it's a girl thing

salam and hi all
as usual, i spent my morning at uni even though uni has officially ended. got another assignment. after that i went to gym. 2 rounds of cycling, 30 minutes of jogging, 10 minutes of stretching, a liltle bit of ultimate frisbee, watching futsal, exausted squash. right after i went to Farmers because overybody telling me about the sale and yes it was crazy. i spent some money for rugby t-shirt. and so grateful because i'm not into shopping and far from shopaholic. watching the movie the confession of a shopaholic really makes me scared. i dont wanna be like that. because i know how if feels. it's like you want something so madly. you are not ok until you buy something you want. i ever in that state before but nowadays, i can somehow control the habit. so, i could save..alot. i'm a big spender, i should say but in the end i think my friends have more that i do. i just buy something i really need and i love to buy something that can last forever. i dont mind buy expensive shoes/jandal or anthing as long as it's good and dont thorn out after fews months i wear it. good investment dude! ok, back to business. in the evening as in just now, we girls had fun together. swimming! as our apartment has swimming pool, our friends always comeover and sometimes sleepover at our place. it's good to be with girlfriends. we talked almost everything. laughed dan mengarut. buat lawak macam gila. but it's good, really.

agak-agak berapa orang datang dengan kasut dan selipar sebanyak ni

since our house is not that big, we got to sit down on the floor. evrybody put what they have cooked and we shared it together. we talked about almost everything.------->girls private moment!hiyak, i'm cmpletely exhausted. night peeps!

it's coming

i look at my photo standing in front of assignments' pigeon holes. i cant believea it's me. with very small eyes. look so fat. but i'm sure i don't at the moment. it just that i dont have enough sleep lately. blame the assigment!! i didnt sleep at all the night before i submitted my 'technically' last assignments. V is so strong. actually i wanted to buy Mother ( yang MatLuthfi suggest minum bila tak bersemangat tu, bak kata dia, roh mak hangpa) but i looked at the label below and there was a warning : heaps of energy. oh, ok. that was kinda scary. i dont wanna get high. so, i just bought V. you know what, V is strong too at least for people like me. i dont take energy drink to stay awake. i just take sort of vitamin/protein drink before sport match/training. so, V stimulates all my senses and hormone. feel so good not. almost free from everything.

it's getting hotter now. i keep drink water every now and then. and sweat freaking bad. but, it's a good thing. a big alarm that summer is coming.i won't suffer of coldness anymore.

summer, please come to me. oh, ya. it also means that im going back to Malaysia very soon. oh, i just wanna go back because i'm sick of everything around me now.
ok, got to go. i got presentation tomorrow. pray for me.thank you

the cup finally ours

as i told you, i'm very sure All Blacks will repeat the history. and they did! good job my boys. you are the heroes. our heroes!

after All Blacks won over France, people were screaming and jumping.this picture tells everything. the excitement. overjoy. satisfied. happiness. me? duduk dia ambik gambar. percaya tak?

repeat the history my boys

tonight gonna be a history. epic history. if New Zealand win, New Zealand gonna have a big giant celebration. i have a strong instinct that New Zealand will win. because it's obvious they are good. physically, team work, supporters, strategies and they have all good qualities. if New Zealand win, they repeat the history. 24 years ago, France lost to New Zealand in the final of the inaugural tournament in 1987 and here the same teams are, drawn to face each other at the same place, Eden Park, Auckland. the compilation of "EPIC GAMES in the Semi Final France against New Zealand during the World Cup 1999 in Twickenham, but this time France won the game 43-31!!. but tonight the we will win the cup.

ALL BLACKS are awesome. Go my boys!!

that's how it ends

dan semalam adalah hari terakhir kelas saya di New Zealand. sedih sebab lepas ni tak mugkin dah ada pengalaman sebegini. rasa terharu dengan semua lecturers. rasa sangat bertuah dapat belajar dengan lecturers yang datang from all over the world. England, Germany, China, Chile, US, Argentina, Czech Republic dan New Zealand sendiri. dan banyak lagi sebenarnya.

and this was our very last lecture of the day, in New Zealand. supposedly finish at 5 but since we have covered all topic for exam, we dissmissed.

classmates yang tak sabar nak grad since kitaorng dh in third year. bagi diorng grad la. kitaorng ada lagi setahun kt Malaysia.
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and as i told you, i'm so stress out with the assignments right now. well, i should blame myself for procrastinating. slap, slap, slap. so, i'm spending most of my time at uni these days because if i stay at home, i'll end up doing nothing. but the biggest challenge staying back at uni is you can get live TV streaming. and this is the result

watching rugby! bronze medal match between Australia and England malam tadi. sempat lagi sambil buat esaiment yerk.and yeah, bronze medal goes to Wallabies. ok, saya tengok just last 10 minutes. kalau tengok the whole game namanya gila. tak yah belajar la kalau macam tu. jadi bini pemain rugby je sudah. tengok laki main rugby hari-hari.
thanks for reading!

assignment wave, yet again

yelah, sekarang ni tengah gila buat assignment. sawan duduk tarik rambut sendiri. 2 pulak tu kena hantar hari selasa ni. dah la rugby final hari isnin. hah, tu dia. mampu ko berani nak pergi tengok rugby? ok, will see. dan di saat genting macam ni la diri ini terasa sangat stress. tu la procrastination sangat. last minute baru la gelabah macam anak tupai. oh.oh.oh. stress. rasa tak mampu nak tanggung. di saat ini, terasa sangat best kalau boleh duduk dalam bilik wara putih, dalam bilik tu hanya ada kerusi dan meja, letak kaki atas kerusi sambil buat kerja. tak boleh rimas-rimas. sangul rambut tingi-tingi macam orang baru lepas bersalin. baru tak rimas.

apa macam, style tak sanggul rambut macam ni. cukup macam lepas bersalin tak? ok, sorry stress. back to work!

you cheat on your girl

just imagine this. you have a girlfriend. you love her so much. she loves you more than she ever loves anyone on earth. ish, over kan. but yeah, that's the fact. she's willing to do anything for you even if she have to sacrifice her own life. over lagi. but, are you willing to do the same thing to her? sacrifice something you love for her? as cliche as it may sound, you will say YES. kata bercinta kan. you might have no word to describe how attached your heart to hers because love is in the air *wah, rasa tengok cerita The Notebook *

if you love her, why you cheat on her? why you turn to other girl? you'll say,kawan biasa je pun. ok fine, people say some guys like to talk/chat with girls. but if it's beyond just talking like webcaming or something like that, what it's call? to make it worse, you know the girl JUST from facebook. never see her in person but you like to talk to her.you know what, love grows. hey, you have a girlfriend remember. be loyal please. dont cheat on her. even though she might not know what you did, it affects the whole relationship in the future. believe me. appreciate her okey boys.
i dont mean to be bias here. some girls cheat on her boys as well. but from girl perspective, i see this as a very pretty obvious act of unacceptable rudeness.so, jom sama-sama jadi orang yang setia. well, just remember this, what you give you get back. if you dont wanna get hurt, think before you cheat. selamat beramal!

this Friday gonna be the last day of lecture for this year. finally i can say i'm glad to finish off this semester. tired of academic thing already. but, but 3 more assignments to be submitted. and 1 more exam paper.after that, i can officially say HELLO MALAYSIA
p/s: too much of BUT in the entry

i lost my soul

at this very moment, i feel so sad and somehow undefined. rapuh rasa jiwa. i feel like crying, i see thing beyond it is seen and i feel bad about myself. see, i told you sometimes i'm like an old woman having her menopause. people went through different things in life. your path might be easy and mine might be not. so it's not fair saying that oh, you are not good enough compared to me. or maybe this is what you get in return for what you have done. seriously that is rubbish. some people struggle for certain things but some dont. Bill Gates says life is not fair. so get used to it. yes, life is somewhat not fair because you dont get/have what you want/wish. as a muslim we cant say that because God knows what best for you. oh, that not my point here. i just feel so empty right now. so many things happen within these 2,3 weeks. need time to recover. rasa nak benci orang tapi i dont wanna do that. i know, that's not good for my 'heart'. i wanna have pure heart, love everyone because i see beauty in everyone. i wanna take care of my heart because IT'S HEART THAT MAKE YOU A GOOD PERSON.

jiwa terasa kosong dan rapuh. can someone give me a hug? i need a HUGE hug now.please!! i mean it, seriously.
Auckland City, New Zealand
Spring, 2011

how i spend my weekend

salam and hi all
if you noticed, many people keep posting this picture on fb.

when i first saw the picture, i was like what the heck? i dont have time to think about this. i dont see the mistake. actually i try to calm myself by saying i dont wanna think about this but deep in my heart, i'm was dying to know the answer. then that night i talked to Sizuka, and then we tried to find out the mistake and unfortunately we couldn't. almost giving up, we just read the comments below the picture and no one actually give the answer but they just said, i found it. obviously it doesn't help at all. and there a prompt that help us. keep looking. read it aloud. read slowly. and nah i got it. Sizuka was yelling because she couldn't get it. i told her, hey read slowly. read aloud. she did but then she didn't see the mistake. kecoh satu rumah duk read aloud sekali dengan Aten and Nisa. lastly Sizuka dapatla juga. soalan PTS ni okey. critical sangat. sorry i bukan budak PTS. dulu termasuk dalam 10 orng yang last sekali ditapis utk PTS tapi tak lepas final exam. so kesian. ok, pointnya kt sini, from educational perspective most of us couldn't/hardly find the mistake because we are proficient reader. we straight away get the meaning once we read it. but if we are not a good reader, we will read word by word and read it aloud. then we find the mistake. for example read this sentence my brthr lke to eat fsh and chp. we can say my brother like to eat fish and chip right away because we are proficient reader and we can guess the words. this expain the theory of social constructivism somehow. wah EDUC 348: Reading Process folks! bring it on!
ok, enough of that. i'm off to Papakura for camping tomorrow. will be back on Sunday. sleepover at Hudson Brown because we gonna have girls private moment. ok, tengok rugby je pun. that's how i spend my weekend every week nowadays. rugby and rugby because my girlfriends also so into it. besides having almost regular rugby routine, sometimes we have some compulsory activities like we have this week, or sometimes i go for Daurah with the sisters. so if anyone ask me , do you watch movies? my answer is yes. but if they ask me if i'm free during weekend, my answer is so not. my weekend is never free. i won't let it be. or i'll try to find something interesting like jogging up until almost to Mission Bay. sound good huh? nak pengsan lari boleh.longgar lutut gue.

dah siap kemas!

got to go.need to wake up early. night folks

rugby anxiety

yes, i'm getting nervous because of the rugby. wah kau, as if laki kau main kan. no, but the thing is everybody in New Zealand is talking about rugby almost everywhere. uni, toilet, super market, bar and especially at school. and i madly in love with rugby too. but not because of rugby fever or something ok.i like rugby since long time ago. so, please no words like "oh, perempuan suka pemain rugby je, bukan rugby" " oh, perempuan suka tengok pemain rugby yang hot dan tough je". i'm not like that. honestly, i'm more to stategies rather than hot players. tapi kalau dah tengok tu, tengok je la semua kan. players+strategies+spirit.
we just passed the quarter finals. now we only have New Zealand, Australia, France and Wales for semi final. i went to Queen Wharf for quarter final between France and England. even though France won, i still on England because they are freaking good. France are good too. their defence was magnificent. so for semi final France will see Wales on saturday. on saturday i got camping at Papakura. not sure if we could get live streaming. oh, pretty please. i wanna watch the game!

Queen Wharf before the game, pretty calm before the crowd gone crazy

lightman came out from nowhere after the first half
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next day i got out early because i wanted to go to Queen Wharf because i dont wanna go to Captain Cook Wharf because it's not as happening as QW. QW was packed because everybody in New Zealand crazy over All Blacks.tak kira budak ke, orang tua ke, lelaki ke, perempuan lagi lakan.

only 2 tries from All Blacks that night. frustrating aye? but i'm sure they have played so hard. Argentina has advantages on physical strength and experienced players. nasib baik malam tu Piri Weepu jadi kicker. kalau tak memang All Blacks kalah teruk sebab most of the score sebab kick. tindakan bijak oleh pengurus pasukan! before this ramai orang frust dgn Colin Slade because he's not a good kicker. he was chosen to be the kicker replacing Dan Carter who is injured and drawed from RWC2011. people keep comparing Colin to Dan and he was so stressful because he is inexperinced. i heard people around me said Piri is better than Colin. it's not a fair comparison. Colin is very young and new. for semi final, i'm not sure if Colin playing because he's injured too now.

Piri Weepu, man of the match for quarter final. if you noticed, he also the leader for Haka

p/s: girls,sorry if rugby is not your interest. but believe me, rugby is sexayyy....p

Viaduct Habour, New Zealand
Spring, 2011

anak murid yang terlampau cute

tadi baca blog Syafiq. dia cerita pasal practicum. tetiba rindu practicum. sebenarnya takde la suka sangat practicum sebab penat tahap ibaratnya sampai rumah terus terjelupuk depan pintu. penat sebab system sekolah rendah kt sini satu kelas satu cikgu. means cikgu ajar the whole day, semua subjek. penat tuh. padahal tak mengajar mana pun, tapi penat duk kehulu hilir sebab diorang ada different group dalam satu kelas. tapi apa yang best sangat pasal practicum ni, boleh engage dengan diorang. OMG, they are so cute. i'm teaching year 1

main thumbs up, thumbs down sebelum balik. seronok sangat diorng ni.

ni bukan suara i nerbes ke apa ek. buka juga sakit tekak or high ke. ni just huru hara sebab students berpusu-pusu bergayut kat leher. dengan nak intai gambar sendiri masuk video, dengan nak tunjuk gigi, lubang hidung, semua lah. yang pasif dalam kelas pun bila camera on, terus hilang rasa kemaluan dan kesusilaan. agak vice versa disitu.

p/s: mugkin lepas ni akan tulis pasal practicum lagi. down memory lane gituh

Freemans Bay Primary, New Zealand
Winter, 2011

Mengapa Islam mengajar kita bersabar?

salam
yes, back to the tittle, why Islam taught us to be patient? simply because it is vital. in what way it's vital? in so many wayssss. patience and anger is interrelated because it affects one another.
in Islam, there is a saying 'swallow your anger'. these three words are so deep. instead of saying CONTROL your anger, they are so thoughful to use SWALLOW your anger. menelan kemarahan, bukan menahan kemarahan. betapa mendalamnya maksud tu sehinga kan bila kita marah tu, takde orang tahu pun kita marah. seolah-olah takde apa yang berlaku. pentingnya menahan kesabaran kerana ' orang yang kuat diantara kamu adalah orang yang dapat menahan kemarahan. that's is why one of the golden advice from Prophet Mohammed (Pbuh) to his compinion when the companion ask him to give him short advice by virtue of which he hope for good in the life hereafter, and he said, "Don't be angry." Another person asked, what will save me from the wrath of God, and he said, "Do not express your anger." A third person asked three times, 0 Prophet of God, give me an order to do a short good deed, and he said, "Don't be angry." Once he asked a question of his companion, "Who among you do you consider a strong man?" They said, the one who can defeat so-and-so wrestler in a fight, and he said, that is not so. The one who is strong is the one who can control himself at the time of anger. He also said that anger is like fire, which destroys you from within, and it can also lead you to the fire of hell by your own expressions of anger unjustly.
what ever you did to me, Insyaallah i'm not angry. because i always remind my self to put my anger at the right place. even you always pick my name for something i didn't say, for something i didn't do and please know that only blind people cant see the reality. please be realistic babe! i dont have all day to talk about people.just writing could sooth my feeling.
dan kenapa Islam mengajar kita bersabar? supaya kita menjadi orang yang bertaqwa, dengan sebenar-benar taqwa. kuatkan hati ni supaya sentiasa menasihat utk kebenaran dan saling manasihati dengan kesabaran.

weekend

salam and hi all
been so weak lately and yesterday was the climate.one of my friends say i looked pale. i wasn't really busy but i think it has something to do with my blood pressure. i have very low blood pressure. that's why i always feel like fainting when i'm extremely tired or if it's too hot. yesterday was kinda hot. so, i got headache. happen to be, i had test as well.great combination! before the test, i went to Saudi Arabia booth at Quad. they were celebrating their national day. makan nasi Arab! they also showed what they have. the tallest fountain in the world, the biggest masjid in the world, they produce oil and it's the biggest company in the world. a very rich country and they are so blessed.

we did henna but i dont know if henna assosoate with Arab culture.
izzati, thanks for the photo.

thank you for reading and have a good weekend.
University of Auckland, New Zealand
Spring, 2011

for the love of cat

hey, do know how much i love cat? i open my arms, wide. so that i could touch east and west. that's how i can demonstrate how much i love cats. actully, i love cat and dog. but muslim cant keep dog at home. cat is good enough.

cool as guy. with lovely cat.

this video was recorded at Hudson Brown. we were on our way to Mission Bay. cycling la sangat. now, i'm suffering post-bicycle riding. yeah you know what i mean right. cycling from 9 to 6. that was crazzay. gila suffer sekarang ni.

let the soul free

salam all

i just submitted 38 pages research proposal for my final year thesis. that's only proposal. not the report yet. the actual one gonna be lot more to do. bless with my life now. i spend most of my time reading with pleasure. enjoying free time while waiting for another hectic week, yet again. second wave of assignments coming in three weeks. bless with what i've got now. everything seems right. i'm enjoying my calm soul at the moment. Alhamdullillah, it might because some of the spiritual practice i've been constantly practicing. thanks for suggesting peeps!

tertarik dengan apa yang dikata oleh Daniel Carter. please say yes you know him.

here's lot of sacrifice made to reach the level of being All Blacks....you have to eat well, you have to train hard, you have to party a little bit less. you know, that sort of sacrifices because at the end of the day, it's not easy what we do. if it easy then, everyone will be doing it.

everyone need to sacrifice in life. who doesn't right. it just the matter of you might need to sacrifice in one thing and other might in another. we are human being. being tested if we admit we are belivers.just kindly reminder here. let pray for our brothers and sisters in Somalia. they are starving to death.

thanks for reading!