the fact of fat

Assalamualaikum and hi all

when you look at my pictures, what do you think?
am i getting 'bigger'? oh, i know it carries negative connotation but it's the truth. instead of gemuk orang akn cakap 'sihat' kan. tapi lets be honest. last few days i talked to my elder brother. we webcam'ing'. the first thing came out from his mouth.....'Angah, mung nampok gemok ar'....i was like hah? but i wasn't surprise or angry. i accept the fact that i'm fat ( now). no exercise, no netball training, not sweating, cold weather and some other factors that make me 'grow' even bigger. tahniah...omg, i dont like it. i feel uncomfortable because when i sit, i tend to slouch because it's really irritates me. but i'm not gonna cut any of my meal because actually i eat very little. i only eat bread and sometimes noodles almost everyday!!!!....kesian tak? i become this chubby because i eat bread with chocolate spread, i drink hot chocolate constantly and drink milk almost every day too. kalau dah macam tu memang harus lah gemuk kan...
hari tu ada jumpa sorang Malaysian. she used to be a MAS flight attendant. but she quit and married to Kiwi. we had a talk and she adviced Izzati and me to be careful when chosing the food. she said that the portion of the food here in New Zealand is not suitable for Asian particularly for Malaysian because it's too big and it can make you fat very easily. i agree with her. kadang-kadang aku beli kebab tu, 3 hari makan baru habis. kalau makan nasi dekat luar tu, punya la banyak, segunung nasi. tapi berpatutan la dengan harga. paling murah 9 dollar. cuba conver duit Malaysia, more or less RM 23.40..that's why makan kat luar kt sini, sangat-sangat membazir.

this is my latest picture. gemuk tak? aku ni kalau naik memang naik muka dulu. pipi tak boleh nak kalah kan. mata pun dah tak namapk, kecik jadinya.sekarang ni aku double chin. hati gembira ke? takde lah, biasa je. memandang kan puasa dah dekat ni, harap nya kurus la lepas ni. tapi kena pastikan niat tu betul. puasa bukan nak kurus, puasa sebab dapat keredhaan Allah. kurus tu just bonus la. tapi aku tak kesah pun tak kurus. tok aku suruh aku gemok-gemok sikit. baru cantik tok aku cakap...tok!!!!apekah? esok, Malaysia dah puasa. kita kat sini tak tahu lagi bila nak puasa, kalau esok dah puasa malam ni dah kena start terawih. tapi tak tahu status kotaorng kat ssini macam mana. tunggu je FIANZ. kalau ikut waktu, NZ awal 4 jam dri Malaysia. sepatutnya puasa n raya dulu sebelum Malaysia. tapi lewat sehari. mungkin NZ ni dah kira western part kot? ntah, tak tahu. just follow the flow...first experience berpuasa di perantauan. kinda interesting. tapi nasib baik puasa waktu winter dan berlanjutan ke spring. sing sekejap je. kalau puasa summer, memang letih r. kol 9 mlm pun tak gelap lagi kot. nasib baik.
pada kesempatan ni, nak minta maaf dekat semua. kalau ada tersilap, tersalah, dan sewaktu dngannya. kita ni manusia biasa, we make mistake because of our ignorance... selamat menyambut kedatangan Ramadhan al-Mubarak dengan penuh keinsafan, moga mendapat redha Nya

Marhaban ya Ramadhan, sama-sam kita perbaiki diri