when things went wrong

assalamualaikum
sorry if you feel so much annoyed reading my blog lately. i've been so emotional. there are so many things that let me down. my stuffs. my results. people around me. the weather. assignments. lecturers. hari ni rasa macam nak sampai kemuncak. i feel like crying so badly. i went to Mt Roskill and Guled wasn't there. then i decided to straight away headed to the city. i have no idea what happened to me. rasa sangat emotional sampai nak menagis tak henti-henti. dah rasa macam perempuan menopause pulak kan. one of the reason for sure because i'm reading Eat.Pray.Love novel right now. my emotion very much influence by this novel. Elizabeth Gilbert is potrayed as a woman who suffered a bitter divorce. tapi saya bukan masalah marriage pn.kahwin pun tak lagi. ok, sebanrnya hari ni macam malas nak mengadap *****306 because i have no interest at it now, for so many reasons. second, i got headache. rasa malas nak layan orang. bila smpai Mt Roskill Guled takde, punya la tunggu, dia still tak sampai. malas nak layan. tetiba hari ini for the first time i could see Muslim guys keluar dari masjid AUT ramai-ramai selepas siap sembahyang jumaat. dan, saya melawan arus dan saya sorang je perempuan. nak pengsan rasanya. segala jenis manusia boleh nampak.masa balik Volt, tengok tengok ada orang atas rooftop bangunan sebelah. rasa macam pengsan tengok orang tu.

it takes me ages to finish this novel. the plot line is apathetic. slow. i've watched the movie last year. happen to be, me and Izzati were the only human in the cinema hall to laugh out loud. i guess they didn't get the jokes make by Asian * jokes made by Ketut*

Aotea sq, Auckland city, Autumn 18 Mei 2011. tenanglah wahai hati! saya tahu manusia akan sentiasa diuji bermula dengan apa yang kita paling sayang, apa yng paling susah kita nak tinggalkan.

p/s: even masa tengah ambil gambar ni tetiba ada sang burung pergi berak atas saya. terlukanya perasaan. mana tak bertambah sedih, keluar sebab nak tenagkan hati, ambik gambar tetiba ada orang buat khianat..sedih. tapi takpa, saya terima tu sebagai sesuatu yang mugkin ada hikmah disebaliknya. oh, kenapa perempuan sangat emotional * not really natural for me, it just that i have so many problems now* btw, dont forget to chill. i'm smiling right now

thanks for reading!