sayang tanpa syarat

when i was five, i was admitted to the hospital to undergo lower abdomen surgery because i had some sort of abnormality in my abdomen. at that time, my parent had to do a very hard decision either to continue the surgery or not because i was too little to undergo an abdomen surgery. anyhow, i really needed the surgery to be done because if not, i'll suffer at my teen age.if not i wont be able to enjoy my teen age like i do now. thanks mak and ayah for making the decision. i dont wanna tell what exactly the term is because i dont want you to google it up..hahahha, sorry guys. well, basically what happens is the content of the body capacity bulge out of the area where they are normally contained. it has a potential risk of having blood supply cut off. if the blood supply is cut off, it becomes a medical and surgical emergency as the tissue needs oxygen whichis transported by the blood supply. the doctor suggested to have the surgery immediately becaue if my parent want to wait until i grow up, i have to face the risk. the risk would be i cant breath out of sudden because of blood supply cut off or simply because yeah you what right? hard to describe. because of the surgery and all, my kindergarten life wasn't like yours. in one year, i only went to kindergarten like few days. because of the surgery, i was off from school for 4 months if i not mistaken. even before the sugery, i had to comute to the hospital every month or every week ( sorry, i cant remember because it was long time ago). even so, because of my mum and of course my dad too, i could read fluently compared to those who went to school every day. in fact, at the age of six, i was selected to represent my kindergarten for penyampaian ucapan, pidato or something like that. i was selected because i was the only one who could read very well and brave enough to stand in front of the crowd ( i'm not showing off here, lol).
i still remember, before the surgery i had to fast. happened to be i was really annoyed to have medicine but i had to take it a lot everyday. the day before the surgery, i had to fast but at the same time i had to have medicinetoo. before the surgery of course you cannot take even a drop of water. it's a BIG NO for water before surgery because if you do take water, you die, seriously. so, could you imagine having medicine without drinking water. because of that, i had the wrong idea of fasting. i thought we can take medicine while Ramadhan fasting too. that was so pathetic. hahaha. my mum and dad take a good care of me. thinking of those day, i really greatful. Thanks Allah for my parent. they are the greatest people you have placed in my life. and yeah, because of the surgery i have about 6cm big surgical scar at my lower abdomen. i never show it to anyone including my close friends.

*love you fillah till Jannah*
i'm easily affected by anything actually. when i was at IPTI i was so sick because when dengue was widely spread in Johor i was affected too. the symptom of dengue is when you feel like paralyse throught out the dusk. i suffered you know. when the dusk came, i would be like dead people. i coudnt hold anything. if i do try, i'll definetely drop it off. like seriously bad. i couldnt reply the message.so my mum call me. i only could speak tu pun perlahan macam orang kentut.hahaha. here's the story about dengue. before i fly on to New Zealand, i was admitted to the hospital,again. kali ni sbb taun boley. even last summer, i wgot severe stomachache. brpa kali pergi klinik dan hospital.macam-macam penyakit. kalau ada penyakit berjangkit for sure kena. easily affected but easily discovered. Alhamdullillah. Allah is fair.

i got the parcel that my dad had posted to me last week. so i got my baju raya even though it's just Rejab. hehehe. happy to see these baju raya. i got tudung too. kerongsang too. sayang tanpa syarat yang saya maksudkan diatas is about my parent. they are great people. they are the one who inspired me so much. my life keep moving because of them. they love me so much i know. theyr love me without condition because it is a nature for parent to love their children without hoping anything in return. i love my mum and my dad. this entry is tributed to my parent because May and June is mother's and father's month. i know my mum will read my blog once in a while. *saya malu*