The best photo of the year. Even though it looks like other ordinary photos, it means a lot to me. I love the photo so much. Taken on K.Fizzah graduation day. Thanks K.Fizzah for everything. For the reminders the most. Ye, saya rindu orang-orang Auckland.
Love this video, "What are you doing new years Eve". You must know these two guys. The actor and actress in 500 days of Summer. Someone has suggested the movie. The person said the movie is so real and realistic. In deed, it is. Dari perspective seorang lelaki movie ni bagus. Ditinggalkan perempuan tanpa sebab. Ni selalu terjadi kat lelaki ke? Kat perempuan pun sama je sebab nama pun manusia. But believe me, ever step taken by someone, it must be a reason.
It's 30th of Dis, not really eve huh? No matter what, we are approaching 2012. Leave all the memories and feelings that help us grow up as a better person. Take it as a good teacher, and Insyaallah. Azam tahun baru? Let's talk about 2011 thingy first. Not sure if i've accomplished my wish but for sure I managed to fulfill some the things that I really wanted. About my wish list, I've crossed off almost all my wish list for 2011, which something I'm glad so much. Back then, I really wanted a SLR camera. I was dying to have a SLR camera. Now get it and I enjoy taking photos. Alhamdulillah.
Azam tahun baru, I only have 2 and I just want to focus on these two. My focus is on my study and be good. Talking about being good, it's defined as being a better person, a good daughter, urge to improve myself, sort of thing la you know. Tak kan nak jadi the same person the whole life kan. Wish list for 2012, I want a PC! Apple PC to be exact. Oh, demand tinggi kan. Tapi huh, mungkin tunggu kerja dulu. But, I'm not doing professional work like photo or video editing right? So, I dont really need it. Actually, I'm kinda tired of using laptop. PC is more relax and cool.
Pasal rezeki, Alhamdulillah dengan rezeki yang Allah perluaskan kepada keluaarga saya. Could see the difference. Bersyukur, dan semoga Allah perluaskan lagi rezeki di tahun 2012 dan dipermudahkan segala urusan.
i don't have laptop now. rosak. so i need to wait for my brother or my mum, if the are not using theirs only then i got the chance to blog. for fb, i just just check out from my phone. it's really essential to go online every now and then now because school gonna starts less than a week. need to catch up things from college and my mates.
okeh, okeh back to business. last 2 weeks balik kampung. and as always, it was awesome. during last summer, i spent 1 week at my gramma house even though i have very limited time in Malaysia. the best thing about going to my gramma's is she'll cook almost everything. we have to eat them! yes, we have to. banyak gila masak. sedap pulak tu. hari tu, tok masak cendawan masak lemak cili api, daging salai, ayam goreng berempah. pergh, makan 3 kali boleh. usually i dont really eat that much because i'll get stomach ache. tapi disebabkan makan tu banyak, sayang kalau tak habis dan sedap, harus la diri ini makan dengan banyak sekali. disebabkan saya tak boleh makan banyak, jadi saya makan secara berhikmah. saya makan every 3 hour. dah makan sekali dengan tok, lepas 3 jam makan lagi dengan adik. petang tu makan lagi sorang-sorang. so makan perabih. saya tukang licin kan periuk. dan masakan sememangnya pedas. orang Negeri Sembilan masak weh.
the next day, tok masak ikan terubuk masak sweet sour. makan punya la kan. sebab makan ikan, so jadi sedikit macam orang sasau. yelah, masa kt New Zealand kitaorang tak makan ikan. mahal gila boleh. ikan kembung 2 ekor yang kecik besar 2 jari 6 dollar which worth RM 14.40. wak lu? mahal kot. rasa nak bunuh diri je bila dah makan ikan sebab rasa bersalah. tok aku tengok makan pun kesian je.
second thing is boleh makan buah. saya suka makan rambutan. favourite fruit. ok, jangan gelak. tau la korang punya favourite fruit mesti apple, grape, kiwi, pear * sebut dgn accent British nyah* kan.kan.kan. kt rumah tok ada pokok rambutan, kt rumah saya takde. so, aku jadi 'perak' gila. macam tak pernah jumpa rambutan pulak tu. bangun tidur terus pergi makan rambutan belakang rumah. mak cik saya gelak je tengok. salak pun ada.osyem! kat rumah tok saya takde durian. ada pokok tapi dah habis buah, so on the way balik dari Batu Kikir dan Bahau, saya suruh tok beli durian. makan durian sampai tak boleh tidur malam. panas atas belakang. serious weh. rasa nak terjun kolah. ye, terjun kolah kosong. di kosongkan sebab cucu-cucu suka berendam tapi tak mengaku. me? excluded okeh. i tak buat jenayah even kecik-kecik dulu.
my cousins. and you can guess who snap the photo.....of course my sister. cilok my camera in the car. that's why gambar macam sedikit porno. kesian Darshah. pakai pampers je.
lepas ni cuti sem balik kg lagi. nak balik Terengganu jauh sangat kalau cuti sekejap. sakit belakang naik bas lama sangat.
Assalamualaikum and good day all, Well, I dont think I can sit back and relax without writing something on my blog. Blogging is something that I love doing. I share my thoughts which I don't really share with people in my real life. Weird enough huh? So i can't stop blogging. It just that the issues that I'd bring up change over time.
Another hobby of mine is reading novels. I have lots of them. I love the language and I love the experiences shared. You could see the prospects of life from others' view. You gain knowledge while reading too. Knowledge taught you how life works.
I just got my boxes from New Zealand. fuhh, so many books. I don't have enough space to keep them. Thinking of selling them tapi sayangggggg.
some of them
I just finished a novel by Jodi Picoult, My Sister's Keeper. I know this is a relatively old novel but yeah I read her novels backward. I read her new novels and all suggest to read MSK. Back to time, cari balik novel lama dia. A very sad novel. If you are a mother, this novel would ripped off your heart. A very heavy book because there are so many medical and law terms. Yet, very interesting. I cried most of the time.
for a long time, afterward, my father claimed to see Anna in the night sky.sometimes it was the wink of her eyes, sometimes the shape of her profile.he insisted that stars were people who were well loved they are traced in constellations, to live forever.
grief is a curious thing. when it happens unexpectedly. it is a Band Aid being ripped away, taking the top layer off a family. and the underbelly of a household is never pretty, ours no exception.there are times i stayed in my room for days on end with headphones on, if only so that i would not have to listen to my mother cry.
Monday, December 19, 2011
i'm having technical problem posting the entries. so i'm not going to blog for a while.probably i need a rest but seriously i have so man thing to write because i just got back from Negeri Sembilan. pergi rumah tok. muchos grasias for reading.till then, adios. p/s: see. font pun tak boleh nak adjust.
watch this video. a heart breaking truth. ugly injustice.
hargailah nikmat keamanan yang kita kecapi. well, this is not just about peace, it's about religion honour. taking back Palestine is not just their responsibility. but ours, yet in different ways. we could never imagine what Palestinian have been through. they were horrible. beyond humanity! they are been tested Allah with great test, yet they are redha'.
“We shall surely test your steadfastness with fear and famine, with loss of property, life and produce. Therefore if anyone is tested with some severe severe tests then according to this ayah, Allah has given him more & more strength than other people! Allah says: “… Those who endure with patience will be rewarded without measure.” [az-Zumar - 39:10]
it has been almost three weeks i survive without a phone. it sounds pathetic right. actually, i'm kinda unorganized without my phone. phone is like everything. my fb is there, my dictionary is there, my precious photos are there, my alarm is there and most importantly my ipod is there.
i think i haven't finished mourning for my lost iphone. i don't think i'll get my phone back. sedih tapi boleh redha sebab before this i ever lost 5 phones in a year. oh, teruknya. i used this phone nearly 2 years. so satu pencapaian yang bagus. lagi pn, it's an iphone. so, jadi rasa nak menangis air mata darah juga la. T.T....luckily my mum and my dad are good enough to let me use their phone. dan nasib baik saya bukan jenis orang yang suka melekat dengan phone. tak suka msg or call. so xde la miserable sangat hidup.
love this song. so meaningful. the meaning and presentation are so deep. me and Sizuka couldn't stop listening this song. again.again. and again until we can memorise the lyrics.
also, i like it because they are The Wanted. well, guys i think you should watch their videos on their journey before they went to their concerts and their interviews.hilarious. i like their thick British accent.aauuwww
last few days, i watched a talk show on TV1. the issues of the talk usually around sports and that day they were talking about Harimau Malaya. to be perfectly honest, i don't really know what was going on about our football team because yea, you know i don't really watch football. but when the a massive havoc about them strike, about their performance, they are getting better and stronger, one of my friends, Azri asked me about Malaysian football.
*sentences translated into standard Malay* lol
azri: weh, ko tak tengok ke bola baru- baru ni? Malaysia lwn Indonesia (game pertama, di Malaysia) aku semangat tengok ni! sampai terangkat
me:tak tengok. nak tengok kat ,mane? ada live streaming ke?hurm, best ke? i mean bagus ke diorang main.
azri:hey, bagus la. dulu memang biasa-biasa je. tapi sekarang ni memang kuat. aku yang tak tengok bola sanagt ni pun dah jadi selalu tengok bola.
me: iya ke? apa pencapaian nya. aku tak minat la tengok bola Malaysia ni. tak best. tak kuat.
( saja menguji dia, but mind you i will never ever condemn my own team, my own country and my own people, in fact i hate people who condemn their own country and Malaysian team)
azri: wei Fareha, jangan cakap macam tu lar. Malaysia bagus kot. Memang dulu tak bagus, tapi bola sepak dah berkembang sekarang. pemain pun bagus. coach pun bagus. kita patut sokong diorang ni.
me: aku bergurau je la. aku pun sokong Malaysia la. aku tak kan condemn pape pasal Malaysia. sebab setakat tu je kemampuan kita. tak boleh nak compare, apatah lagi condemn.
azri :hahahha. tau la. aku kenal ko. ko tak maksudkan apa yang aku cakap. aku tau ko saje nak cari pasal.
that's how more or less our conversation before i left NZ. when i was watching the show, i was amazed by the fact that they are comparing Nazmi Faiz to Kaka. they said, Nazmi is Kaka junior or Kaka versi Melayu or something like that. there's no doubt his goal was absolute. perfect.amazing. rasa nak cubit peha sendiri tengok.seram! tersenarai antara 100 kelompok jaringan terbaik dunia. wow.wow.wow. with that distance, he shot straight into the goal. that's amazing for 17 years old player. he's gonna be a star.
i keep repeating watching this video as i'm impress with his talent. young, yet he has a big-just discovered talent. and he's a Bukit Jalil Sports School student. so, i bet dia bukan calang-calang orang.but the funny thing is that, the host of the talk reminds the girls out there that Nazmi is so committed into football and dont disturb him. funny! dah boleh jadi macam Sonny Bill ni. tapi Nazmi ni nampak sangat macam budak-budak lagi. tapi berbakat besar. dan personally, i think semua players perlu diberikan pendedahan untuk bercakap in public sebab kebanyakan drpada diorng tak pandai jawab soalan dengan panjang except Apek. nasib baik Ong tu memang cakap cair. Melayu pun fasih siap betul dengan slang Melayu habis kan.
sekarang semangat tengok bola Malaysia. bila pencapaian makin meningkat, jadi semangat habis nak tengok. terus rasa nak beli jersey Kuning Hitam nih! huwaaa
i've been away from home for quite a long time, i guess and yes it's actually true. due to the fact, i'm not familiar with some of my siblings' attitudes. yada, yada daddadaddada.
well, i didn't spend my teen age and early adolescence with them either because since i was 13, i went to boarding school and of course i spend most of my time at the hostel . and been away for a long period of time ( not going back in the mean time), being in NZ makes me find some of their attitudes are weird and annoying and sometimes funny as in very funny. one good examples is making noise. the first week i'm home, i was so so so annoyed with their loud voice, verbal fighting. hahaha. i'm laughing so badly writing this because i'm thinking what happen to me. they were fighting when i was sleeping, i haven't heard any of this for quite a long time. i was thinking what the heck they are doing? bising gila boleh. at our home in NZ, nobody makes noise because we are adults and we respect each other privacy. so biasa la budak- budak. actually i can bear with it, i used to live in this kind of situation, it's just that i haven't met them for along time, nobody around me makes noise, that's why i find it annoying. tapi sekarang dah ok da.
second, amalan suka membazir. i'm not sure if i'm getting stingy but i can't tolerate orang yang suka membazir. buka lampu, kipas lepas tu tinggalkan bilik macam tu. buka laptop, at the same time pasang TV. i was like grrrrr. banyak letrik kena bayar boleh. in our house back in in NZ, we tried to save as much as we could. we only turn on the light when it's getting dark even though our rooms were dark during day time. and surprisingly we didn't use heater at all during winter when our friends suffer to pay their power bill during winter. it was like triple than other seasons. we just maintain 50-60 dollars per month while our friends' bills were up to 200 dollars. we used other alternative like wearing 3 or 4 layers of clothes and wrapped in thick duvet. by doing that, we save lot. that's why we can travel lot more than others.
i'm not complaining anyway. just sharing what's going on in my mind.
well, guess i'm still in readapting process. hitting by the reality makes me demotivated. not ready to go to college. not ready to meet new people. not ready to be given responsibility.
i haven't really watched TV since i got back, except for last night. i watched 'Penanggal' cerita hantu on astro. truthfully, i haven't watched ghost story for ages. my younger brothers suka sangat tengok cerita hantu. lepas tu mula la, nak gi dapur pun nak berteman. when i see the movie or drama or what ever it is, it comes to mind that is it real? wujud lagi ke cerita macam ni? memang ada ke hantu macam ni? realistik ke? macam tak logik je. lagi satukan, cerita-cerita hantu Melayu ni selalu buat adegan mengaji malam-malam. ada lagi ke orang mengaji malam-malam? bila nak balik ngaji tu, bermula la siri kejar-mengejar dengan hantu. typical. ok, pape pun saya tak boleh cabul sangat mulut sebab saya selalu kena kacau hantu. huuuu, takut nak balik IPTI sebab nanti kena kacau dek hantu. dulu-dulu selalu kena teruk.
since got back, life is so far so good. a little bit boring because my elder brother is not around. my close brother hasn't home yet. my friends are all in KL because now is not semester break yet. my mum and dad are working. haven't contacted my friends yet. ok, actually i dont really have friends kat kampung. balik ni mesti la kena basuh kat my dad. kena mengaji balik. i mean semua orang pandai mengaji kan, tapi bukan semua orang boleh mengaji dengan betul. ok, mungkin patut jdi lebih decent.hahahaha. speak less. yeah, i know, lately i speak super fast. speak alot. my dad doesnt like it. amazing thing is, i only speak to strangers, my friends and my family but not my extended family. tak biasa rasa.untung la siapa yang baik dengan cousin tu.
untuk sort of azam tahun baru ( harap-harap tercapai semua) saya ada list kan sikit.
1. do my very best in final year and final year thesis, so that it could be a good foundation for my master thesis.
2. more manageable. study schedule. assignments.
3. reduce expenses. i'm going to Bandung during semester break and NZ at the of the year.
4. could be more serious with my study.
5. well prepared for practicum
6. spent less time for unnecessary stuff.
7. eat healthy. enjoy slow pace of life.
8. reduce stress. no procrastination.
9. keep things simple.
that's all for now i guess. i dont really enjoy life that much. mungkin sedang melalui proses penuaan. oh, sungguh epic bunyinya. mungkin word yang sesuai, matured.
