emotionally unstable

assalamualaikum

hari ni saya sangat down sebab hari ni dapat result assignment untuk subject core ***** 306. start dari first sem kt sini, memang saya ambik course ni. tapi up until now, i couldn't score this paper. today is the worst ever. i'm so disapointed. i studied before the test ( it was an in class assignment, some sort of test). honestly, i covered all the chapters. thats why i just dont believe that my mark is so damn low. it's suprising. it's below my expectation. i tried so hard. i woke up early in the morning to study. i revised the chapters few times. still, my mark is very VERY low. sedih sangat. hanya tuhan yang tahun. unlike for ***380, i have no time to cover all the chapters wisely. i just refered to the slight shows and revise the book only when necessary. anyhow, the mark wasn't that disapointing. but no that good as well, i mean satisfactory with not much effort i put.

kalau fikir balik rasa macam tak berbaloi je dengan apa yang saya usahakan. tapi siapa la kita nak tentukan sama ada kita behak ke tak. dulu cikgu saya pernah cakap, kejayaan tu milik Allah. Allah akan bagi pada siapa yang dia nak. walaupun kita usaha, tapi tu bukan ketentuan kita, kita tak akan dapat. mugkin Allah nak bagi somnething else kt kita. yang penting sekarang bukan apa yang kita dapat, it's about how much effort you've put in. ok, Allah pandang usaha. it's not what we get. Dana ever told us that learning isn't about getting an A, it's about hou much you've achieved.yea,that's very true.

when i was in high school, i used to study very hard. i struggled so much to get the highest mark as i could, tried to compete with others. oh, all the school stuff really. but at the end, i didn't get a good, satisfactory result for SPM pon. if you were me, what would you feel? you'll feel something is unfair. life is being to you right? that's what i feel. luckily my parents are always there to say everything is just fine. they encourage me to well, tapi ikut kemampuan. ok, redha dengan ketentuanNya. mugkin dia nak suruh usaha lebih lagi. iA.mugkin itu yang terbaik. harus sentisa berfikiran positif kerana Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita. ni namanya ujian!

saya sangat sedih. rasa macam tak tertanggung je