Thursday, April 26, 2012

fenat

stress nak mampos!
sorry if this sounds harsh. these are the words that i really wanted to vomit out.hahaha.
stress memangg tahap tertinggi dah ni. boleh hypertension dah rasanya. rasa nak menyerah diri secara sukarela kat hospital bahagia.things are just out of control. 

tapi segala stress akan berakhir minggu ni.dengan ter hantar nya final year thesis dan berakhirnya hari sukan pagi tadi, maka hilang la ke stressan saya. lepas ni nak qada tidur.tiap2 hari bangun pukul 4 pagi. tak mampu dah.
i'll update for hari sukan later.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

~* *~

you're too good to be true. can't take my eyes of you. Parrih!

Saturday, April 21, 2012

travel?

i need a break.
jom ke Texas!
who's with me? raise you eyebrow.

Friday, April 20, 2012

upside down life

salam people.
i have to admit my life is currently upside down. very badly. definitely. i'm not begging you to understand my situation. pity me or some sort. i just need to wrrite about it, so that i could lighten my burden a bit. hopefully. being a final year student is really stressful. there's so many things you need to handle. assignments are like endless. hundred thousand words essays. critical academic writing. and the worst thing ever, is presentations. presentations. and presentations. like doing master, you need to present the journal you read, findings you just figured out. that's exactly what we are doing. presenting every single journal we read. i don't mind if it's just 'typical' presentation. but when it worth quite a number of carry mark, we have to do it very well. last week i got presentation, i knew about it on sunday evening. i was in Pahang for wedding photo shoot, and we arrived in JB at 10.15 sharp. there's no way i could possibly able to present. but well, you know the protocol. yes, it still went on and i felt crappy. no matter how, i managed to get through. alhamdullilah.
assignments also require me to sacrifice my sleeping schedule. lols. i sleep early because i just can't stand stay awake during midnight. but i went to bed not that early. around 12.30. wake up at 4 to finish my assignemt. fuh. tired sometimes. pergi kelas mata burung. sungguh kecil!. final year thesis is seriosuly crazy dude. i hope i could finish it soon and start thinking about other thing. it would be next week and would be our last assignment as undergraduate students. after that, free as birds. eh, 1 more exam paper and free. next semester would be our practicum and it's another challenge.

masa peribadi tidak dapat diuruskan dengan teratur. my bad.

i'm the vice secretary for rumah sukan for this year. work? tonne of work. i need to find the athlets to represent our rumah sukan, do the secretary work, think about the preparation and attandance *faints*. above all, it's not too bad. it just that i couldn't do things i want like reading. when i got so many work as usual, WE, which means Izzati and I would eat a lot as in you can't imagine. hahaha. diet is so not us la kan.

dan sesunnguhnya tanggungjawab yang perlu kita laksanakan melibihi masa yang ada. semoga apa yang dilakukan menjadi perhitungan amalan kebaikan oleh Allah s.w.t
thanks for reading guys!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

volunteering work

assalamualaikum
for Professional Development subject, we are required to do volunteering work. some sort of contributing something to the wider community. so, after we've planned everything, yesterday we brought out Tadika Semaian Subur for outdoor activities. it was fun and the kids enjoyed the games.



all of them are so adorable. attention-seeker. talkative. passive. yes, we have all types of kids. and some of them i ever seen because their kindergarten is in our college anyway.hehehe. and KIDS are KIDS. when they are excited, the forgot what you told them earlier. berkejaran cikgu tau. nasib baik ramai cikgu, kalau tak mahu pengsan sebab out of control. satu lagi takut la juga hilang anak orang kan.dah la kat JB ni selalu berlaku kehilangan budak.


taking care of them is seriously challenging. it requires lot of effort. then i imagine my aunt who is a university graduate with pre-school teacher qualification, are able to handle young kids while she herself has a daughter back home to entertain when she got home. it must be tiring. so i salute kindergarten teacher because they are soft, extremely patient and have excellent behavioral control skills. i bet i'm not able to. hahaha.because like when you give the instruction once, they dont really get it, or they simply ignore it. you have to repeat the same thing over and over. lenguh mulut rasanya. for me, i felt very tired since we were at the playground.




balik bilik semua tumbang. sebab lepas balik kitaorang mengahadiri closing ceremony for TESL camp untuk junior foundation. sesi kauseling petang tu tak mampu nak pergi. heee.this explains why our government send our students overseas to study pre-school course. it's tough man. it's not easy as you thought.you might think ajar budak-budak je pon. but one thing i mind you, you're dealing with human. if they are not well develop at this stage, in the end they will not be able to learn something more complicated. if it so, want them to engineer? doctor? city planner? IT expert? save if in your dream.hehehe.it's quite impossible.

thank you for reading.

Friday, April 6, 2012

salam Jumaat




perubahan kearah kebaikan itu perlu. semoga kuat untuk Istiqamah :)

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

pemakaian Burqa - my own experience

assalamualaikum
saya rasa terpanggil untuk menulis tentang issue ini. dan saya rasa saya patut memberitahu apa yang saya tahu dan pengamatan saya terhadap isu ini. it's about banning on face-covering Muslims veils in New Zealand. the NZ goverment is running an online survey on YAHOO to collect people's opinion about the banning. first of all, i'm not sure if this pool is really made by New Zealander or other parties so that New Zeland will be wiewed bad in the eyes of other. New Zealand ni sangat suci sebenarnya. sebuah negara down south without any influence from others. they have slow and simple life pace. truthfully, in term of entertainment, Malaysia lagi dasyat. orang-orang New Zealand tidak berhibur keterlaluan. one simple example, movie-movie best datang dari luar sangat lambat masuk NZ. Malaysia far more advance even if compared to Singapore. kalau pusat karaoke dan snooker kebanyakan dipenuhi oleh Korean yang memang tak asing lagi kerana that's how they get entertained bukannya New Zealanders. NZ takde dream world or sort of thing. theme park pn takde, adala ala-la genting tu tapi lame gila. sikit je mainannya. enjoying nature is how they entertain themselves. no wonder NZ bersih dan tersenarai antara 10 negara paling selalmat di dunia.


about banning thing, i'm not sure where the heck the idea come from. well, probably it really comes from the goverment. just to let you know, New Zealand is very much open to diversity. in Auckland alone, there are SO MANY immigrant especially Korean. sometimes, i said to myself, eh aku ni duduk Korea ke? sebab ramai gila Korean. even my classmates pun ramai Korean compared to Whites. also, in New Zealand there are so many refugees and MOST OF THEM ARE MUSLIMS who come from Iraq, Palestine, Iran, Somalia and Nigeria. so the reason for banning is probably because they are scared of the appearance of the people who wear face-covering veils but not because of the negative perception. i don't think they are provoked by Islamophobia. let me tell you a story. this is my story.

when i was in Auckland, i worked to a Muslim Somali guy at his computer shop at Mt. Roskill. most of the community there are immigrants, refugees and permanent residence. my boss is now a New Zealand citizen holder. one day, i waited for the bus to get home and finally there was a bus. probably the last one to city. the driver reminded the passenger to tell him where to stop because he had not driving for quite a long time. finally, there was only me on the bus because it seemed that i was the only one going to the city because i lived in the city. the bus driver asked me to sit at the front seat. he said :" hey you, sit up here" while waving his hand. so i sat behind the driver on the next seat. he asked me:
" you're a Muslim".
" yes, obviously" and smiled.
" how about you? Christian?"
"erm, not really. i'd say i'm a bit of everything" *laugh* kebenyakan orang NZ atheist (tidak beragama)
" tell me about Islam and being a Muslim"
" about what?"
" everything"

*that's so many thing to say, clueless where to stars* he finally asked me where i'm from to break the awkwardness.and the conversation went on and on. he asked me so many Muslim related questions and i tried my very best to give my very best answers. then he finally came to the questions:
" why you wear that? what do you call that" pointing at my tudung.
" this is hijab. Muslim women have to wear this to cover their hair. it also protects women's dignity.also from men to see."
" why do men can't see you hair?"
"because it only for those who deserve it. and we cover our hair so that men won't have desire when they see us.not to be expose and sexy. that's the gist"
" so, who are the people that can see? only husband?"
" yes, of course husband. family but not cousin"
" hey, you know what. i talked to my Kiwi friends (New Zealand's White) about Muslim women with hijab and all of us agreed that women with hijab is sexy. you make us wanna see you more."
*sudah* the conversation went on and on again. *tetiba rasa cam jauh je pulak nak balik city* then he asked me:
" why don't you cover you face like other Muslim women?"
" well, how should i say this. i'm not from middle east. those from middle east usually wear burqa. not sure if it's based on their mazhab. actually, we only need to cover all our body except face and palm covering face is not mandatory"
" hey, do you know the story that happen earlier this year? there was a Muslim woman with face-covering veils was told to get off the bus. the driver didn't not allowed her to get into the with with other crowd, left her in tears on the street? what's you opinion about that"
" yes *nasib baik masa tu baca paper, tetiba memang tajuk tu* i read about it. i think it's not fair to tell her to get off the bus, just because she's a Muslim wearing face-covering veil and loose jubah. just imagine this, there's a robber get into the bus, wearing a baggy pant and hide a gun in his pants. the people will not stop him because there's no evidence that's he's a robber. but when a Muslim woman get into the bus, people are suspicious. they might this she's a terrorist and might carry a gun in his super 'big' cloth" *i said this based on the rebuttal article i read about this issue.
" he doesn't allow the woman to get into the bus because he's scared"
" that's because of the influence of Islamophobia"
" no, we don't have such perception. he said, he GENUINELY scared. probably because of the childhood memory"
blblablablablablablabla.

New Zealanders are very considerate. this issue comes out not because of the idea of Islamophobia. it's just that the people are not fully expose to Islam yet. i never met any rude Kiwi. they are very open to any religion and culture. John Key (NZ PM) said he was comfortable with women wearing veils, adding: “It doesn’t offend me. It’s part of people’s beliefs.”

this is one of the comment made by a Muslim in NZ:
Dr. Qadri's message is right, "However the heading is incorrect, he is not saying face veils should be gone", He is saying when asked by bus drivers, police etc to take your face veil off for security purposes you should do it, and it is not so no necessary to wear it in a country like NZ, unless if you will to do so!...I am a Muslim lived in NZ my whole life, cover my head and body without any problems, but not my face, and totally agree with Professor Qadri who is full of knowledge, and a very pious person.

concerning this issue, Dr Muhammad Tahir-ul-Qadri, who hit the headlines when he issued a fatwa against terrorism and suicide bombing, told the Sunday Star-Times "covering the face, according to the Koran, is not mandatory". therefore, he has urged New Zealand Muslim women to take off face-veil to avoid harassment and debates that have erupted recently in the country.

in our country itself, we are not really encourage to wear face-covering veil as well. if you're a teacher, you're actually not allowed to wear it at school either. but, nobody really say NO because it's your right what ever you want. plus, it seems very rude to not allow people to wear something look-so-religious if you yourself is a Muslim

i'm not in either side. i'm just giving my opinion. but for those who never take off their veils, it would be something . i apology for the flaws in my writing. i'm might not of the best position to say this nor to judge who's is right and who's wrong. up to you. as i always say, read. think and reflect.

Monday, April 2, 2012

me and photography

hello people, here i come today to promote this. well, actually i never really mention that i do a little of photography. something i like and enjoy. photos in my blog are not really my photography master pieces because those photos are mostly randomly snapped when i feel like i want to write about something in my blog. so, i don't really edit it, and not particular about the angle. just for the sake of i want a photo to describe about something.but when it come to real photography session, i'm so into it. excited ambil gambar either for paid photography or photos of moment ( when travelling).

i'm quite shy actually. really shy.hehehe. mungkin dah tahap malu-malu harimau gitu. hahaha. never even say a word that i'm actually a part time wedding photographer. saya bekerja sama dengan Sizuka, si blogger famous tu. hehehe. sebenarnya kitaorang dah lama la juga bekerjasama dalam photography ni. disini sejarahnya bermula. ecewah gitu kan. dulu kitaorang selalu cover graduation seniors. best la juga. boleh merasa grad dan dapat tiket brunch bersama dengan lecturers dan dean. dan alhamdulillah, lepas tu selalu dapat job( wah, ayat nak best sgt nih, dapat job katanya) untuk seasons photography like this one:

ni teaser je eh. takdelh la upload gambar diorng. mungkin diorng segan. ni pun nak suruh buat gaya relax2, natural gitu pun diorng malu. kalau geng-geng kitaorang takde malu-malu ni. buat gaya memang kalah la model. boley puleks kan.

dan alhamdulillah, since balik Malaysia, rezeki tidak pernah putus dengan permintaan untuk wedding photography dari kawan-kawan dan kenalan.mostly promotion dan kelolaan Izzati dengan stategi perniagaan nya yang superb. saya hanya memberi pendapat dan sokongan moral untuk sentiasa positif. bajetnya ayat! tapi bila photography session, kitaorang berkasi bersama. balik bilik terus sujud menyembah lantai. being a wedding photographer is seriously tiring but amusing. kekeke. rasa nak terbang je rasa. you know what i mean right?hahaha.

here are some of the wedding and reception we had covered. i appreciate so much if you do take a look at them.
we covered the whole wedding ceremonies and we were satisfied.

so i have the offer here. this is completely affordable.do consider. this is during school holiday.and yeah, happy holiday in advance guys!


i know i have lot more to improve as the time being. and yes, i will always. with your help and comments of course. bye-bye and thank you for reading.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

end of March and hello April

i celebrated my birthday with my 3 brothers ( what a big family i have right?)this year as we always did back years then because we were born in March. in fact, one of them was born on the same date with me except the year. i still remember, on my birthday, 16 years ago, i waited patiently in front of the labour room at the hospital.

 chocolate strawberry.mum's forever favourite

mentang-mentang kat rumah, bantai je duduk macam mana nak makan kan? hahaha

family is everything to me. thanks for reading!

stepping beyond professional boundaries

salam
as far as i'm concerned, almost half of my readers are my fellow friends and juniors either from my college or other colleges. cece, bajet sangat banyak follower. padahal sikit je. heheehhehe. well, thanks for following me and not bored with the issues i brought in. since most of you are in the same profession with me, i'd like to bring an essential issue regarding to our professiona and personal life . actually, this issue is kinda broad. but i want to narrow it down into education field.

generally, as a worker or professional we cannot have personal connection with the people we serve. for example, a doctor can't have personal or intimate connection with his patient. they just can have doctor-patient relationship. so, the thing they talk and discuss should be around that. as for teacher, teacher can't have very close relationship with her students. the relationship should stop after teacher and students step out from the school. but it doesn't mean that you can't say hi when you bump at the Giant and so whatever.hahaha. what i mean here is like texting and having each other fb account are not really appropriate for some reasons. if you comment on your students fb, you are actually STEPPING BEYOND PROFESSIONAL BOUNDARIES. yes, as simple as that. i didn't make this up. this is the issue in one of the papers i took last semester. so, i have proves.

commenting on your students fb sometimes can make them feel intimidated and they have less freedom to express their feeling and though because they know someone is watching them furiously. kan?kan?.if i were the student, i HATE people stalking me. even if my friends do, i hate it as well.hahaha. that's why, i deleted my students in Auckland's fb. it's benefit both parties. i don't want them to know my social life beside being a teacher, and i don't wanna know theirs because i don't wanna know what they're doing too. let them grow up and let life come to them. let them do self-exploration. it's good for nowadays youngsters.


this might be one of the example of photos you don't want your students see.

okeh, rasanya tak lepas lagi apa yang saya maksudkan. tak puas hati!tak tau nak explain macam mana supaya you all can get what i'm really trying to say. tapi tak pelah, you got the essence right?

***
i miss rugby. heeeheee. the rugby league in NZ has started like last month. our juniors there keep posting their photos with my favourite players and how awesome it was being in Eden Park. i'm suffering! hahaha. i'm jelly! yet, we can still enjoy the games from Astro. but, the problem is...when i got home, i realised that my dad has terminated SUPERSPORT channel, leaving me have no idea where to watch rugby. kesian.but, it's not a big deal pun. Malaysia got rugby league too what? and i still can see on Arena sport. my brother playing for the league under ATM. at least, i have the focus. kekeke. takde la pulak minat players Malaysia so far. tapi my brother ada cakap there's a Kelantanese yang hebat main rugby kat Malaysia. ushar juga la mana satu. tak jumpa lagi yang mana satu. tapi kan, i PERSONALLY think, personally eh, i'm not generalising here..the players should be more cuter. so that, there will be more people would have positive attitude towards Malaysia rugby.



never imagine we actually had the photos of All Blacks players. during super rugby, we never knew who will be selected for All Blacks from Blues. they are Jerome Kaino, Isaia Toeava, Keven Mealamu and Ali William. me who bought the tickets was so satisfied because we got seat right at the players bench. dekat gila! mau tak pengsan kan?

masa kt airport on the way back to Malaysia for good, aku ada ternampak Keven Mealamu, so macam ohmaigad gitu kan. tapi tak boleh la excited sangat. semua orang cam relax je. aku pn relax la. bagi tahu kt Izzati. tapi tak tahu nak bagi tau macam mana. kalu sebut kan, nanti orang dengan and then i might sound so jakun. obviously kalau speaking semua orang faham which semua orang akan tahu kitaorang tengah jakun tengok Keven. even nak sebut rugbi pun BI dan BM sama bunyi nya. so just cakap..."weh, tengok sana. ada pemain!".."pemain apa". gila nak kontrol kan.hehehe.

last but not least, rugby might not be a thing that i want my students know that i loveee so much. Miss Fareha minat rugbi? so weird bunyi nya kan.huh