Hurt

life is mean. simply because it doesn't treats you the way you wanted it to be. in life you get hurt a lot. a lot. i used to be very emotional when people critiqued me. i'm not angry and dissatisfied, but i'm sad. i allow myself to invite all the negativity elements to disturb my soul. i fell hopeless. it's not that i couldn't take criticism, but the way you say it should be constructive and helping. besides, you have to accept the fact that people just don't care what you feel. you hurt? go and eat your shoes la wei. mean, is it? i've lived for quite long, even though i'm still young ;) . being hurt is normal. NORMAL? pffft . i feel the deepest pain and sadness in my heart.

ever since, i learned not to take compliment and critiques too personal. because it affects my emotional state and my faith have shaken because of that. well, bad to say, i tend to blame God ( which i should not) for making me to go through this bad feeling and dealing with mean people. then, i quickly realised, that it's not the solution. God gives us obstacle in life so that you learn how to appreciate what you have and learn to be picky. selfish. arrogant. but in  a good way. how could it be? don't ask me. 

you make me feel bad about myself. as if i good for nothing. you left me feel rotten on the bed like this!

                               

i deserve this?

i hurt a lot and i learned a lot too. there are things that i couldn't take anymore. i just so so so hurt. somehow, i learned to be heartless. it's not that i choose to be like that, but that's the best way to feel ok. hati ni sampai dah kering. dah kering. kering sangat.dah takde perasaan dah. you should know how much i hurt.  

i learned it hard way! 

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Don't call me heartless. it just that i've learned to use my heart less. 

thank you for reading.