngster like me to reconcile to unfamiliar situation and people . initially i find it quite tough to handle two or more things at once, and its even difficult to do some of the things properly due to the lack of experience. the i realise how naive i am. i'm willing to learn. it doesn't matter how much work people give me, i'll try to say YES for everthing. yeay!

i'm getting better compared to the first week. by the time i'm 'home', the only thing i wanna do is sleep.sleep.sleep. and sleep. that's so pathetic. and of course i feel bad about it. hey, that's not the end of the world. no the end of the responsibilty. working is just a tiny little part of our life. the vision of being alive has brough a huge other responsibilities. wise. wise.wise.

i find it a little excited to go to school, somehow. everything is just so fun. so good. except for few things which we cant expect everything to be pefect all the time. the most important thing is, we have to have a good naiwaitu to make things better and do the thing just for the sake of Allah. only then, yo will find the true peace. 

ok guys. lets stay strong and be an awesome Muslim. insyaallah, we all moving towards it. semoga Allah redha.

lets get organised

salam

tommorow i'll start my practicum. this would be the last practicum before i step into working field. i feel so so so nervous. i'm scared to death. padahal, bagi rakan-rakan course lain, eleh practicum je pun. sebab diorang dah terbiasa dengan practicum at least 2 semester before the final practicum. for me, it's not. this is my first time in Malaysia and definitely the challenge would be totally different. it comes with responsibilities and i'm afraid that i couldn't do well. do i think too much? no, i'm just being realistic.

i know, practicum would be the toughest period for being a teacher trainee. you have no life. you have to cut off you social life for a while if you want to success. and of course to avoid being tired and unprepared. in my case i know, the moment my feet step on my room i'll flat on the floor. hahahaha. i just don't understand why i have severe fatigue and headache. i believe it runs in the family. that's why, i don't like going out to crowd,  window shopping, sale and what not. i prefer going to the beach, take a stroll at the park. so macam tua kan. yelah, i'm no longer a teenager. kalau pergi CS or Angsana, kaki wajib cram malam tu. jalan sikit je pun. tapi yang peliknya, jogging dan bersukan ok ja. mushkil. mushkil.

melayan kerenah kanak-kanak sangat fun kerana telatah diorang especially yang active dan talkative. bila sampai rumah baru terasa letih dan tidur tak sedar siang ke malam.

* Freemans Bay Primary camp*

disebabkan saya tahu saya bakal busy dan takde masa nak berkemas, so saya dah start kemas semua benda. saya tak boleh tengok benda bersepah. stress tu akan membuak-buak. saya suka perasaan bila mana saya balik dan letih, bilik/rumah saya bersih. katil wangi. terus rasa sejuk hati. terus hilang penat. berkemas juga merupakan cara saya hilangkan stress. kalau kat Auckland dulu, kalau saya balik malam, terus basuh semua pinggan, bersihkan dapur, kemas almari, bersihkan sinki dapur,basuh baju, housemate mesti tau saya  tengah stress. haaaa.

tak berapa kemas pun

also, untuk mengelakkan keserabutan, i list down everything. what i need to be done, short notes, schedule, motivational quote etc. so that, i know which one i should give the priority and the time frame.

say hi to Annas,  my easter Lion from Australia. teheee

saya nak share la juga tips yang saya tahu. untuk elak diri dari restless, rajin-rajin kan la diri baca al-mathurat. saya mengaku, saya tak boleh konsisten dan baca 2 hari sekali. tapi mari kita berusa bersama-sama. dan kalau boleh dan berkesempatan, boleh buat solat sunat Dhuha. kelebihan dhuha ialah untuk rezeki, hati yang tenang dan sesetengah mengata kan untuk awet muda. dan saya percaya ketengan tu memang ada, saya tak rasa tergopoh-gapah sangat. even tak paham kenapa orang nak cepat sgt penuhi kehendak manusia, sedangkan keperluan Allah itu lebih penting dari keperluan manusia. pape pun, semuanya berbalik kepada Allah. Dia lah jua yang menentukan segalanya. moga dengan rahmat dan kasih sayang Nya, kita sentiasa dalam rahmat dan lindunganNya. amin.

lets get organised. be cool.be smart.