practicum

Sheryll came to me and say " hey, you will be working with Hannah". i have no idea what she was talking because i was in the middle of skyping with my student. " for?". " you will be working with Hannah in year 1/2 classroom". i was speechless. suddently i remember we will be going to school for practicum and i was assigned to ****** primary school. i grinned. and yes, i will be working with year 1/2 pupils which means they are 5/6 year old kid. how lovely. i'm so happy. here in New Zealand pupils start to go to school at the age of 5. they go to school on their birthday. so everyday, there will always be a new student in year 1 classroom. it must be very exausting for the teacher ( i'm in that position now), but it's a good challenge really.
this term, i'm skyping with 3 kids and i tell you, by the time i finished with the third student, i need to get off from my chair and take a fresh air. what a stressfull moment sitting there for three sessions a in row. sakit hati. terguris. fedup. bored. malas nak layan. marah. stress. semua ada. but i never though it as a burden because i will be doing all this things for the rest of my life. teaching and inspiring young children. insyaallah i'm sincere and i'm serious with what i'm doing now. when i see a child, there is a deep feeling in my heart that i want to help them. this would be more heart touching when i see the attitude of the students, what they wear, what they eat. what they write. what they read. i really wanna help them. rasa tengok diorng ni jatuh luluh hati. satu perasaan dalam hati, i want them to be a good/ better/successful person. if i cannot help them, then i fail.
looking forward for practicum so dearly. i know it gonna be a very good experience. and yeah, i will be going to school for 2 week and Aidilfitri falls within that 2 weeks. beraya dalam kelas la nampaknya tahun ni. tapi takpe. ni semua komitmen.

(sacrifice is a symbol of commitment, keeping the faith movie)
just nak share pengalaman pergi school visit tahun lepas la. i went to 2 or 3 primary schools. the pupils were so curious about us. they never see people that are so weird like us. hahhaa. we wore tudung which are so unfamiliar for them except for those who come from Iran and Iraq. unexpectedly, diorng belek tudung kitaorng sebab nak tengok apa dalam tudung, siap tarik tudung dari depan. budak laki pulak tu buat, tapi budak kecil la. instead of fikir kitaorang pakai tudung sebab rambut buruk or semething, diorng ingat kitaorang pakai tudung sebab kitaorang botak. i was like, haish they are so naive. kelakar pun ada. diorng buat tu bukan sebab discriminasi ke apa, just diorng tak tahu pape.at first, they were afraid to talk to us because we wore baju kurung and tudung. lama lepas tu tengok la apa jadi................

i sat beside one the students. tetiba dia letak tangan atas peha saya. then dia gosok-gosok peha saya. saya dh fikir, dah kenapa pulak dia ni. terkejut dia boleh buat macam tu. jadi naik seram juga ni.saya tanya dia buat apa, dia cakap dia suka buat macam tu. sekarang cuba cakap sape ambil kesempatan kat sape? ha!!

p/s: for those who dont know, i'm teaching via skype. we involve in a research project.