when it comes to formal conversation

assalamualaikum

as referred to the tittle, when it comes to formal conversation...i fail. seriously. i don't know how to overcome this problem. i cannot express some of the things in Malay. please, don't get me wrong. i'm not boasting here. not showing off either. but i find it as a big shame because, ok i'll explain the reason. if you know, all i want is to be humble. i don't want people say i'm arrogant or lupa daratan and so whatever. last few days, i went to see Dr. Salwa to give the souvenir from our cohort. of course when you talk to your lecturer is different in the way you talk to you friends. you need to be somewhat formal. not just burst everything like you speak to your friends right? you have to control the words used. for instance, to say

'kitaorang not sure macam mana diorang tu conduct PP kat sana, tapi yang pasti diorng npunya syllabus less descriptive' .

she thought we went to see her because we are getting married because Izzati and me were so awkward to talk to her (we have to get permission to get married from the counselor, that's the procedure). my dilemma here is, is it ok to use 'kitaorang' 'diorang' and some of the English words when talking in Malay? oh ya, just let you know Dr. Salwa is our college Math head department. ever since we are in foundation, we talk 100% English except with friends of course la berabuk Bahasa Melayu nya, with soooo many infusing of English words. boleh ke guna those words? tak pernah tahu whether is it ok because we never speak Malay to our department lecturers. so when i see lecturers from other department i feel so awkward to speak to them. of course i won't use typical words i used with my friends, instead i used 'mereka' 'kami'. for example

'kami ada jumpa sekumpulan pelajar yang sedang menjalankan aktiviti luar bilik darjah. mereka sedang melukis berdasarkan apa yang mereka lihat'.

read this exactly the way i write it. don't you think it's too formal? that's the kind of language i used when i talk to lecturers and my parents friends. skema boleh tak sebenarnya. orang dah boleh tanya, dah engkau ni kenapa cakap macam tu, ko ni orang zaman Hang Tuah ke? bila baca macam suara Doremon je sebab Doremon kan cakap sebijik-sebijik dan baku sebenarnya. that's how i speak. rasa macam loser je bila orang dengar. but i want to talk in most decent manner. i want to have manner. but still, i talk to my parents friends even though i cakap somehow macam Hang Tuah juga la. my mum always bring me to her social activities so that i can socialize and improve my social skill and thing like that. so, i wont be socially awkward ( in formal speaking only k). tapi Alhamdulillah, so far dengan kawan no problem. sebab kita cakap dengan kawan macam chill je kan. so, masalah communication ni xde sangat. even in writing blog itself, i cannot use Malay to express what i want to say. i know people might say, 'cheh, belagak ko speaking sangat. ko ingat ko bagus'. tak, saya tak bagus. in fact, far from perfect. i just want people to understand that people do something for a reason. and i have serious problem with spelling. typo is everywhere in English as well as Malay. they are horrible i tell you. it becomes more obvious when i chat.

p/s: saya minta maaf selama kita berkawan, saya tak membantu meningkatkan iman awak-awak. saya minta maaf mengenali saya tidak membantu awak-awak improve iman awak. saya minta maaf sekiranya penulisan saya tidak membantu menigkatkan iman awak-awak. saya manusia biasa yang tidak lari dari kesilapan. tapi saya sentiasa berusaha untuk memperbaiki diri dan meningkatkan iman saya. cuma cara setiap orang berbeza. kerana tidak sefaham dengan anda doesn't mean that i'm bad or good. people have their own way. respect their decision for themselves.