p/s: even masa tengah ambil gambar ni tetiba ada sang burung pergi berak atas saya. terlukanya perasaan. mana tak bertambah sedih, keluar sebab nak tenagkan hati, ambik gambar tetiba ada orang buat khianat..sedih. tapi takpa, saya terima tu sebagai sesuatu yang mugkin ada hikmah disebaliknya. oh, kenapa perempuan sangat emotional * not really natural for me, it just that i have so many problems now* btw, dont forget to chill. i'm smiling right now
assalamualaikum
feels like writing right now but i have no idea what to write. too many things to share actually but i dont really have time to sketch them all. so many things need to be settled right now. well, students life. wah, macam dia sorang je student. takde la, i'm struglling so hard to survive in my third year. the subjects are tough. this year, we have very little support compare to second year. sape kata ambik TESL ni senang? people always say, TESL je pon. omjayy, nak serabut hotak ni. can you write 1000/1500/2000 words academic essay, critically in just a blink of eyes? that's all we have to do.write.write.write.write. TESL, unlike other course is a challenging course where it provides no right and wrong answer. now i know why some people quit!
i need to struggle so hard to live up to their expectation.hope to survive my third year with Doa and His bless. pray for me...
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Assalamualaikum and hi peeps
life is pretty good nowadays. having so much fun lately i guess. not the wild one of course. just hanging around with housemates. went to newly found halal restaurant. discovering new places. that's so much fun. spending so much money on good food as well lately. even though we almost broke because of super duper expensive Australia trip last month. but still got money to survive. rezeki is everywhere right? i really feel good after submitting Maths assignment. what a release. after all those sleepless nights, finally i'm free. well, actually i dont have to stay up to finish the assignment. my own fault. i started kinda late for the maths assignment because my mini dell laptop which i'm using right now doesn't have WORD. somehow i should blame my self for being procrastinator.so macam loser
last saturday we went to domain. for the first time this year. so breathtaking. rasa nak tertidur atas rumput. seronoknya rasa hidup sihat. bersenam. jaga pemakanan. tapi sekarang kononnya hidup macam dah urban sangat sampai lupa diri nak jaga kesihatan. yelah, dh la duk Auckland city, duduk Queen st lagi tu, betul center of the city like everything just stone's throw distance. kalau lapar turun pergi CFC. pergi sushi. Dunkin. Chochlate shake kt McD. Adana kebab. Chalin. Subway. Bali star. Oporto. oh ya, ni pn baru balik Oporto. beli y grabone tu sebab zati ada beli kupon y 1 dollar tu.
waiting patiently for the burger. Oporto is highly recomemded because the burger is made from grilled chicken. no oil and the chicken is not well done. good for health.
Oporto addicts. even kt Aussie pn pergi cari Oporto jgk. this photo taken just now. less than one hour. the wind was so terribly strong. freaking cold. my hand got numb. plus, it's raining almost every day. it makes it even hard for us to go to class especially to go to class at Epsom. but life must go on. ok, ni tak menahan. just boleh je nak g kelas. it's about WILL people! menempel kt diri sendiri! hey dont get me wrong. saya tak ponteng kelas (sangat) yerk . tapi pernah sebab pernah rasa tak mampu nak terus kan dengar lecture 2 jam.
now, i have so many plan in my mind. same goes to my housemates. before we going back for good at this end of this year, rasa nak melawat semua tempat kat NZ ni. mugkin melalui semua lorong kecil dan hitam dalam Auckland ni. 0oh, ok gurau je. my primary focus now is on the assignment. research proposal yang macam omg susah nak fikir. argument and all stuff related to it really makes me sick. sick of being critical but on the positive side it helps me to make a good research proposal. i need to focus on the tests and exam as well. we only have 3 more weeks left, for lectures. then study weeks. this sem nearly comes to its ends. how fast time flies. rasa baru semalam rasa macam start sem. but a semester here is pretty short. school started on March and now it almost end. tak sempat nak bernafas dengan tenang
i know, everybody is so busy right now. tak kira dimana anda berada. Malaysia, New Zealand. America. Colombo. India.Indon. if you're a student, i bet you must be studying right now. exam is just around the corner or probably just in front of your nose. study well and take care people.
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Assalamualaikum and hi folks
tajuk tak menahan. tajuk lagu All American rejects gitu kan. tajuk lagu tau, bukan title movie everybody has little secret tu. cerita tu sooo eeeuuuwwwww.ok, just nak tanya korang, pasal little secret dulu-dulu masa kecik. korang pernah tak ponteng puasa. haa, baik cakap betul-betul. mesti pernah kan. tak kan korang lahir-lahir dah jadi manusia berguna kan.saya dulu pun pernah je. zaman tak kenal lagi dosa pahala. dulu bukan nak heran pun puasa ke tak. puasa sebab mak ayah suruh kan. bukan ikhlas dari hati yang suci murni. dulu, masa darjah 3, ayah dengan adik beradik lelaki semua pergi masjid sembahyang jumaat masa bulan puasa. tinggal la saya dengan mak saya je. mak saya duduk dalam bilik. saya duk sorng -sorang kat luar. apa lagi, kata hati suruh pergi dapur makan. nak kata hasutan Syaitan mugkin tidak sebab bulan puasa. tetiba lagi menyeronokkn ada sardin roll atas meja yang sahur pagi tadi tak habis. menggoda! kecur liur. dengan selambanya saya ambik terus makan. tengah duk sumbat tu, tetiba mak saya keluar pintu. ops, mmg tak sempat nak cover. kantoi. kena marah kot. adeh.tapi tu dulu. sekarang dh tak. dah ada kesedaran dosa dan pahala. satu lagi, korang pernah tak tipu sembahyang. chop! saya pernah. saya pernah tanya ada sister ni, dia agak alim. dia cakap dia dulu pernah je. dan kebanyakan yang saya pernah sembang cakap pernah je. kalau dulu mak suruh sembahyang, masuk bilik pakai kain sembahyang. duduk atas sejadah mengelamun. tak pun masuk bilik je. tak sembahyang. bila mak tanya dah sembahyang ke, cakap dah sembahyang. subhanallah, kalau ingat balik rasa cam bodoh nya la aku ni. tapi sekarang ni dah tak buat. dah tak tinggal sembahyang. even sekarang ni kalau call or ym family mesti ayah saya tanya, sembahyang tak ni? sembahyang ayah. jangan tinggal sembahyang tu. siap tanya la housemates semua sembahyang tak. diorng ni tergelak je dengan soalan ayah saya.
masa kecik selalu kena paksa mengaji. saya mengaji 3 kali sehari. subuh. zohor. lepas magrib. kalau tak betul, tangan kena ketuk dengan hanger. sakit sangat. menangis bagai kena dera.hahaha. air mata tu mengalir sampai lunyai-lunyai Quran. koyak-koyak siap. punya la kan nak ajar mengaji. punya la kan nak bentuk jadi manusia berguna.
why i'm writing this? yes, as my appreciation to my mum semperna hari Ibu. only with my mum's effort i'm the person i am now. mak, thank you for bringing me up as a person.
last day at JB 2009
Assalamualaikum and hi all. today is pretty awesome for me. i never had pleasant weekend where i could walk and inhale the air like i did today since i'm not sure exactly when. well, quite a long time since i always have stuff to do with assignments and sport practices. i woke up this morning, opened our apartment sliding door, stepped out side and take a deep breath. what a great refreshement. i felt renewed. it was freaking cold though. couldn't stand to stay outside for too long. then, i made my way to domain since i really have to have really good stamina for coming games. i need to jog 3 times per week atleast. so that i won't easily get 'puncit'.
 cam biasa, kalau ada rugby mesti tengok.sempat juga sambil lalu tengok first half sampai habis. they are junior high i reckon because their skills are not well develop yet. xdde uhmm sgt lgi, y mana bila tengok tak rsa nak kacing gigi lagi
last night i went to a programme. it was a progaramme called From the street to the Deen. it was about Musa Yasin. i'm not sure whether you guys familair with him or not because me myself never know him before. he is an African American semi-pro basketball player and ex-rapper. the whole programme was about how he comes to Islam. it was about how he, from all his past to the sensation of Deen. when i arrived at business school where the event took place, they were just started. the ladies at the door asked us to have a seat and listen to the announcement. you know what, Musa Yasin wasn't there. he didn't come. the guy in charge explained that Musa Yasin stuck at the New Zealand immigration and custom. at first, the flight he boarded had an severe engine problem so that they had to turn to Australia if i not mistaken. Then he waited for the next flight to New Zealand. When he arrived New Zealand airport, he wasn't allowed to enter New Zealand. he was stopped due to immigration issues. it made me speechless for quite along time. how come? well, he is known as a person who spread the words of Islam and how he comes to Islam has inspired many people. i was so frustrated really. the guy in charge, Ali Tahir said that probably New Zealand is not ready for all this stuff yet. yea, that's true. i still remember when i was on the way back home from Epsom, there was a lady sit next to me asked whether i come from Afganistan. ok, that was really funny. Afganistan? am i cute enough to be an Afganistan girl? well it was just random assumption because people think that muslim only come from Middle East. yang paling yang tak menahan ada orang tanya kitaorng ni ni dari Israel ke. tu la sebabnya kena tengok berita. ni tengok TV tengok mtv je. ok, where am i now? oh yes, the lady. then i said i'm from Malaysia. she said she never see any Malaysian like me. agak menyedihkan disitu. Malaysia is not known as an Islamic country even though the official religion is Islam and the majority of the population is Muslim. it got me to think. this is not the first time people look odd when i say i'm from Malaysia. then she said, she has been in New Zealand for 20 ++ years. she told me that it was just last 3 years Islam is well accepted in New Zealand. before that, it wans't. it tells me why our goverment doesn't send many students before. about Musa Yasin, we still could see him eyes to eyes because they tried to live stream him from Australia. he still in Australia, waiting to be sent back to States. sempat juga dia mencerita kan macm mana dia boleh masuk Islam. that really inspiring. he claims that the hardest thing to leave after he came to Islam is music. music was his life. he said, somehow music can shaken your faith. the lyrics i mean. and he gave very much advice to the girls. i really bless. Alhamdullilah!
semoga kita sebagai orang yang lahir dalam Islam lebih memahami Islam. semoga Islam kita bukan lah sekadar warisan
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salam and hi folks.
last night i had a look at my photos when i was young * as if i'm old enough now*boooo. not young, i mean the photos after few weeeks i've arrived here. unlike other people, they get chubby/ fat/or whatever that calls when they are home. i'm not. i eat alot when i was at IPTI. i went out for food because there was always somebody asked me to go out for food. plus, i like to try new food. i like food.well, everybody does. after i had finished my last semester before i flew on, i stayed at home for more or less 3 months. i didn't eat as much as i do when i was in IPTI, just because i don't eat things that i cooked. i lost the appetite to eat when i cooked simply because i was full with the testing. is it tastes good enough? the same question keep on repeating like forever before i finish cooking. looking at those picture last night, i was like...am i this cengkung before? wow, amazing. how can i be this chubby now?
here were are. during the first week of being here. talking about very serious issue, halal and haram stuff
look at everybody, kurus kering, kerengga. and look at my face, cengkung. Nisa always says that i was so cengkung before. now, memang tak. like everybody keep on commenting about my body. eiii, bulatnya. besarnya..sentap boley. that's is the most sharpest word to say to a girl, honestly. for guys, they might not care much. but for girls it involves emotinal sensitiveness and self esteem.today, i have no idea why i lost my mind. with Sizuka, i always do crazy things. back in JB we always go somewhere all of sudden,no plan, so random. going out until pak guard close the gate. do everything that crosses our mind at that time and all. today, right after PD class, we went to Queen St. you know what? i bought 7 tops and 1 pants. wow, that's crazy ok. dh la duit xde. i didn't use credit card either. i just went crazy because i was so stressed out with Maths. tak pasal pulak kan. tapi betul la. sorry kepada pencinta maths semua. hidup ku miserable dengan maths. ok, alasan je sebenarnya. this is what girls do when they have nothing to do or they are having problems..generally.
here's the result. kalau selalu macam ni, akhir tahun ni post barang balik Malaysia berat dengan baju je..kan
who's graduating? not me, of course. i'm just barely started my third year. one and a half years more to go. phew! see, could you imagine how i can't wait for my graduation. it's not that i really want to work or something, it's just that i want to graduate as soon as possible. i want to feel how graduating is like. it must be great aye? what makes it even more significant is, if you graduated from University of Auckland, it's gonna be one of the memorable experience for whole life. i'm not bluffing. it's true because one of the interesting thing ( for me) is walking proudly from uni to Queen st. everytime i see graduates walking happily, i envy them.
Aotea Sq, Auckland CBD
today, i went through the whole proccess. from marching to bruch to the ceremony. i'm taking the photos for one of the seniors. as early as 9 in the morning, i went to Old Goverment House for some kind of graduates gathering before marching. i met Zarina ( the senior) and her mother and Zack. the road were blocked for the marching. pergh, memang bangga la. berjalan remamai pakai jubah semua tu. terkeja-kejar juga la untuk ambik gmbr Zarina sebab diornng memang jalan laju. right after, marching we went to Albert park for out door photo shoot. she was lucky because today is sunny. look up, hand to the chest! beria la bergambar sambil lempar 'topi'. jeles sgt
Faculty of Education, be proud of being part of it dude.
lepas dah penat bergambar, we went to the canopy just besides the Old Goverment House. i got the ticket for brunch. thanks zarina for that. all the lecturers from faculty of education was there including shyrell. kantoi ponteng kelas boley! dengan John siap ada. memang xleh bla la aku ni. shyrell was asking me why i was there. i told her that i'm taking zarina's photos. i told her that i went to Mondays's class. excuses accepted! she positively reply, ' you know what, it's good to experience thing like this. you'll be motivated'. yes, of course i did sampai rasa nak menangis. what makes me really touched was the speech of one of the head departments or dean or i don't know, i wasn't sure who she was 'we, in education field does not earn money as much as other fields do. being a teacher, we won't be well paid, it's not glamorous unlike engineering, doctor, architucture or whatsoever. but we are the most fundamental factors that contribute to civilised nation' ( ayat y telah di paraphrase, somehow la). rasa nak menagis boleh. yeah, that's true. the most important thing is you ought to be honest. you should to have will to help young people to become good people and so on. ok, cikgu membebel la pulak kan. next!
ok, she also acknowledged Malaysian students. ayat dia lebih kurang cm ni " we are proud to have students from all over the world. we have students from America, Korea, United Kingdom and we have a big group of Malaysian students. gulp, telan air liur. Malaysian students are well known sebab bijak-bijak excluding me. mostly dapat first class honour degree kot. kalau ada yang dapat second class honour pn, still in first division. otak memang gila la. bukan senang nak dapat first class sebab berapa orang je yang dapat.
| at 1.30, i headed to the ceremony hall. subhanallah, like Sizuka said, it was like in Harry Potter movie. there was a guy playing piano at one corner of the hall. it was so loud. meremang bulu roma. nak tercirit pun ada tau. orang lain la. not me.tibe! semua orang masuk pakai jubah. ada orang putih, ada orang itam, ada orang coklat, ada orang sawo matang, ada orang kuning. semua la ada.Sizuka cerita, masa dia pergi yang hari isnin hari tu, ada pak cik Melayu tu menenagis tengok anak dia naik pentas. who doesn't right? when you see your daughter that you've brought up for more than 20 years graduate. it's becomes more significant because it's university of Auckland. number 1 university in New Zealand. everyone in New Zealand crazy over going to this university compared to other universities. last time, i asked one of the first year students either she likes this university. she told me that she studied very hard because she really wanna be part of the 'society' in this university. and finally she did. plus, University of Auckland is one of top universities in the world (saying this, i have no intention to brag at all. honestly, i'm so grateful to be given this opportunity. you must be cleverrrrrerrr than me. i'm sure. it's just a matter of rezeki).
ucapan sangat la lama. tertidur. bangun-bangun elok-elok group Malaysian yang naik stage. lepas semua dh naik, sambung tidur sebab kepenatan berlari jdi photographer la sangat.
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assalamualaikum
a massive tornado strikes this aftrnoon. it was at Albany which is very close to us.it's just 15 minutes from our place. i was freak out. and even now, i can still hear the wind blow aggresively out there. the tornado bashed Auckland around 3 in the afternoon and at that time i was in Jenny's class. i felt a bit unsual when i looked out the window becuase the wind blew so hardly all of sudden. not knwing what was actually happened, i just walked in the rain headed to Queen St. yea,hujan lebat dari biasa. but, it stoped all of sudden. weird! but i was not even thinking of anything.it's raining because autumn is here anyway.
my mum called me even she just called me last night. she's so worried. it was on news in Malaysia about this tornado. that's why she called me immediately. she asked me to not stop 'praying'.i'm scared, to be truth. anything could happen. pray for us, i beg. that's the only thing that save us from any harm. as i always say: volcanoes, tsunamis, earthquakes and tornado are so New Zealand thing. so no guarantee of surviving. *tidur dalam ketakutan*
i realised that i've been talking about emotional things lately which is so not good. we should enjoy our life right? getting unexpected things in life doesn't mean your life end at that point. come on, move on Fareha!. i want to be a positive person. redha dengan segala ketentuan. insyaAllah.
i just talked to my mum, my dad and my brothers and sisters via webcam. oh, the feeling is so good. updating each others' life. talked about current issues in Malaysia. all those thing just make me cant wait to go back for good at the end of this year. and of course the same and always advice from my dad 'jangan tinggal semayang' 'jangan duk ikut orang pelik' 'jangan buat benda tak elok'. insyaAllah tak buat benda mengarut.
sekarang ni takde masa nak blogging sangat busy dengan assignment. lepas hantar assignment boleh blogging puas-puas. i'm passionate on writing because i like to share things with people. it's not that i want to brag about my life of something, it's just that i find pleasure in writing.so, don't hesitate to comment on my blog. and and and like to read people's blog as well. i do read banyak blog but usually i just become silent reader. malu nak comment boley.
mengimbau kenangan berkampung di Roxburgh selama sebulan setengah..mengenali New Zealand people to their heart. disini hati sangat tenang. tak perlu fikir pasal manusia pn. fikir nak kerja sebab nak cari makan je. macam tu la kehidupanorang kt Roxburgh. ni muka keletihan bekerja packing buah.
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