my siblings drive me crazy

assalamualaikum and hi

i've been away from home for quite a long time, i guess and yes it's actually true. due to the fact, i'm not familiar with some of my siblings' attitudes. yada, yada daddadaddada.

well, i didn't spend my teen age and early adolescence with them either because since i was 13, i went to boarding school and of course i spend most of my time at the hostel . and been away for a long period of time ( not going back in the mean time), being in NZ makes me find some of their attitudes are weird and annoying and sometimes funny as in very funny. one good examples is making noise. the first week i'm home, i was so so so annoyed with their loud voice, verbal fighting. hahaha. i'm laughing so badly writing this because i'm thinking what happen to me. they were fighting when i was sleeping, i haven't heard any of this for quite a long time. i was thinking what the heck they are doing? bising gila boleh. at our home in NZ, nobody makes noise because we are adults and we respect each other privacy. so biasa la budak- budak. actually i can bear with it, i used to live in this kind of situation, it's just that i haven't met them for along time, nobody around me makes noise, that's why i find it annoying. tapi sekarang dah ok da.

second, amalan suka membazir. i'm not sure if i'm getting stingy but i can't tolerate orang yang suka membazir. buka lampu, kipas lepas tu tinggalkan bilik macam tu. buka laptop, at the same time pasang TV. i was like grrrrr. banyak letrik kena bayar boleh. in our house back in in NZ, we tried to save as much as we could. we only turn on the light when it's getting dark even though our rooms were dark during day time. and surprisingly we didn't use heater at all during winter when our friends suffer to pay their power bill during winter. it was like triple than other seasons. we just maintain 50-60 dollars per month while our friends' bills were up to 200 dollars. we used other alternative like wearing 3 or 4 layers of clothes and wrapped in thick duvet. by doing that, we save lot. that's why we can travel lot more than others.

i'm not complaining anyway. just sharing what's going on in my mind.

well, guess i'm still in readapting process. hitting by the reality makes me demotivated. not ready to go to college. not ready to meet new people. not ready to be given responsibility.