airport photo shoot

salam

i went to airport last week sebab nak hantar awek Chen. lepas tu Azmi ajak aku pergi sekali sebab dia nk buat photoshoot kt airport. dia suruh aku jadi model. aku layan je la. boleh aku g airport( ceh, seronok tak pasal). yelah, ni domestic punya airport. nak tengok juga. masa sampai dulu kitaorang g kt International punya. Izzati pun join sekali menembak.

ni bukan gambar hasil tembakan diorang. ni just dari camera phone aku. dekat sejam juga lah aku melayan kerenah Azmi ngn Zati

i'll go back to Malaysia in 5 days time. will be here again. cant wait

p/s: cerita lain aku cerita lain kali.dah penat sangat hari ni sebab mengayuh basikal sampai separuh pengsan ke Mission Bay..

tanahair ku

assalamualaikum and hi all

 i'm going back to Malaysia next week! last minute decision. everybody in Malaysia miss me so much. thanks guys for appreciating my existence. at first i'm not going back and not even plan to go back because i wanna spend my summer here..yea, travel all around Auckland. but then, my mum told me that my dad asked me to come back. my dad miss me ey? yes, he is.

hey Mr. Malaysia. i miss you so much. i dream of you almost every night. can't wait to see you.i'm sure, i'll have a great time with you.

everybody has the anxiety of going back since last few months because they have planned their journey home. they were counting days. but not me. i have no feeling even summer break was approaching. but now, i have the feeling. oh my gosh, can't wait. nervous. excited. sad. blur. confuse. and whatever else. i changed everything in one night. how drastic it is.

we can't predict the future. everything is possible. anything can happen even we dont plan it that way. Allah la yang menentukan segalanya. Allah lah yang mengubah hati manusia. Alah jua lah yang membolak-balik kan hati manusia. Hanya dia yang berkuasa. Ya Allah, jangn bolak -balik kan hati aku. tetap kan pendirian ku. jangan engkau paling kn aku dari hidayahmu . redhai lah aku. berikan lah ketentuan yang terbaik untuk ku.

Allah, you have placed great people in my life. thanks, i'm grateful with what i have. they are wonderful. they are always there for me, especially my family. YA ALLAH, jadikan lah aku hamba yang bersyukur.

i want that

yeah!!! it's time to say good bye to books for a while. summer break mode activated. books, assignments, tests..see you next sem.

what i really want right now is DSLR. i hope that it's gonna be VERY cheap during boxing day. i want this camera so badly. i want to capture every thing i see the way my eyes see it. only DSLR will do. any guy can help me to get this camera like now? be my boyfriend and buy me this camera.hahahaha, so materialistic...
okey guys, em just KIDDING. i'm not that type of girl y nak kikis-kikis duit orang ni.huhhuhuhu

first presentation

Assalamualaikum and hi all.

Finally all my fear and nervousness have faded away. All the tense and burden finally ended. I've submitted all my assignments. Done with all the tests and more importantly I'm done with my presentation. This presentation is nothing much actually. We just need to present our school visit and practicum experiences. But this is our very first presentation here and the assessors were Shyrell and Jackey. Well, if you know Shyrell, you will definitely freak out to know that she's going to assess you. She's very critical. She would ask an issue until you have no answer for the question. On the positive side, it's good to make you a critical thinker. You are going to be a teacher. Think critically or else you will be an ordinary teacher with ordinary skill in the ordinary setting. 

There were about 100++ students in the hall and obviously they were all Malaysia because the purpose of this presentation is to compare and contrast Malaysia and New Zealand education systems. There were 2nd and 3rd year Mara students, 3rd year IPBA students and us, 2nd year IPTI students. It was a great pleasure to see all Malaysian TESL students.

The presentation was held at the Business building, in the auditorium. It's one of the biggest lecture halls at this university. It's even bigger than cinema hall I ever went.  Then, why shouldn't I shake. My legs turned into jelly straight away after I opened the hall's door. OMG, this is damn big. My group was the third group to present. Could you feel the tense? Being the youngest among all, I felt inferior. Senior, super senior were knowledgeable. Their points were solid. They were confident. They speak very fast and fluent.  

This is our Mara seniors. They had more experience than we do. They have better understanding of the system and their English amazingly awesome. 

After we finished, we walked around and snapped some pictures. I just finished my ESOL 210 assignment before the presentation ended. My group was among the earliest to present so I had time to finish my assignment. I managed to finish it in limited time. I thought I couldn't finish it. Alhamdulillah, Allah permudahkan segala urusan aku. Tak rasa terbeban nak buat even susah at first aku tengok. It was research report.

The feelings after we've done with all the academic stuff was indescribable. Hey, I'm ready for summer break. Oh, oh. I love this moment. Tonight I'm going to lay on bed and read the novel I bought last few days. I'll fall asleep while reading. I love this.

Ya ALLAh terima kasih kerana telah mempermudahkan segala urusanku. ada sorang kawan berpesan " fareha, jaga iman, jaga hati tau'...ok, terngia-ngia kt telinga sekarang ni....

jom jalan-jalan

Salam..

I went to Sylvia Park. Yeeeheee. For the first time after I've been here for 9 months. They said, it's the biggest shopping complex in New Zealand. I wouldn't say it's big enough. JJ Tebrau is much bigger than Sylvia park. KL got much more cooler shopping complex.  New Zealanders don't really shop. When we told our lecturer that back in Malaysia we have one building just for shops ( shopping complex), like 4 or 5 floored building just for shops, she was surprised.Well, look at Mid Valley, Mines, CS, JJ and much more. Times Square was crazy. Diorang boleh tengok Malaysia in disbelief. Shopping complex in New Zealand is more to broad way design. So New York.

Bajet nak naik train. Tapi service train tukar rail. Train kat sini buka macam LRT ke, monorain ke, atau lebih canggih macam bullet train ke. standard KTM je erk. Alasan, NZ selalu ada gempa bumi. So rugi buat canggih-cangih. Kalau sekali gempa bumi, terus ranap. kos nak buat rail dah la mahal. so, mimpi la nak naik train masuk dalam tanah macam Singapore.

I bought new track bottom. Mula-mula agak telan air liur juga masa nak beli. Hey, it's Canterbury ok. Lagi pun dah lama aku nak beli. Hari tu ada jumpa track bottom Puma, nak beli takde saiz. Saiz xs pn besar dengan aku. Ni lah nasib orang kecik duduk dinegara orang besar. Padoh!!. seluar track aku before this dah terkoyak sikit kt lutut masa main basketball. Lutut aku pun melecet juga lah. Tapi, sebab aku tak jumpa cari track bottom masa tu, aku pakai je untuk BERSTU.

last

Assalamualaikum.

FRIDAY 22.10.2010
last day of this week
last day of lectures
last day of this sem
last day of hectic life
last day of all suffers * ceh, yang ni macam mengada*

Seperti mana yang aku cakap sebelum ni, ni minggu yang paling kritikal bagi aku even ni minggu terakhir untuk sem ni. Akhirnya semua test dan assignment dihantar dan dilalui dengan insyaallah baik. Harapan nya mendapat result yang baik. Aku just bimbang sikit kat language teaching punya assignments. Subjek ni nampak remeh tapi cerewet. I'm not hoping for an A, just enough if I got good mark and grade.

Tengok, punya la aku berusaha nak buat assignment ni dengan baik untuk dapat markah yang best sikit sebab aku memang kelaut sket subjek ni. Aish, macam mana nak jadi cikgu yang kretif ni? kali ni memang aku boleh cakap aku letak 95% effort untuk assignment ni.Hope, aku boleh cover assignment yang kedua yang memang below expectation tu. Masyaallah!! tak suka subjek ni. But hey, you know what, I have to take 2 language techinf papers next year. cool ey? PLEASE DIE

Minggu ni masa aku banyak di habiskan kat comp lab. Buat assignment language teching pun sini, peerwise pun sini, esol 201 pun sini.

*psychology*

Favourite subjek tapi kantoi juga. Susah nak dapat A. Aku memang struggle macam gila untuk subjek ni sebab test 1 aku teruk kot. Bila tengok markah, serious nk pengsan. Below expectation lagi. Untuk test yang last ni memang aku study macam agak serious. Sampai weng pale otak aku. Tiba soalan test mcm tett..bagi aku soalan tak valid la. Tak praktikal dan soalan kalau tak baca buku pun boleh jawab tapi mengelirukan. Keluar hall, sesak nafas aku di buatnya.

Lepas test ESOL tetiba emo, terus g count down. Beli stock yang dah lama kering. At the moment, em working on presentation and ESOL 210 assignment. Cepat la masa berlalu.
Memandangkan hari ni hari last kat uni untuk tahun ni, kt uni tadi ada macam party. Kat uni memang la alkohol tak dibenarkan tapi hari ni exceptional. AUSA cover la tempat tu. Dengan concert siap. Main aku tengok macam budak-budak sorang. Tak senang jawab test tadi. Bising yang amat. Menjerit-terpekik. aish, budak2..

20102010

salam and hi folks

as i said before, i'm not going to write until i'm done with all my assignment and tests. unfortunately, i feel like writing right now because today's date is so significant and cute. cute in the sense that we won't be able to witness or to see this date or almost similar date in our life time anymore. just one reminder here, it's just a date. people tend to believe that certain date brings luck. for me, it's ridiculous.

just wanna share my last day of ESOL lectures this week.finally we finished this course with a big smile ( the last day was our test though, and we have assignment to be submitted)

well, she's Dana. the one i always talked about in the previous post. she's a very nice woman.

Ya Allah, i'm so nervous right now. em up to so many things that make me feel like , 'oh, ok this is my first time' sort of thing. i really hope i can do well ( what ever it is). YA ALLAH permudahkan lah

ok, off to educ 223 revision. ZZZzzz,,,.

take a deep breath, oh i got 3 test this week

Assalamualaikum

i'm now in the final week for this sem before summer break starts next week. before the break starts, i'm having hectic week right now. 2 assignments to be submitted and 3 test are coming. cool ey? here we go

Monday - 18th 10 2010
language teaching 304 assignment
Tuesday - 19th 10 2010
ESOL 210 test
Wednesday - 20th 10 2010tutoring at Orakei Primary school
Thursday - 21th 10 2010
educational psychology 223 test
Friday - 22th 10 2010
ESOL 201 test
ESOL 201 assignment

pulun habis-habisan la kali ni. oh, uni thingy makes my life miserable until to the very end.yet,somehow it's make our uni life more challenging and exciting. one day we'll look back to our past and wonder how i had do this and how i spent my uni life. till then, we could recall and smile.

p/s: i'm not going to blog for the rest of the week.

appreciating life

salam all

lately, life is pretty plain because everybody doesn't has heart of studying anymore because summer break is just around the corner and some of us are going back to Malaysia. it's normal. but hey, lets get to our business. oh ya, i went to Auckland domain this morning. we had a gathering for anak-anak Terengganu. it was kind of gathering to get to know each other. but, it was just relax kind of gathering. eat together and we played games. macam-macam la main. sakit jiwa juga la aku.it's good to meet people from your place. you have the opportunity to speak your slang.lol

naimah or ayu made the cake. bendera Terengganu lagi. and you know what? the star and the moon on top of the cake were perfect in shape and the taste was super yummy. Kak Zeti made bihun goreng. kenyang okey. lepas tu main games. 

cakap menyembang bagai nak rak even before this xde la kenal sangat. just tahu la, eh dia ni budak Malaysia. tapi hari ni dapat la berukhwah gituew. lepas makan, ada main games calit-calit. sape kalah kena calit. games ni pentingkan ketangkasan pendengaran, kusyuk. aku mmg sah-sah la fail game macam gini. game yang paling mencabar, dengdedeng, polar bear. rasa nak pengsan main ni.

lepas dah siap semua, sebelum balik pergi ke Winter garden. ada banyak bunga. rumah macam besar kt hujung sana dalam ganbar ni ialah rumah iklim tropika. masuk dalam tu rasa macam ada kt Malaysia la kepanasan dia. even dia fake, tapi panas dia tu rasa macam original. kalau rindu Malaysia boleh pergi sini, baring-baring dalam ni. tadi masa masuk sampai berpeluh kot sebab dah pakai jacket tebal, berlapis-lapis pulak tu. nak buka jacket kan, tak boleh..hahaha..ok, kt dalam rumah yang dikawal suhunya tu ada pokok koko, pinang, periuk kera, teratai, dan macam -mcam la y ada kt Malaysia.then bila dh puas menikmati kepanasan kat dalam tu, aku keluar dan duduk kt bench. when i was sitting on the bench outside the house, at the pond, there was a woman look at me and ask

are you cold? [maybe she looked at me when i was hugging my self. because it was too hot, my jacket was too thick]
no, i'm hot [ tiba aku mengaku aku 'hot'. salah sebut kot. aku nak sebut it's hot..adoi]
then dia pun tanya lagi
where are from?
i'm from Malaysia.
what do you wear on your head? what do you call that scarf? is it 'hi' something?
yeah, it's hijab.
my daughter saw you guys at the park just now and she was curious. that's why i ask about this in front of her [ anak dia ada kt situ]
are you afraid of us?[ aku tya anak dia, anak dia geleng sambil terbelit-belit dekat tangan mak dia]
where are you from?[ aku tana dia]
i'm from Auckland [ patut la. bagi aku orang NZ jenis orang yang respect orang lain dan dasar keterbukaan tu sangat tinggi]

lepas tu kitaorang cerita la pasal kitaorang. bakal jadi cikgu dan semua.so, macam tu la perbulan dengan diorang.yang penting kita harus sentiasa bersedia untuk explain kt diorang untuk hilangkan prejudice dan salah tanggapan.

p/s: life is about exploring things. the more you learn, the more you appreciate your life. appreciate your life, appreciate people around you. it makes you a better person and it makes you grow stronger . pray upon His bless. then we'll always happy, no matter whatever trouble strike in our life.

cultural day

Assalamualaikum and hi all,

i'm currently busy with my assignment . procrastinating!!..it really kills me.i can breath happily right until this moment.today i went to Flat Bush primary school. the pupils were performing cultural dances. it was pretty exciting. i like this kind of stuff. the pupils were so excited. yelah kan, boleh tunjuk bakat. kita pun dulu-dulu macam tu juga.

ni la antara students yang excited. parents pun ada yang datang. they're so supportive.banyak jenis persembahan yang dipersembahkan. antaranya yang macam kt ats ni tarian hindi, tarian samoa, tarian cook island, hip hop, zumba dan macam- macam lagi.

apa yang aku boleh simpulkan kt NZ ni, society diorang ni sangat diverse. majority of New Zealanders are White European, then Maori. lepas tu ramai juga dari Asian ( as in sgt ramai especially Korean) dan group yang tak berapa nak ramai dari Pacific Islanders. budaya kt NZ banyak dipengaruhi oleh budaya Maori dan budaya kepulauan macam menari-menari ala pantai macam hula, dan cook island punya dance. kebanyakan jenis tarian diorang ni fokus pada pinggul.hint dia memang situ. kalau macam aku ni nak menari, memang tak laku r. takde orang nak pandang sebab takde hint tu langsung...hahahaha, kidding, but it's very true. lagi pun kalau kena tarik menari nagn diorang pun aku tak nak gi. segan kot.

i met her. she is syafik's actually. just ever showed up few times at syafik's screen and saw her.

anak yang baik

Assalamualaikum
pernah tak korang terfikir,adakah aku seorang anak yang baik? tak semestinya kita tak membunuh, tak melawan mak ayah kita tu membuktikan kita anak yang baik. baik tu definisi nya luas. mak ayah kita bertanggungjawab atas apa yang kita lakukan. mereka yang tanggung dosa kita.sebab kita tanggung jawab mereka. kita amanah Allah kepada mak ayah kita. dulu mak aku pernah cakap, kalau kita buat sesuatu dosa, kita membina mahligai untuk mak ayah kita dalam neraka. sanggup ke kita buat macam tu. memang kita tak sanggup. tapi cukup ke dengan cakap tak sanggup? kita kena tunjuk kan dengan ketaatan kita. dan kita tak melalukan dosa terhadap keduanya. kita tinggalkan apa yang Allah larang. masa hari raya 2 or 3 tahun lepas, ayah aku panggil aku pergi dekat dia. mak aku pun ada kat situ. ayah aku cerita pasal khutbaha raya yang dia dengar. masa tu aku tak g masjid yang sama dengan ayah aku. ayah aku cakap, bila seorang lelaki nak masuk syurga, akan ada saudara perempuan dia menghalang dia masuk ke syurga kerana mendakwa dia tidak membimbing perempuan-perempuan itu ke syurga. Apabila seseorang yang bergelar ayah tidak memperdulikan anak-anak perempuannya di dunia. Dia tidak memberikan segala keperluan agama seperti mengajar solat, mengaji dan sebagainya.Dia membiarkan anak-anak perempuannya tidak menutup aurat. tidak cukup kalau dengan hanya memberi kemewahan dunia sahaja maka dia akan ditarik oleh anaknya. bila aku reflek balik pada diri aku, ayah aku dah beri segala didikan agama dekat aku. didik aku jadi perempuan yang baik. mak aku pernah cakap alangkah baiknya kalau aku sekolah agama. tapi aku tak sekolah agama. tapi kalau tak sekolah agama pun inysaallah boleh baik. baik ke tak baik, terpulang pada aku.

bagi aku, aku tak sanggup nak buat apa yang mak ayah aku larang aku buat. aku tak sanngup nak menconteng arang kat muka mak ayah aku. mak ayah aku agak well known. ayah aku lagi lah. cuba bayangkan kalau aku buat benda tak senonoh, memang aku lah anak yang tak guna yang menjatuhkan maruah mak ayah aku. sebab tu lah, before aku buat apa-apa, aku akan fikir dulu. adakah benda ni salah? adalah benda ni akan menjatuhkan maruah mak ayah aku ,even benda tu sekecik kecil perkara. mak aku selalu pesasn, sebelum buat sesuatu fikir at least 100 kali. sebab kita akan menyesal tak sudah nanti. aku akan ingat sampai mati. you may think that i'm kolot because i didn't do what you did. i know it's cool but i know whatis good for me. don't push me to do what you do.


my dad just willing to do everything to me, even to sacrifice everything he has, i know . my mum also willing to do anything with just everything she has, i want to be a good daughter in return. Ya Allah, i want to be a filial daughter. please!!
i miss my dad so badly. can't stop my tears from dropping on my laptop right now.

so weird

salam and hi all
it's freezing outside. i have no idea why. we're approaching summer but the weather is so weird.it should be a little bit warmer than usual. oh, it's damn cold. i'm shivering all day long. to wear baju kurung is so not suitable right now or even this season because it's freaking cold and windy. kalau pakai baju kurung masa berangin apa jadi?
last week i wore baju kurung. not because of anything. it's just because my baju kurung is pink, so i wore that as my support to breast cancer campaign. lagipun pakai baju kurung ayu kan?

during ESOL class, Adrian passed me this note. it's blur. let me transcribe it.

kenapa pakai baju macam ni?
sje. pelik ke?
i wear pink to support breast cancer campaign.
oooo, no wonder a lot of people wear pink. i thought you wear baju kurung is because of baju kurung day
no such thing here

to be honest, it's quite weird to wear baju kurung here. not because of the perception, the culture or anything. it's just not suitable with the weather. kawan-kawan aku, bukan Adrian je, even kawanp-kawan perempuan juga mesti tanya kenapa pakai baju kurung. we just wear baju kurung for any occasion. dah terbiasa pakai pants and tshirt and dress. boleh pulak pelik kan. padahal kat maktab dulu, tiap-tiap hari pakai baju kurung...

assignment

hiyak!!! finally i finished my psychology assignment. rasa nak pergi domain meraung kt satu dunia aku dah siap assignment psychology. it really makes my life miserable. everything were messed up. this assignment required lots of reading.last night i just slept for 3 hours, struggling with the books, journals, and all. penat sangat mental.serious. i'm glad that i have to take psychology paper this sem because i'm interested with this kind of stuff. but when it comes to assignments, i completely surrender. susah. fenin. serabut kepala otak. tensi. no wonder i couldn't post any entry last few days. i just posted crap that won't take much time. lol.

*books i have intentionally*

di tambah pula dengan journal online. nak kena baca dalam screen, dah la kecik.berair mata. pedih. senak. kabur. semua ada. nak pengsan rasa. tapi demi menyiapkan assignment ni, ku gagahi diri ku yang sememangnya tidur ala-ala budak- budak ni.*tak boleh tidur lambat*.stay up kot. so not Fareha.

cuba bayangkan, terhendap kol 2, 3 pagi duk baca article ni. dalam gerimis hujan yang sangat sejuk. katil yang sangat menggoda. angin, masyaallah sangat kuat. rasa nak lompat atas katil sambil menikmati kesuaman duvet. tapi assignment first gitueww..
bila assignment dah nak kena hantar esok, malam tu mesti struggle bagai nak rak. punya la nak integrate sources sampai tak menang tangan kau. buka buku tu. buka buku ni. selak article sana. selak article sini. bilik tak sempat nak kemas. makan kat situ, situ lah tinggal. yang paling best, tak layan fb. tak layan blog. bagus tak?
the interesting part of the assignment wa that, i need to interview a child and ask her/him questions about science. it's kinda interesting because i got the opportunity to get nearer to the child. i went to Auckland public library and i found my target. here we go.....

it's exactly what i had to do when i was doing linguistic paper back in IPTI. but for the assignment, we were required to find a child to read the text and we had to transcribe the tape. the purpose is to check the pronunciation among L2 students and blabla. ok, masa tu aku kena denggi. tapi kena siapkan juga assignment tu, aku ikut je bebudak ni nak gi plaza pelangi sebab tak kan nak cari budak kat CS. budak mane ada sangat kt CS. sebelum aku g plaza, aku g Hospital Sultanah Aminah dulu ambil darah. aku boleh katakan masa tu, hari-hari berulang alik ke HSA untuk ambil darah. setiap kali ambik satu tiub. kadang-kadang 2 tiub. muka aku masa tu penuh bintik-bintik merah. tapi doktor masa tu taknak declare aku ni kena denggi sebab mesti dia tak nak ambik risk sebab Johor masa tu mencatatkan kes denggi paling tinggi. tpi aku dengar perbualan dalam telefon, dia ingat aku tak faham English ke. even memang dia cakap laju, dia bajet aku tak paham kot.

there is a girl here. her platelet drops. i suspected it's dengi. i'm so worried. she's too young. she's only twenty. why should i do now? tell her?

adala lagi ayat dia, tapi aku lupa. masa aku dengar apa yang dia cakap tu, aku rasa macam nak nangis. denggi bahaya kot. sebab ada kes yang meninggal pasal denggi kt JB. aku disahkan denggi berdasarkan ujian makmal. aku siap call makcik aku suruh dia terjemah satu-satu. so,memang aku kena denggi. eh, dah tercerita pasal lain plk.
ok, kesudahannya, lepas aku ambik darah tu aku pergi la plaza pelangi dalam keadaan yang lemah sekali. pening-pening sikit sebb baru lepas ambik darah. dlm taxi , ada orng text aku. so aku balas. bila dh sampai plaza aku turun. then baru tersedar aku tertinggal phone dlm taxi sbb x sedar terlepas dari tangan. bukan sebab cuai, tapi x sedar. for your information, i lost 5 phones last year. Paris Hilton pun tak macam aku.ngee..

my memory of Hospital Sultanah Aminah

loser

tetiba rasa macam LOSER. not sometimes actually. always. perasaan tu rasa macam bak orang kata haprak. sebab dah penat rasanya. tired of trying. tpi kan, semua orang nak the best dalam hidup diorang kan. tapi tak semua yang kita nak dan usaha tu kita akan dapat. somehow it's not fair at all. but HE knows better. just have faith in Him.

p/s:i'm writing blog to express what i feel. to say something that i couldn't tell anybody directly because i'm kind of keep-to-myself type of person. i dont really share anything with people. so, my blog would tell almost everything ( not really, just sometimes), depend on my mood somehow. sorry..hehehehe..when i'm sad, i will write something emotional, when i'm angry i'll write about bad thing and so on. i

plurp

hey YOU
yes YOU
FAREHA

layu dan lesu

salam and hi all
today i was so weak. i couldn't stand still at all. actually i was fasting, puasa 6. since there will be just few days left before Syawal comes to its end, i need to catch up. if not, i will cry my heart out because i couldn't make it for this year. rugi sebab fadhilah nya sangat besar. i'm a bit disappointed with myself because i should make it earlier. it's spring now, it's getting hotter, i'd easily get thirsty, and the most dreadful thing is, day would be longer than before. phew...plus i got so many assignments due in one and two weeks time. what a hectic life. well, life isn't easy right?

when i got back from lecture this evening, i felt like fainting. gosh, i never feel this weak before even during ramadhan. oh, yeah..you know why i was this weak today? i didn't eat anything that is enough to give me energy. yesterday i didn't have anything for breakfast. i was late and just went to class without touching any food. i just grabbed Milkies stick for lunch. ah, that stick just make you full for 10 minutes. it was just instant food for babies. gggrrr. then, i ate 2 slices of pizzas from Aten's beday.chips that shared with 5 people. is it enough? i ate very little, uhuhuh. i planned to eat some more but i felt so sleepy and slept hoping that i would wake up for sahur. unfortunately, i didn't. as the consequences, i was so thirsty..i was so hungry. bila dah puasa, segala benda rasa nak makan. nak mkn CFC. nk makan pie. nak choc milk and bla.bla.bla. n i bought steak and cheese pie. primo choc drinks. kemaruk sangat. tadi tengok halyana and hanis minum milk tea. rasa macam nak berbuka je.adush, dugaan.

sending me to NZ is such a great pleasure. i love milky drinks.all dairy products are cheap since NZ is one of the biggest dairy products producer in the world.oh, what a bless. it would be the reason i grow fatter. gosh.i could say i drink milk almost everyday.*in any form- liquid food, milk tea, milky coffee, high calcium milk, standardized milk, skim milk and all. good thing about drinking milk- it makes you feel energetic, make you sleep tight at night and the most important is, it is our prophet sunna'.

sembahyang asar tdi pun, sembahyang duduk. dah macam orng pregnant. tak larat nak berdiri. masak pun tingal sekejap, tidur. bangun balik, kacau-kacau tidur. tidur sampai nak mimpi-mimpi. tu yang tak tahan. tidur 15 minit je pun. now, i'm full.thanks zati for chicken paprik. kenyang.
okeh, need to go now.need to do some reading. time to study. bye people.thanks for reading!!

monday..again?

salam and hi all

i hate monday. i'm wondering which nerd scheduled our timetable in such a way. 6 hours of non-stop lectures really makes me so hectic. it spoils my mood for the rest of the week. today was the worst. fed up. i really hate the day when i have ESOL lecture too. it's not that i'm good enough at it, not that i don't like the lecture either..it just a matter of timetabling. i could say it's a mess. at the beginning of the lecture for language teaching, i could still acted as normal as possible. as we went through the lesson, i started to felt so uncertain. * tak tentu hala habes*. 

luckily, azmi happened to sit next to me. he just advised me not to do so. just be calm and whatever. budak adrian ngn saiful tu duk belakang aku duk panggil-panggil. cakap aku emo semacam la, benda la.so here we go..what happen to my notes when i was not able to write properly in so-not sensible state of mind.

comments wrote by ZATI and AZMI..thanks for trying to make me feel better and somehow it worked.

tengok apa dah jadi dengan tulisan..cakar dinasour dah jadinya. bila tgk aku menulis gini gaya, sizuka suruh aku stop menulis..masa kelas ESOL, aku cm moody2 lagi. Adrian tya aku pms ke? aku malas nak layan dia. nanti lagi menjadi-jadi soalan dia. dia ckp yelah tu. padahal tak pun boley. dialog dia xleh bla.

pms ke?
muka macam bengong je

aku nak tergelak sangat tapi aku tahan je. aku tahu dia nak ckp bengang sebenarnya. tapi wrong word was used disitu..budak Aadrian betul lah.

sepanjang lesson tu not bad la. xdela moody sangat sebab Dana cam baik. dia kan nice sangat-sangat. lepas esol class, kitaorng prank Aten. bermandi tepung beliau. gembira. sorang-sorng macam budak je aku tengok. tapi range umur 20, 21, 22, n 23. tak budak okeh. sedar sikit. bila aku tengok balik gmbar kitaorng tepi pantai tu, rasa cm x logik umur 20s sebab omg, sorng2 tak matang sangat-sangat.

aten happy birthday..hope all you wishes come true

somebody is growing OLD

hi peeps,

yesterday was a good day. i love the weather. i love the sun. i love the wind. i love everything. thanks ALLAH. thanks for placing wonderful people in my life too. actually, i didn't plan to follow izzati and the rest to the beach. to be honest, i'm not obsess with beach, picnic and all kind of stuff. i'm more to waterfall, jungle and gardening.yaww.. plus, i got something else to attend. but when i heard that the beach thing was going to be Saifful's birthday prank..i was like..hurm, kinda interesting. actually, there was a conflict before we went to the beach, i mean the night before. safe and professional conflict of course. i wanna go to the beach but somebody...okeh, just keep it as secret. i dont have interest to talk about it. then, i decided not going, but i could see Izzati was very frustrated. aten too. most probably nisa too. they wanted me to join the prank because...as they said...tak seronok takde aku.. i'm not saying that i'm important to anyone or what, i'm just so happy that you guys really appreciate my existence. also, kalau aku tak pergi tak ramai la..tak seronok..

girls friends..the one who really understand me well..guys thanks for the advice and everthing u have done.

izzati, thanks for the friendship and all. even though sometimes we have some kind of misunderstanding, we manage to solve it because we believe that friendship is about accepting people the way they are and correct them if they were wrong...thats all


and yeah, this is beday boy. he's getting older, older and older.nak tahu umur dia, tanya sendiri. nanti kan aku cakap dia nak sentap pulak. takut tengok muka dia masa kena sembam atas kek. muka kalah bapak singa..suasana tegang sekejap masa dia kena sembam..girls semua diam. takut dia marah sebab kalau dia marah, muka dia masyaallah..


bila keluar ke pantai rasa macam bercinta. ni bukan apa, banyak sangat pengaruh drama ni.lately banyak tengok drama.hindustan.melayu. european. hollywood. korea. indo. jepun.blabla.

cinta 5 segi * CINTA PENTAGON*

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tambah budak tak cukup umur ni sorang lagi. jadi cinta 6 segi.lagi dasyat. kalah drama Venezuela.

pape pn, so-called picnic was wonderful. the prank was great. thanks addy for the idea. had a fantastic day. ice cream was nice. futsal games was interesting. walking along the sea was memorable. taking photos was so exciting. i haven't 'touch' the sea for almost 9 years even though my home is so near to the sea. and yesterday i did. even takde la mandi. ops, actually pernah mandi. tu pun bukan kt Malaysia. the first week we were here. mandi dekat Shakespears bay. tak best sangat sebab laut ada selut hitam. bekas gunung berapi la katakan. hitam kuku!!

GST

salam people,

lets talk about GST since everyone seems to be talking about this these few days. actually GST is referred to goods and services tax. it's a must-pay tax by everyone because that is the only way NZ government gain money for the development and stuff. so,everything we buy here includes the tax. the money from the tax is used for the development, given to those who are not working, those who are poor, those who have handicap family members and for some other reasons. let say, the price for a laptop is $ 800 NZD, it could be $ 1000 NZD together with the tax..best x? merana x? and today, 1st Oct, GST officially risen up to 15%..oh, serious mati..ni disebabkan tahun depan NZ jadi tuan rumah untuk rugby world cup. so, GST memang harus la naik. nanti currency pun naik. oh KPM scholarship kami, sila naik kan elaun kami..merana..sekarang ni pun dah cukup merana sebab everything in Auckland is very very expensive.

tadi lepas PD kitaorang berjalan ke quad. tetiba ada satu group yang nak buat kutipan suara untuk buat macam bantahan kenaikan GST untuk makanan. yelah, makanan kt Auckland dah memang terkenal dengan kemahalannya, naik pula GST cuba bayangkan sendiri la kami-kami ni nak makan apa. tanpa berfikir panjang terus tulis nama dan tanda tangan konon-konon membantah kenaikan GST untuk makanan.

disebabkan kesempitan wang ( ceh, ayat nak sedih), terpaksa la makan ala kadar. sedih tao.hahahaaha. tengok tu, bawak roti je gi uni. bawak pulak bekal macam budak sekolah rendah pergi sekolah. dalam tapeware. ni bukan tapeware biasa-biasa tau. ni namanya lunch box. terpengaruh dengan budak sekolah yang kita orang gi school visit dulu-dulu. cute gila kot.hehehehee.pagi tadi makan semosa semalam yang tak habis, lunch makan roti, balik kelas makan spagetti je tau. tapi peliknya aku semakin gemuk je. ni lah cabaran hidup diperantauan. ada je makanan tapi xleh lah nak bermewah-mewah. ada je duit. tapi duit elaun dah habis. duit yang ayah kirim dari Malaysia. minta maaf, terpaksa minta duit dengan ayah sebab terlalu sengkek. tu lah, bila dapat elaun tak hengat...hey, sorry bukan tak hengat dunia, tapi elaun kali ni ada problem kottt...En. Zul busy sebab dia tengah handle budak TESL ke UK. okeh2, jgn kecoh-kecoh pasal duit kt sini. orang dengar malu je.

well, sekarang ni kan masak sendiri. tau tak apa masalah masak sendiri ni? dulu kt IPTI selalu berpot-pet konon-konon best masak sendiri...blabla..tapi bila masak sendiri baru tau.aku ngn zati ni sampai dah tak tahu nak masak apa. mati akal nak fikir nak masak apa. yelah, takkan nak masak benda yang sama setiap hari. tapi kalau dah takde pilihan, dengan limited ingredients dan sebagainya...kesudahannya makan benda yang sama atau pun menu rekaan semata-mata. main letak je pape. the good thing is that, we have invented fews new recipes and they are not bad. seriouosly. being apart from you family, your homeland where you hardly find cheap and halal food make you a good cook. it's a great experience. apa yang tak pernah masak sebelum ni pun boleh masak. rasa macam magik..cinn...makanan yang agak selalu aku ngn zati makan ialah ramen. masak je dlm bilik aku dlm rice cooker. ala-ala Korea gitu kau. tapi kalau terkantoi ngn RA lagi best aku nih. dah bilik aku spotted as a noisy room sebab sorang-sorang datang bilik aku gelak macam ape je. korang gelak memang masyaallah...erk, termasuk aku la obviously. erm, kalau tak makan ramen pun makan megi NZ. tapi tak bahaya tau megi ni even makan banyak-banyak sebab takde MSG.
sebab sekrang ni panas gila...suhu semakin menaik. 20 Celsius. perit rasa muka.spring la katakan..nanti sumer lagi nak terbakar kulitkan...tan gitu...ok, mat salleh boleh la tan. kita yang melayu yang dah sawo matang ni tak payah nak tan kan kulit..kita tak putih..gituh, sentap kot..ok, hari yang panas sinonim ngn ice-cream. thanks sizuka sebab belanja i isekerrem...jelly choc kedai pak arab..wawawawa