sesuci kasih Ramadhan

tajuk entry tak menahan kan?

anyway, Assalamualaikum and hi all. bertemu kembali. because it's weekend. so time should be spent for myself. memanja kan diri di spa a.k.a bilik sendiri ini.lols!

last week, i got one week break. it was good because we had a rest from 'working' for the whole week. but still, we need to attend courses. i personally think, the period was spent to do lots of reflection and thinking. i used the time to think the way that i don't before. i try to take things positively. i usually might take things in the way i shouldn't. or probably i don't think to much. solution: do not blame others for anything, think what you're not good at. do i think negatively? am i not good enough? what should i do instead of questioning what they said. right? 

i also learnt to like someone i never like. i think i will never like her, ever. i don't like her because she was just weird in the way she talks, the ways she .....ahhh, what ever la. everything just seems not alright. but now, i like her. (hey, don't get me wrong. i'm straight). some people might appear to be complaining all the time, bossy, arrogant  and all that kind. same goes to this person. i don't like her because of that, i think. but now, when i have the opportunity to talk to her, then i realised that she had been through a lot. a reason for her to be emotionally hard and harsh. 

one more thing is, i feel it's weird not to be yourself. like you pretend to be the one you don't. why do you need to appear good in front of others if you're not. i always believe 'BE YOURSELF' at all time. i don't mind admitting who i was and who i am. some people just don't okey. and of course la you're seen as the goddess human on earth. why do you need to appear good in front of human eyes? why ?why? why? as the famous saying says, we're here to please Him, not His creatures. it's what He likes and hidden good thing that matter after all. 

thank you Ramadhan. you give me the opportunity to purify my heart and my soul.