my life these days is about camera, photo editing, novels, phones and movies. sometimes i spend my evenings by taking a stroll along the beach. although i love being home, i've started to feel bored. hahaha. it's not yet Disember i tell you. you know like doing the same routine everyday makes me super lazy. oh, no.
alhamdulillah. lately job untuk photography agak memberangsangkan. memandangkan sedang menganggur, saya dan Izzati ambik semua job so far. tak menolak kerana kami fully free. kebiasaan nya bukan kami sengaja menolak, tetapi kadang-kadang bertindih dengan aktiviti sekolah dan maktab atau urusan peribadi. terpaksa cari photographer lain untuk substitute cover majlis tu.
thanks for those yang dah book dengan kami. thank you so much. sampai tak cukup tangan saya menguruskan booking, membalas email dan SMS, menguruskan banking in dan pengeluaran resit. hahaha. tapi saya seronok. saya bimbang saya akan miss wedding costumer. i do have planner book. but since the booking usually confirm not in chronological order, writing down the date dan perjalanan setiap majlis would be a mess. to make it more effective and professional, ehem ehem, hahaha i bought this to myself. an executive planner!!!!
yeah, i know it's very classic to use manual executive planner. lol~ my elder brother cakap kenapa la tak guna phone je. but the thing is i prefer yang senang di belek-belek dan confirm tak termiss. sebab semua terjebang kat dalam tu crystal clear. kalau dalam phone, eee tak best la. not authentic
hope it works well ;) . but, it's kinda too big for my handbag. huh. my previous one is more handy where i could bring anywhere i go. do i need LV Monogram Neverful MM hand bag? omg, berangan sangat nak hand bag LV. kerja pon idok lagi. hahaha.
the attack of Zionis has never ended. Palestinian are suffering for last couple of decades. they claimed that Palestinian are terrorist. hey, there is a different between terrorism and retaliation. Zionis takes Palestinian land and they killed innocent women and young Palestinian children. Zionis, please know that it is GENOCIDE. ya Rab, genocide still exists in this era and sadly it happens to my brothers and sisters. ini atas satu tujuan; untuk menghapuskan orang Palestin dari muka bumi dan menghapuskan sejarah Palestin. Ya Allah! everyday, our brothers and sisters are killed without humanity .
dan ketahui lah, hati dan jasad mereka tak pernah mati di sisi Allah azzawajalla *crying*
people from every corner of the world shows their love to Gaza. may Allah rewards them with endless blessing. small effort that counts
these are my students back in Auckland. an Iraqi and Palestinian boy. i couldn't bear my tears from dropping through my cheek when i looked at their lunch boxes as compared to Whites and other Asian students. sorry la, i ni memang sentimental sikit kalau tengok something macam ni. just fikir balik apa yang kita makan. adakan adik-adik kita makan macam apa yang students saya dua orang ni makan? tak. tak pun tau tak. T___T. sedih sangat tengok. but they definitely have better life in NZ. they never wanted to go back to their own countries because they said they are afraid. they are refugee in NZ. terpaksa menjadi pelarian di negara orang sebab negara berperang. mereka ini berjaya dibawa keluar dari Palestine melalui program UN dan mendapat kewarganegaraan NZ.
tengok apa orang Israel dah buat pada orang Palestin. diorang telah membunuh jiwa-jiwa anak-anak Palestin. they were traumatic. they were less confident, had difficulty in learning yet they were happy and mingling well. Zionis patut dihancurkan
BUT,
there is always but in my argument and thoughts. we cannot blindly accused all Jews or Israeli are bad. not all of them. only Zionis Jewish are committed in this sins. Zionis adalah satu ideologi yang menular di Israel dan rancangn mereka adalah untuk melenyapkan Palestin dan keturunannya. i met very nice Israeli and they said they know what is happening in Palestine is not right. he disagree with that because it violates human right.
i had an Israeli student. at first, i was so amused because he was talkative and cute. i asked him when he came from, he said Israel. my friends and i were stumbled and speechless. but i quickly realised that he was an innocent and clean young child. no prejudice. kawan saya ada pernah cakap, dia ada ternampak anak Yahudi, dia cakap rasa nak lempang je. No, tak boleh. kita tak boleh buat. kenapa kita nak lempang dia? dia tak bersalah. perlu ada pertimbangan dalam tindakan. bukan melulu.
kita memang tak mampu untuk berperang. tapi kita patut make an effort untuk membantu. at least we've done our part. moga Allah melihat usaha kita. kita boleh menyumbang, boikot dan jangan sesekali give up berdoa. dan jangan lah kita berputus asa dengan rahmat Allah. sesungguh nya ia luas, bahkan Maha luas.
never stop praying and believing in Allah. Thanks for reading!
i accompanied my younger sister to the hospital today. she got appointment with the doctor regarding to her ear problem. the operation will be conducted in 2 weeks time.
some refreshment. today was hot! as hot as the people are. heee
i know, by the time i publish this entry, it's no longer 10.11.12 even though i started writing this entry on the date because this entry has been on hold for 3 days. but still,i want to write something because the date was so nice and meaningful. been busy with activities. mostly related to mingling with people. mum encourages me to improve my social skill as i'm no longer a teenage but young adult, she said. well, it's true.
here's a video by Charlie. since i love youtube artist or anything on youtube, i'd like you to watch this. nothing much related to 10.11.12 but it's telling us that world is not going to end in 2012.
what i've been doing/attending:
i went to a talk delivered by Ustaz Fathul Bari. masyaalah, very talented young man. he covered the topics interestingly because the knows the laws very well and he covers the questions asked in islamic perspective. respect him. he corrected what is wrong about what people have said and speculated. here's his blog. we willingly waited him to finish his talk until almost 12 midnight.
the next day my brother and i went to Himpunan Remaja. so many young people like us gathered at Taman Tamadun Islam with one mission; get clarification about future ruler. we went to so called brainwash session. hahaha. from the session, we know the direction of the goverment.blablbla. sort of this. not suitable to be shared here. i don't want to talk any political issue in my blog, if possible.
so many people, i couldn't take photo properly. haish.
the audience were entertained by celebrities, mainly by Faizal AF because he's originally from Marang specifically, Pian Cecupak, Amni , Zed Zaidi and Ika (i don't know Ika, yelah i mane tahu sangat artis ni, but for sure attitude macam cik Lofa sikit). before the performance, Zed Zaidi made clarification about his statement during Anugerah Berita Harian (if i not mistaken) ' rakyat Malaysia tak patriotik sebab pilih Aaron Aziz sebagai bintang paling popular'.since event ni sebenarnaya pasal kenegaraan dan patriotisma, Zed Zaidi ciba menegaskan pendiriannya sebagai pengerusi pengiat seni Malaysia untuk mempertahankan artis Malysia sebab dia sayangkan negaranya. Girls out there, jangan la obses sangat dengan Aaron Aziz ok. tengok drama or movie dia takde hal, cuma berpada la. i pun layan je cerita dia belakon, tapi takde nak obses sangat sampai nak vote ape ke. eh, selamanya pernah ke aku vote artis/blogger mana-mana untuk apa-apa award pun? TAK PERNAH!
in the same event, a couple were given appreciation for their achievement. berjaya menawan Gunung Everest tuuuu. his wife becomes the first Malaysian woman to climb the mountain. diorang pernah menawan banyak gunung yang antaranta tertinggi didunia; France, Karachi, Indonesia , Swiss ect. they are working on the programme to get a group of people to ready for the next expedition to Everest, and all of them are anak-anak Terengganu.
alhamdulillah, banyak pencapaian anak Terengganu yang boleh dibanggakan. dari segi sukan dan akademik. atlet berbasikal negara Nurul Fateha dan Azizul Hasni kedua-duanya dari Terengganu. salah seorang pemain takraw dan hoki negara adalah anak Terengganu. dan banyak lagi.
dari segi akademik, Terengganu paling terkehadapan. my batch merupakan batch pertama UPSR Terengganu yang lead dan alhamdullilah, sampai sekarang Terengganu lead pencapaian UPSR the best. termasuklah PMR dan SPM. sekarang ni, kerajaan Terengganu tidak menggalakkan anak Terengganu berhijrah sebab pencapaian tu akan merudum bila anak Terengganu keluar dari negeri. begitu juga dalam sektor perkerjaan. once my friend asked:
"weh, apsal orang Terengganu pandai hah?"
(he was also referring to many Terengganu-rian friends in my cohort and clever people he knows are mostly from Terengganu)
" mana aku tahu"
what i believe to be the factor is akhlak; the most important aspect to success. pegangan kepada agama tu palingggg penting, baru la kita boleh berjaya.
tiada niat untuk menunjuk/belagak dan sebagainya. sekadar perkongsian untuk renungan bersama. good things meant to be said as good reference.
p/s: mat rempit paling ramai pun kat Terengganu tau. ni golongan yang perlu dibasuh dan di get educated kan supaya lebih civilised. thank you for reading!
i'm glad i'm home. no need to think about anything other than keep life going. hahaha. lame! it's a pleasure that i don't have to think about academic stuff. nampak sangat pemalas nya kan. tidur, makan, dan berehat membuatkan diri rasa awesome. kadang-kadang la. tapi keadaan ini tidak boleh dibiarkan lama. nanti kerja nya menggalakkan pertumbuhan lemak diadalam badan. phew!
my mum and day traveled down south to fetch me from college. i know it must be very tiring. rasanya dah banyak menyusahkan mak dan ayah. lepas ni dah tak boleh menyusahkan mak ayah. kena berdikari sendiri. on the way balik ke rumah, kiraorang akan wajib berhenti kat kawasan makanan exotic kat Pahang. selalu nya kalau dengan kengkawan selalu berhenti makan ikan Patin kat Pekan. kengkawan i ni pun jenis exotic, makan pun benda exotic. sebenarnya takde la pelik sangat, cuma ikan patin ni kan makanan kegemaran orang Pahang. kesemua kami duk makan ikan patin masak asam pedas.
hari tu my dad berhenti kat Rompin, tempat udang galah yang terkenal tu. memang banyak. kitaorang makan 3 orang, kena RM 95.50. FTW? kedai biasa tepi jalan. tapi memang tak boleh disangkal. harga udang galah memang mahal sket. yang fresh pulak tu dari sungai depan kedai. tapi tu memang harga standard udang galah. yelah, bukan senang nak tangkap ni. kena sepit pun best.
i force my mum to put her finger to show how big that udang was. hahaha. about my palm big. harga RM 20.00 seekor. tu harga udang je tak kira sekali nasi dan sayur.
by now, most of you should have known that i'm a teacher trainee even though initially i don't want people to know.hikhikhik. but, since blog is part of my life, i write most of everything here except for very personal thing especially love crisis (booooo), i couldn't help myself from not writing about school. i like school. school is fun. i love kids. but, seriously it comes with challenges.
as a teacher, a student teacher and a teacher trainee, there's a lot to learn and ponder. through out the profession, you'll encounter different types of pupils. when i was in Auckland, i assigned to a girl. she got learning problem and i'd say behavioral problem as well. what would you feel, when you are ready to teach, you are very sincere to teach, but the girl said, " i don't wanna read, i want to play baseball" while looking out the window. then, i got a boy. this boy was very problematic. i had hard time dealing with him and i almost give up. but in the end, i managed at least soften his heart towards everybody, and ultimately he could sit back and learn. during my last session with him, he gave a 'good bye card' with nike logo there. he gave the card to me with a boy attitude ( you should imagine how it be) and the ego was still there.
in Malaysia, i was assigned to a challenging class. very hard to handle because some of the boys were hard boys. banyak la cabaranya yang tak sesuai nak diceritakan kat sini. at one point, saya pernah pegang kepala budak lelaki tu sambil berzikir Ya Latiff, Ya Latiff supaya Allah lembutkan hati dia. during my last day, i wrote a note to the boy, it sounds more or less like this;
kepada Azim ( bukan nama sebenar) belajar bersungguh-sungguh. bila dah besar nanti, jadilah lelaki yang baik. kerana lelaki yang baik itu mahal harganya.
agak-agak budak boleh digest tak maksudnya? hahaha
honestly, i never wanted to be a teacher. i wanted to be a doctor. so, no wonder my blog reading list is mostly medic students and doctors. i like reading their experiences and struggle. i know medic is very tough. after i finished high school, i take sains hayat. i sleep at 3 every night, finishing mathematics exercises that they claimed as mathematics but it was actually the upper level of add maths. pengsan! after that, before i went to bed, i took my biology kind of subject notes, i couldn't remember the subj and read until i fall asleep. bangun pagi esok, highlighter kembang atas cadar. tiap-tiap hari macam tu, saya tak mampu. hence, i quit! medic related courses is tough. only people who is tough and intelligent could do that. so, i salute you doctors! i have many many many friends reading medicine. they said, they are stress out, but of course they never show it. i like this one particular blogger. he express his stress in a very unique way. it was hilarious. hit his blog, Hatim Razak.
even though this is not my ambition, once i'm in this system, i'm very serious with what i'm doing now. people cannot question my enthusiasm because it's not something what you see out side because people can fake it. it's what in your chest. nawaitu kena betul dan lurus.jujur dan ikhlas adalah kunci untuk menjadi guru yang berjaya dan iklas. hati kena jujur dan telus because it's heart that make you a good person. i may not a good teacher because i'm young, inexperience but i'm sincere and i hope i could inspire young pupils.
i'm glad that i crossed off all my list. which means that i'm officially free from academic stuffs. yeay! still hanging around most of the time in JB because job is waiting. need to consider more job (photography) so that i could maintain my financial status. lols! guys, check up my friend and i page on FB and if you're interested, just let us know.
sitting on my chair right now, my random though actively processes something in the past. something i love doing. haish. i miss rugby. actually, i went to quite a number of rugby matches around JB. the best was between otai Johor and ATM, of course ATM won. heep, heep, horay for ATM. the match was satisfying.
my brother plays for Air Force. my other brother plays for ATM and the other brother plays for his college. but i never watch any of them playing because most of their matches were in KL or northern states. i wish one day, i could see them playing. tehee.
South Africa vs Namibia,
North Harbour Stadium, North Shore, Auckland
Rugby World cup 2011
korang rasa pelik tak perempuan suka rugby? aku pelik ke? rugby best la. tengok sekali pasti nak lagi!!!
