Shoes

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omg, so gorgeous. i want. i want. i want. 

End of Disember

assalamualaikum and hello people!

ok la. it's almost 1 and a half month i'm home. bosan juga eh. ni boleh tahan lagi adik ada kat rumah. bila diaorang dah start sekolah sure kematu saya sorang diri kat rumah. i do apply for temporary job but i'm not that serious about it. one, because i travel here and there for FA.IZ production. two, i'm worried that i will be called in the mean time. lots of people have been asking me about finding a job. let me tell you, i don't have to seek a job. i will be called for interview and posted to anywhere they need me. so, there's no issue like, why not you try here and there. it doesn't applied to me because of my degree programme. even though many people have been suggesting to do Master, once again it also doesn't applied to me. i have to work for at least 3  years or so, until then i could proceed with Master degree. i also not interested in continuing my Master yet because in education field, experience is more important. i know, to hold a Master degree at a very young age is super cool and P.hD before 30's is super awesome. muda dan berjaya kan!  but in school, people appreciate you more when you know how to do things right, handle events and activities well and   control issues thoughtfully. people don't care what degree you have. nonetheless, studying to another level is vital as to improve you professional level. the main problem is, do i have money to do my Master? NO, i don't. i need scholarship. that's why i need to wait at least 3 years. i need to Q. so many people apply for scholarship. insyaallah, i hope one day, Allah grant my wish to do Master, fully sponsor. 

oh, since duk rumah, dah tak berapa kerap pulak bersenaman. bersenaman? yes, at least jogging ke camtu. takde la sampai nak angkat berat atau rutin dumbbell so whatever kan. menggalakkan pembiakan sel lemak je. nasib baik la i ni jenis makan tak banyak sebab perut kecik. kapasiti untuk mengisi makanan pun ciput je. tapi kena makan on time kalau tak i pitam tak lagi nak haru. kalau pergi kedai memang most of the time makan tom yam atau sup je. tak pernah order nasi goreng kampung, nasi pataya and whatnot. tak suka makan nasi especially waktu malam. eh, eh, mesti nak cakap saya poyo diet tu sebab tak nak makan nasi malam. bukan apa, memang tak boleh telan, unless terpaksa. tu pun, sejam pun belum tentu habis.  tapi bila stress, sedih, hormonal and stuff, i eat like a moster. no kidding. rasa tak puas hati selagi tak sumbat banyak-banyak. di bawah pengaruh syaitoon sangat masa macam ni. disebabkan kesedaran untuk bersenam supaya otak lebih cerdas dan duduk terperuk je rasa macam lemau telampau, ajak adik pergi jogging tepi pantai. elok-elok petang tu mak baru balik dari kerja, terus pergi pantai. bila dah sampai, mak teringat hari tu ada pasar minggu. terus ajak pergi pasar minggu. so, kesudahan nya kami tak jogging. tak sihat. i know. tapi tu la hakikatnya. i need exercise. untuk orang yang consistently jogging macam saya, kalau dah berhenti jogging lama sikit, terus malas nak start balik. tapi tak boleh, nanti otak lemau dan badan tak sihat dan tak fit. teheee.      

last three weeks, i shot Ira's wedding. she's my friend in the same programme with me in NZ. her husband Fais was an engineering student in Japan. i excited to share their photos because they are so lovely, awkward but sweet ;)

esok, i'm going to KL. mungkin stay lama untuk 2 shoot sessions. jumpa kawan-kawan etc. tapi tak kemas apa lagi. people, help! 

Words you shouldn't say

kalau nak cakap mengenai perkataan yang tak boleh cakap a.k.a words that you have to be careful with, i think i fail. like seriously, fail. bukan sebab aku jenis mulut celupar, tapi aku jenis take it too easy or slightly think of it. disebabkan aku ni kan membesar dengan lelaki, aku ada dapat juga sifat lelaki yang jenis tak kesah benda sangat, malas nak ambik pot, tak berminat nak gosip-gosip bagai ni. memang aku M to the A to the L to the A to the S. MALAS okey. takde masa. aku ok je nak keluar sorang kalau takde orang nak keluar ngn aku. infact, sometimes aku fancy being alone. tapi kadang-kadang je la. not sure if it's a good habit tapi so far aku selesa je macam tu.

disebabkan aku tak suka over thinking, over reacting, aku malas nak fikir sangat kalau orang tengah kecok-kecoh tengok something, buat something. like seriously la kan, relax la. tapi sebenarnya bahaya juga sifat ketidakpedulian ni. dulu pernah terjadi satu peristiwa yang terpahat kat memori aku yang patut dijadikan pengajaran terbaik dalam hidup.eceh, macam peristiwa hidup dan mati la pulak kan. kes ni takde la serious sangat, but i learn something.

dulu masa buat foundation kat JB, at that time i was 19, so young, so innocent dan selebet. satu hari aku dengan Syud dan Husna nak terpergi ke Angsana untuk buka puasa sebab dah tak terfikir tempat lain tapi masa tu bukan bulan Ramadhan. diingatkan disini, Angsana dulu bukan macam Angsana sekarang. it was back in 2008. tak renovate apa pun lagi. kisah ni berlaku kat surau Angsana. kitaorang decide untuk sembahyang dulu baru buka puasa. diingatkan sekali lagi. surau Angsana dulu sangat kecik, tak macam yang sekarang. tetiba Husna cakap:

eh, ada CCTV la! 

aku relpy: mana ada. takde pun *sambil tiga-tiga orang tengok sekeliling*

Husna cakap lagi: 

tu dia ada tulis ANDA DIPERHATIKAN OLEH CCTV

disebabkan aku jenis malas nak kalut dan nak fikir lebih-lebih aku pun cakap:

mana ada CCTV. diaorang ni saje tulis macam tu. nak suruh orang takut.

* boleh pulak aku cakap macam tuuuu*

ok guys, lesson no 1 here. never ever say something like that because you know that you are joking but you do not realise that people might take what you say seriously. lagi pun like hello, just cakap takde CCTV je pun kan. dan sebenarnya kitaorang 3 orang telah diperhatikan sejak kitaorang even mula sebut that holy word, CCTV! you know like it's taboo to say certain words like if you go to the bank, ada polis jaga pekerja bank tengah bawak keluar duit banyak -banyak dari van, kau pulak pergi cakap 'eee banyak nya duit, kalau curi kaya juga ni'. ni memang menempah maut! kalau duit tu hilang, korang akan jadi salah seorang suspek. padahal ya Allah, main-main je pun cakap macam tu. tapi tu la, mind your words. sama juga dulu, aku ada terbaca satu article ni, pasal sorang budak US belajar kat Jerman. budak US tu roomate dengan sorang budak Jerman. one day, budak US tu hantar SMS kat budak Jerman tu, diakhir perbualan dia cakap 'see you later'. nak dijadikan cerita, that Germany guy was murdered and that USA guy was accused to kill him, just because of the message. people take it literally jumpa awak sekejap lagi/nanti which means diaorang jumpa selepas tu. different culture defines phrases differently. 

terus lepas tu, ada mak cik jaga menghampiri kitaorang, tanya pasal CCTV.

ada apa pasal CCTV? *gaya yang annoying macam kitaorang perempuan jahat*

takde apa. saje je cakap. sebab kat situ ada tulis ada CCTV. tapi tak nampak pun.

so, kalau ada CCTV tak boleh la mencuri kan?

WHAT!! * dia cakap kitaorang sebenarnya nak mencuri*

dan pertuduhan tu berlaku dengan panjang nya. kitaorang di hold kan sampai almost 9 something. dah la masa tu we oulls ni tak guna kereta motor lagi. naik teksi okey. pukul 9 tu dah kena gerak keluar untuk cari teksi kalau tak tak sempat masuk maktab sebelum pagar tutup. lesson no 2. don't be panic. aku ni ada masalah yang aku tak boleh orang tuduh aku. even aku tak buat, aku takut tahap dewa. aku tak buat pun, tapi punya la gelabah, tak usah nak cakap. ni trait perempuan yang sangat kuat dalam diri aku. mencuri? like seriously takde sekelumit niat pun dalam hati even tak pernah ada niat nak mencuri dari kecik sampai besar pun. so, cara aku jawab kat guard tu macam aku bersalah la juga. nervous kot. dia tanya kitaorang macam polis menyiasat penjenayah. memang tabik la skill dia psyco kitaorang. sampai lambat balik maktab okey. tapi yang paling kelakar, dia boleh tuduh Husna yang pakai tudung paling labuh antara kitaorang ni mencuri. dia cakap orang pakai tudung besar pun tak boleh percaya sekarang ni. jahat. tak baiikkkkkkk tau. 

moral of the story: don't say taboo things at certain places or you might get caught red handed. believe me. and one more thing, fear the police not. it just worse habit. aku kalau ada polis berdebar macam nak pecah jantung. that's crazy. padahal tak buat salah pun. haish, so polis bukan calon suami i. eerk? hahaha. 

Day 01- A picture of you and your friends

these are my closest friends. well, actually i do have lots of very close friends. it just that these 'crazy gym dude' and crazy babes plus Izzati ( behind this camera) are my travel mates. every where we go, we went together. because we are close, all of us seen each and everyone worse conditions. semua dah tengok muka hudoh masing-masing, dah tengok perangai tak senonoh masing-masing. that's strengthen our friendship.  

em going to gradute

assalamualaikum

so happy knowing that i made it through. struggle years have ended. endless tears through out the years finally ended here. a new chapter is about to begin. will be flying to New Zealand next year for graduation. insyaallah!

10 days of challenge

as you know, i'm bored regardless things happening around me and photography job that requires me to travel all over peninsular Malaysia. so to reduce my boredom, i'm gonna do this, 1o days challenge. commit for blogging. hehee

Day 01- A picture of you and your friends 
Day 02- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 03- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 04- A picture of you and your family
Day 05- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 06- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 07- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 08- Something you crave for a lot
Day 09- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 10- Your favorite song.

my younger sister

assalamualaikum

been busy with family stuffs these days. being among the eldest in the family required me to be extra responsible for so many things. i do whatever it takes to make sure everybody is OK and i never feel all these are burden at all but something that make me more mature and strong. strong? a very good word here. aha! before before before this, my dad never allow me to drive at night, never allow me to travel very far or driving far from home, but when situation requires me to do so, my dad gradually allow me to. 

one thing about me, i want something to be perfect even i know it's impossible. i want to make the best of everything. i know i can't but i always try. em not perfectionist, but i want certain thing to be ok. as simple as good smell or tidy bedroom. ha, that' me. 

my younger sister before leaving us to OT. and i realised nurses work is veeeery tough

will be away from home this weekend. photography job again. mencari rezeki yang halal. mencari yang halal itu kan fardu. thanks for reading!