graduation

assalamualaikum.

sepanjang ketiadaan aku kat rumah hari tu aku pergi rumah tok aku kat Negeri Sembilan. the main reason was i never been to her 'new' house since she renovated her house at the end of last year and i wanted to go to my aunt's convocation. aunt doesnt means old okey. she's just 23 and i'm 21, 2 years younger than her.what makes the difference is, at the age of 21 she's engaged and obviously i'm not. and she's married now and has a cute little daughter. click here for her wedding. my mum WON'T let me get married before i finish my study. sedih tau. tetiba nak sedih.

it's kinda cute to have kid when you're studying. somehow, kelam kabut juga. tiba-tiba aku pun terkelam-kabut sekali. my aunt's convocation day was on 22nd of Nov. on 21st Nov we were still in Terengganu and we headed back to Serting at 3 p.m and we stopped at Jengka because my tok wanna meet her friend. later, we went to Bandar Temerloh because my tok wanna eat ikan patin. she said, it's like a compulsory thing to do when you're in Temerloh. unfortunately, most of the shops were closed because it was already 9 p.m. so, we went to Happy Chicken. tengok Lim Chong Wei dalam final badminton sukan sea sambil makan. tetiba tok aku tersemangat tengok Lim Chong wei. termenjerit. orang pun tengok.hahahaha. aku tergelak jelah. we arrived home around 11 and we slept because we were going to UNISEL at 3 a.m. i woke up at 3.30 a.m. bersiap semua. tengok mak cik aku. sebelum dia bersiap, dia siapkan anak dia dulu. bawak semua barang-barang, jubah convo, bakul susu anak dia. dah la kejap lagi nak drive ke selangor. it takes 4 hours from Serting to Kuala Selangor tuh. kalau aku mesti dah surrender. aku tak mampu kot. mesti penat. yelah, bangun-bangun tidur awal pagi gitu, nak uruskan semua tu. maybe,aku cakap macam ni sebab aku tak bersedia lagi. kot.

sampai sana betul-betul pukul 8. dia terus lari ke dewan. aku yang pegang anak dia. husband dia tak ikut sebab tak dapat cuti. huru-hara juga la. aku bawa bakul susu. aku buat susu banyak banyak. sebab anak dia tak minum susu lain selain susu bayi dalam tin. baru 4 bulan. hurm, tak bagus tu.ahaha. dannnn...budak umur 12 tahun ke bawah tak boleh masuk dewan.means, anak dia tak boleh masuk, means aku pun tak boleh masuk. nasib baik la Darsyah ni jenis tak menangis. nangis sikit-sikit jelah. punya la lama aku tunggu kat luar. Darsyah sampai 2 kali tertidur atas bahu aku. mak cik aku cakap aku memang terrer ar sebab Darsyah sampai boleh tertidur dengan aku.

ada gaya nanny tak? atau seorang ibu mungkin?

Siti Nurul Darsyah, bererti kefahaman sama macam Fahmi. mak cik aku cakap, dia suka maksud kefahaman sebab cousin aku yang nama Fahmi tu bagus sangat. cepat faham apa yang orang cakap. dengar kata pulak tu.

i really want to go to the convocation. whoever convocation day. i like the feeling.i feel like graduating as well. cant wait for my own graduation day. it's not that i really want to jump into working profession, but i envy them. right after i finished my degree, i'd like to pursue my master internationally, hopefully. but it's impossible because i have 5 years or maybe just 3 years contract with the government. phew, means i have to wait. so, i have to get married first. if not i'll be andartu, word that really worries my gramma. depends on the opportunity that comes later, internationally or locally or not doing it at all. i dont know what future holds. actually, i dont have plan to continue my study to the master level because study itself is really stressful. to be honest, sometimes i feel like giving up when i feel like i have no life, i have no time for my self. but, my mum and my dad always encourage me to continue studying. plus, my younger brother really wants to pursue his master no matter what. so i should beat him. cannot lose face right? i always fight everything with him.

it was Allen graduation day. he invited all his friends. i was invited as well. but i didn't turn up because i felt a bit weird because i'm not that close to him. i knew him just during BERSATU dinner . well,it's a norm among Malaysian in University of Auckland to invite all their friends to their big day as some kind of motivation to graduate with honour. here, we only have friends. friend is like everything..taken from Allen fb.hehehe

after all, i'll pursue my master. my mum would prefer if i do it locally. we'll see. it takes 4 hours to finish this entry. internet is so slow. tired. thanks for reading this entry. till then, adios.