first wave of assignment is just finished

peace be upon you
at very this moment, i should say horay and jumpa high into the sky because i have got my freedom. but just for while really. 1 more assignments and test wave coming. i'm glad i've finish this chaotic week ever for this semester. technically, i dont really have much free time this semester because doing stage 3 paper is really hard. challenging. i'm not bluffing and you better watch out folks. a friend of mine even say she never starts doing assignment without crying first. me? so far never cry for assignment because crying would always be my last option. or maybe it's just me who doesn't able to cope well because what i'm doing now is not what i'm interested in. but that does not matter because i'm doing all the way now. 1 more year left. just need to be strong. when ever i feel down thinking about what's coming in the future, i always always and always remind myself to be grateful with what Allah has given me and accept whatever i have because i know that is the best for me. am i sound a little bit emotional here? oh, i'm not actually. tehee. just feel emotionless right after submitting my assignment. yesterday, i got EDUC348 test as i told you earlier. i was the last person to finish the test. i was writing until to the very last minute. my hands were shaking. ya Allah. it's not that i cannot answer the test. well, basically the test wasnt that hard, it's just that doing this course, there's no right and wrong aswer for the question. it's broad unlike maths or science where answer is there. 1+2 is definitely 3, but in language 1+2 can be 100. how irony aye? one more thing is, i always think that i deserve more that i have. that's my biggest mistake. big slap on my face please! who am i to say whether or not i deserve more than i get. my success in whatever i'm doing come from Allah. if i dont get something even though i have tried my very best, Allah will give me somthing bigger and better later, InsyaAllah. huh, being the last person to leave the lecture hall making me feel lost and i dont know what to say. jalan menonong tanpa arah. then, right after the test, i went to Arts to adit my LANGTCHG 401 assignment. we have to submit the assignment by 4 pm and i finished editing at 3.55. you know what? i sbmitted my 348 assignment the way i submitted 401 as well. to the very last second. mula la terkejar bagai nak rak. kalah Watson Nyambek( sorry, not sure the spelling). ok, i'm done talking about academic stuff.after that, Aten and looked at each other. where are we going now? i'm not going to class right now because we already missed the first our of lecture. just jalan Queen st tanpa arah. and yeah. That' all. tomorrow we are going to rugby match betwenn New Zealand and France. gonna be fun.

oh ya, one more thing. need to catch up more things. i really want to share my experience going to rugby world cup match and graduation. i love them.

p/s: what i write is basically what i feel at that particular time. there's time when i feel so sad, sometimes i'm so high and sometimes my spiritual realisation come in and i could say i'm at my highest point of my iman. sometimes i feel so sinful and sometimes i need someone to talk to. i'm a normal person, so my entries basically tell what i go through in my daily basis. if i wrote about religion or piety stuff, i dont even have a little intention to appear pious or kind at all, seriously. it just that i have every little thing in me. kita mesti ada satu perasan untuk berubah jadi baik, i mean bukan la jahat pn sekarang, just nak improve to be a better person academically and from religion perspective. sometimes i went crazy. do crazy thing but at the sametimes i still remind myself not to go beyond what is not permisable in our religion. eh, kind reminder. i'm not emo right now. in fact enjoying a song by Kings of Leon, Use Somebody.