of professionalism

salam

by now, most of you should have known that i'm a teacher trainee even though initially i don't want people to know.hikhikhik. but, since blog is part of my life, i write most of everything here except for very personal thing especially love crisis (booooo), i couldn't help myself from not writing about school. i like school. school is fun. i love kids. but, seriously it comes with challenges. 

as a teacher, a student teacher and a teacher trainee, there's a lot to learn and ponder. through out the profession, you'll encounter different types of pupils. when i was in Auckland, i assigned to a girl. she got learning problem and i'd say behavioral problem as well. what would you feel, when you are ready to teach, you are very sincere to teach, but the girl said, " i don't wanna read, i want to play baseball" while looking out the window. then, i got a boy. this boy was very problematic. i had hard time dealing with him and i almost give up. but in the end, i managed at least soften his heart towards everybody, and ultimately he could sit back and learn. during my last session with him, he gave a 'good bye card' with nike logo there. he gave the card to me with a boy attitude ( you should imagine how it be)  and the ego was still there.

in Malaysia, i was assigned to a challenging class. very hard to handle because some of the boys were hard boys. banyak la cabaranya yang tak sesuai nak diceritakan kat sini. at one point, saya pernah pegang kepala budak lelaki tu sambil berzikir Ya Latiff, Ya Latiff supaya Allah lembutkan hati dia. during my last day, i wrote a note to the boy, it sounds more or less like this;

kepada Azim ( bukan nama sebenar)
belajar bersungguh-sungguh. bila dah besar nanti, jadilah lelaki yang baik. kerana lelaki yang baik itu mahal harganya.

agak-agak budak boleh digest tak maksudnya? hahaha    

honestly, i never wanted to be a teacher. i wanted to be a doctor. so, no wonder my blog reading list is mostly medic students and doctors. i  like reading their experiences and struggle. i know medic is very tough. after i finished high school, i take sains hayat. i sleep at 3 every night, finishing mathematics exercises that they claimed as mathematics but it was actually the upper level of add maths. pengsan!  after that, before i went to bed, i took my biology kind of subject notes, i couldn't remember the subj and read until i fall asleep. bangun pagi esok, highlighter kembang atas cadar. tiap-tiap hari macam tu, saya tak mampu. hence, i quit! medic related courses is tough. only people who is tough and intelligent could do that. so, i salute you doctors! i have many many many friends reading medicine. they said, they are stress out, but of course they never show it. i like this one particular blogger. he express his stress in a very unique way. it was hilarious. hit his blog, Hatim Razak.

even though this is not my ambition, once i'm in this system, i'm very serious with what i'm doing now. people cannot question my enthusiasm because it's not something what you see out side because people can fake it. it's what in your chest. nawaitu kena betul dan lurus.jujur dan ikhlas adalah kunci untuk menjadi guru yang berjaya dan iklas. hati kena jujur dan telus because it's heart that make you a good person. i may not a good teacher because i'm young, inexperience but i'm sincere and i hope i could inspire young pupils.

thanks for reading!