Wordless Wednesday

.salam.

here i am, in the kitchen. blogging while having breakfast. still readapting with everything especially sleeping pattern. so far, everything is good. just dwelling for my lost iphone. i love so much. and for sure i love it damn much because i've invested so much money on it and everything in it is priceless. even though i've been using it for nearly 2 years, there's no scratch at all. no screen damage. T____T.

now it's not a good time for everything. not a good time for my family. we having hard time at the moment. malam tadi nenek sedara saya meninggal. so, my mum and my dad were away since after fajr prayer. me, after this will drive my sister for tuition. and go to the funeral.

kematian itu tazkirah terbaik untuk kita. semoga arwah titempatkan dikalangan orang beriman.

al-Fatihah.

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hyperspeed 2011

.assalamualaikum.
2011 is super fast year i ever had in my life. seriously, no kidding. i feel like i just started semester one and i struggled so bad to survive because everything seems to be hard for me. 'wake up' for second semester and work much harder and it worth every effort.happy with my results and nothing much i say about it. it's really hard to get an A here because University of Auckland top university in the world and for sure the standard is very high ( i'm not showing off nor boasting, but it's what our lecturer said during our farewell dinner).

i think this is the climax. at this time i was so horrible. stress out with all the things i need to handle. assignments. tests. live my life independently. i woke up early and went to uni very early in the morning, while my friends were still sleeping on their bed and got back late nigh, sometimes 12 midnight. my eyes look so tired ( macam cina tak, hehehehe). it's really hard to juggle between study, personal life, and endless sports practices.

i'm glad that i clear all my papers for this semester. even though i havent got EDUC348 results, i know i pass because Sheryll told me i made it. Alhamdulillah. this semester is much better. i pass with good marks and i really thankful. nothing satisfy me more other than getting good marks and Sheryll keep telling me good things. Sheyrll has helped me so much. she sometimes can smack you right on your face, but it's for your own good. believe me! she's the best teacher i ever knew. she will scream to you like hell, but she can be super nice to you when you behave and when we out of academic circle. that's so professional and it's how an effective teacher should be. time marah, marah betul, but at the same time you love them. big word for a teacher.FORGIVING. you must always ready to forgive your students even they hurt you so much. i hope i could be one, insyaallah one day. i adore Matthew, Syafiq's associate during our practicum. he's so cool. tak pernah meninggikan suara, yet semua students ikut cakap dia. takut ( respect) dia. that's just so amazing. i just wondering how he does that.
yeah, 2011 almost comes to its end. rapid aye? so, it's time to go back to Malaysia. i feel i just done everything last week, yesterday and just now. but they are all left as memories. it's time to move on. face the reality in Malaysia. i so excited to be home. my brother told me that our grandma would be home by the time i arrive. my grandma house just 2 hours drive from KLIA but i dont wanna go straight away to her house because the first person i really want to see is my mum and my dad. hey, dont get me wrong. i love my grandma too( she's at my house iat

Terengganu now, just to meet me) but i miss my mum and my dad so terribly much. lama tak jumpa. i know it's gonna be awkward, seriously because we havent met like forever (ok, over). and i'm a little bit nervous to see them. should i feel that way?

p/s: i'm leaving tonight. when i open my eyes tomorrow morning, i'll be in KL. semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan. amin

last bit of New Zealand day 3

day 3, we did water rafting. tangan dan muka tercalar, lebam. muka burn dek tramping dan water rafting. tangan pun hitam. huwaa

we had fun really. the instructors Kim and Matt are so friendly and freaking nice.
p/s: i'm going back tomorrow. tak boleh nyenyak tidur malam ni

last bit of New Zealand day 2

Assalamulaikum

Here it comes day 2. The worst part of our trip. Tramping!! Tapi ni memang the main event untuk trip kali ni since this is the perfect time untuk tramping because it's summer. Sebenarnya kitaorng ada tengok gambar senior pergi Tongariro. Awesome sangat. So, kitaorng google pasal Tongariro dan memang cantik pun. Rancang punya rancang, dengan segala konflik pada mulanya pasal siapa ak join siapa nak keluar, tinggal kitaorang 5 orang je. Aku, Aten, Izzati, Saifful and Ema.

Kitaorang ada book shuttle untuk ke starting point. Petugas kat Adventure HQ tu recommend kitaorng untuk rent winter coat sebab dia cakap atas sana sejuk gila even summer. Suhu boleh sampai below 0 degree katanya. Kitaorang rasa ridiculous sebab tengok gambar orang-orang sebelum ni ok je. Sunny pulak tu. Mungkin strategy business. But still Ema , Saifful dan Aten rent juga sebab macam scary je dengar dia cakap 'crazy cold'. Aku just rent gloves sebab i already have wind coat. So, it should be fine. 

Actually sejuk je sebelum kitaorng start tu sebab it was cloudy. I don't wanna take a risk sebab tangan aku cepat sejuk. So, gloves is a must for me. Petugas kat HQ ada tanya kitaorang betul ke nak hiking macam ni? and I was like "kenapa dia tanya macam ni?" Dia ada gak tanya ada buat training tak sebelum datang sini like jogging 5 km ke, intensive treadmill ke, kitaorang just cakap tak. Perlu ke semua benda tu? Like seriously kitaorng tak terfikir apa maksud disebalik soalan yang kitaorang rasa sangat nonsense tu.

Muka kami sebelum memulakan ekspidisi yang kitaorang tak tahu pun apa yang bakal kami hadapi.senyum bangga. No expectation. Sadis sangat.

Berjalan ke kaki gunung sahaja dah ambil masa 1 jam. Cuba tengok puncak tertinggi. Yes, gunung tu la kami panjat. Bila turun tu dah rasa macam tak percaya panjat gunung tu. 8 jam kot panjat. Rasa nak tabik spring kat diri sendiri tak kita tak boleh la riak kan. Allah tak suka.

At this point, we were just at 1/3 of the mountain. Mendaki gunung rasa tak terjangkau imaginasi minda. Dari bawah tengok orang kat atas kecik sangat. Nampak titik je. Tapi bila kita sendiri dah sampai point tu rasa bangga je. Tapi serious penat. Penat yang memang penat sampai dah takde tenaga. Energy level boleh kata 20% je. Berhenti takyah cakap la berapa kali. Million times. Ya Allah siksa sangat. Tapi worth sangat. 

Could you imagine how cold it was. Snow hasn't melt even it's winter. Nice!

Dalam trip ni paling kesian kat Emma, dia paling horrible sekali. Am I using the right word? hahaha. Sampaikan dah tak mampu nak duduk elok-elok. Sampai dah nak terpengsan. Berhenti tak tahu la berapa kali. Tapi nasib baik dia physically and mentally tough. I tell you meh, even physically kuat sekali pun, kalau mental tak kuat pun tak jalan. Yang penting ada kesungguhan untuk menawan Tongariro. Dan tak pernah putus asa dan berpatah balik. Next is the worst part.

Gambar ni diambil selepas kami mengharungi the worst part dalam ekspidisi ni. Selepas kitaorng dah sampai 2/3 of the mountain, kitaorang sampai kt kawasan luas macam gurun. Basically, Tongariri Mountain takde pokok langsung sebab mountain ni terbentuk dari letusan gunung berapi. So, struktur tanahnya batu, pasir kasar dan debu coklat. kItaorang ada ambik few jumping photos. Lepas tu, kitaorang teruskan perjalan ke punjak. 

Here, the worst part started. Bila kitaorang start daki balik, kawasan ni sangat exposed. Tiada halangan langsung sebab paling tinggi. Angin punya la kuat. Angin lintang siap. Memang tak boleh berdiri langsung. Memang terpelanting kalau berdiri. Semua orang yang mendaki tu merangkak naik keatas. Bukan sejengkal pulak tu. Bukan sikit punya jauh. Meemang tak boleh berhenti masa tu. Kalau nak berjenti kena berhenti belakang batu. Kalau tak, terjun gaung la jawapannya sebab anagin kuat teramat. Sejuk tu hanya tuhan je tahu.

Tetiba teringat persoalan bro kt HQ tadi. Memang relevant soalan dia. He knows more than us. Local kan. Tiba ko nak lawan cakap local pulak. Memang below 0 degree. Punya la sejuk kalau tak pakai glove. Yes, memang betul sunny tapi expect the unexpected. Di sebabkan terlalu sejuk dan angin lintang yang sangat kuat, semua orang sampai keluar air hidung. Tak henti-henti. Sampai ada air hidung orang tu singgah ke muka orang ni. Ada yang muka dah comot dengan air hidung sendiri. Lap air hidung pun dah tak tahu betul ke tak sebab tangan dah numb. Tudung aku ni dah macam tak tentu arah. Kuat sangat angin. Sampaikan kerongsang dah sampai je telinga. Semua orang tudung sampai dah nak tertanggal. Selekeh sangat. Bak kata Aten tudung dah macam mak cik kantin. hahaha. Izzati dan Emma yang pakai shawl ni pun dah serabut sangat. Dah kalah Hana Tajima punya tudung. Messy dan stylo sangat.

Angin yang kuat menerbangkan pasir-pasir kasar ke muka. Even pakai shade pun pasir masuk mata dan lubang hidung. At first ingatkan hidung berdarah sebab setiap kali lap mesti ada merah-merah. Rupanya debu sangat banyak dalam hidung. Pasir berterbangan tu boleh didengari 'memukul' kepala kitaorang. Even pakai hoodie pasir tu macam hujan menghempas ke kepala. At this point ramai yang give up. Memang tak mampu. Ramai yang patah balik. Kitaorng sebenarnya tergugat juga sebab ramai yang patah balik sebab tak mampu. Letih sangat-sangat sebab kena panjat sambil merangkak lagi, angin kuat lagi, sejuk tahap maximum lagi, debu lagi dan yang paling worst, you hardly breath up there. ketumpatan udara rendah ( correct me if i'm wrong, dah lupa konsep fizik belajar kt sekolah dulu) menyebabkan kitaorang tak boleh bernafas dengan baik. So, kitaorng avoid talking as much as possible.

Muka dan jari obvious sangat bengkak. Rasa takut tengok tangan sendiri. Nak gemgam tangan pun rasa tegang. Masa ni la semua orang dah boleh tengok muka buruk setiap kawan-kawan.  Muka stress. Muka penuh debu. Burn lagi. Tapi none of us decide nak patah balik. Nak patah balik pun sama seksa dengan nak teruskn. Just finish what you've started right. So, we move on. Bila dah sampai puncak, sejuk yang memang tak tahan. Kitaorang teruskan juga. bila dah sampai ke the other side of the mountain, ok sikit sebab angin dah tak kuat sebab terlindung. Sejuk pun kurang sebab dah tak tinggi.

So we take a nap, changed our mode. Kitaorang makan kat summit ni. Takde curam sangat, tapi disebabkan kitaorang just pakai sport shoes bukan hiking shoes, kitaorang struggle nak turun. Even yang pakai kasut proper pun boleh jatuh. Ramai yang ambik langkah untuk turun jalan macam itik. Ema dia cam pandai sikit, dia duduk sambil ensot-ensot. So terus je turun. Macam baby. Kalau turun sampai berdiri, wajib tergolek. Aku pun berapa kali terjatuh terhempap bontot. Seksa, tapi normal la kan. Nasib baik pasir kat area ni lembut. Sampai kat side ni, memang happy sangat. Worth every sweat. Cantik. Amazing. Magnificent. Boleh nampak semua kat bawah sebab you're at the top of the world.

I love this. Emarald Lake. Terbentuk dari letusan gunung berapi. Membentuk kawah. Sangat hijau sebab sulfur tapi bau kurang menyenangkan. Bau raw sulfur. 

Betapa tingginya tengok orang kat bawah tu. Kecik je.  Tapi diingatkn, kat bwh tu bukan kaki gunung lagi ye. Just kaki untuk bukit ni je.

Could you imagine kitaorng baru je menuruni gunung kecik ni. Tinggi dan curam. Rasa nak bunuh diri sendiri je tengok. Lepas turun puncak ni, kitaornang jalan lagi merentasi kawasan lapang yang macam gurun lagi menuju je siniiiiiiiii!!!!!!

Lagi satu tasik yang sumpah cantik. Tak terbayang hasil letusan gunung berapi ni boleh menghasilkan sesuatu yang luar biasa cantiknya.

Kawasan paling tricky. Licin dan jalan sangat kecik. Tapi ditempuhi dengan penuh keyakinan.

Okey, mungkin sampai disini je ceritanya. Sorry kalau aku over dalam bercerita. Atau terlebih excited. Just nak cerita betapa teruknya perasaan kami masa tu. Tapi seriously tak menyesal sebab worth it bila dapat lihat dan ambik gambar yang cantik. Letih? Tuhan je tahu. Kaki sampai longlai. Bayangkan 8 jam mendaki. Kental sangat. Glad we made it to the end. Kalau siapa yang tak mampu, tak di recommend untuk mendaki Tongariro. Ada orang pernah mati kat atas tu sebab sejuk sangat. Bak kata Emma, memang patut pun siapa yang daki gunung Everest dapat pangat dato'. Sebab memang gila tough. Bukan kerja senang ni. Bila terfikir balik soalan-soalan petugas kat HQ tu, memang make sense pun. Kita kena well prepared, expect the worst. Shuttle yang datang ambik kitaorang tu bimbang mencari kitaorang. Boleh dia cakap "we've been worried about you guys". Dah agak dah, sebab diorng nampak at first kitaorang tak prepare, muka dah la muda, budak habis mukanya. Dengan gelak je kerja nya bila diorng buat lawak.
Balik je penat yang amat-amt. Lenguh toksah cakap la. Berurut semua orang.

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last bit of New Zealand day 1

.salam.
hello. i'm back in Auckland. just could metaphorically awake and get myself energized after short but long trip ever. i can still feel the hard wind hitting my face. all the dirt that come into my nose. oh, it was just so terrible. but i'll tell about that later. so, day one just not too bad except for one part when we initially have some issues with rental car. we left the city a little bit late from the actual plan because of that. we stop by at Hamilton Garden for lunch and after that we did pickityourself ( if i not mistaken) strawberry. awesome!
went to Rotorua and Huka fall. all these places didnt excite us that much because we have been there last year. the feeling of going somewhere for the first is different. you're extremely excited. snap every step you take and so. tetiba dah tak rasa remaja sebab tak excited dengan life.

fresh strawberry to bring home

last time we went to Rotorua during winter. it was crazy cold. my hand get numb.

i love this photo the most. excited kawan-kawan saya. ditambah pula cuaca yang cantik.

government house, Rotorua

nothing much on first day. just walked around Rotorua, Taupo and Turangi. breathtaking view. enjoying nice view in silence before we go back.huhuhu

last bit of New Zealand day 2 coming soon...

last trip

salam
7 days to go. really looking forward to go back to Malaysia. the closer to go back, the more nicer people i met. why is it now? why not last year? why not last few months? it makes me feel like i dont wanna go back when i met someone new, and he/she said 'see you around in uni next year'. i wont be here next year. T.T.some people just stop by to say you look great in head scarf and all.
today i'm going to Tongariro Alphine Crossing, New Zealand natinal park. that's gonna be awesome. this would be our last trip before we go back. bye, next year kita jalan Bandung pula. off to Tongariro!

Husna

the initial plan was to go to Dressmart as early as 9.10 in the morning, but since we got back from the airport around 2 and i slept at 3 something last night, i couldnt make it. when i woke up and nearly scream. what? we just missed the free shuttle. crap. i really need to go to Dressmart because i need to grab All Blacks stuff. lastly, we have to take a bus.T.T.
so, here we were. sending off Husna for good. i just knew she was going back earlier than us yesterday morning for some reasons. and yeah, we respect whatever the reasons are.

just imagine when she opens her eyes, she already in Malaysia.

we went to Countdown for late night grocery shopping. bought some stuff for our trip this Saturday. this week and the week after kinda busy. planning what to do next and at the same time considering how much money we have. oh, i wish i have lots of money.

great reflection photo aye? thanks Izzati sayang. tiba

of being unproductive

salam all
due to the fact that Auckland is so dead now, which is as always except for the past few months, i really have nothing to enjoy about in Auckland. enjoy as in going out for food and yeah stuff like that. i get bored eating the same foods, drink at the same tea house etc. nothing much we can eat since halal food is not much available. in the end, we end up eating the same thing at the same place. kebab. pizza. kebab. pizza. chicken nibble. Hulucat. Empire. Mustardseeds. kebab again. pizza again. Balistar. this circle goes around and around. boring aye? i always remember the days when i could eat almost everything, anywhere in Malaysia. *mentally starving*
so here i was last night. have no idea where and what to eat. just ate pizza at one of the middle east restaurant, shared with Zati and Aten . bermalas-malasan waktu makan. luckily we had Bill, Hawa and Nisya together. boredom reduced. then we walked down to the harbour and gossiping. it was so cold last night and i didnt bring sweater. great!

Chicken Cashew

i'm working this morning. shop kinda quiet because it's almost summer and everybody is leaving Auckland for vacation and to their hometown. making Auckland even quiter than usual. customers are not 'happening' as before. i was sleepy the whole day. late evening my boss said to me, "Hey Fareha , take this money and buy drinks for all of us". i know he had been looking at me for while and i keep yawning. making my eyes nearly shut. hahahah. i get all of us cups of coffee.

thanks for the coffee boss. see you at dinner tomorrow
p/s: i'm going to airport toning. sending off Husna to Malaysia. semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan. selamat sampai ke Malaysia. Amin.

11.11.11

salaam
yea, i know today is not 11.11.11. i just want to share what i've done on this date. thinking of having something to remember since this date seems so nice. but this was the only thing we could think of. but, to bad.

i will miss Auckland so dearly

we went to Wynward Quarter for tram riding. it's dead, as in really dead after rugby world cup.

unlike Christchurch, tram is quite rare in Auckland











Sky Tower from habourside


Auckland, city of sails

all these make Auckland as an awesome place to visit. do come to New Zealand people!
thank you for reading

mood swing

entry ni dicopy dan paste dari blog sizuka my bedmate.

it's not an easy thing to be a WOMAN.
-boleh mekap mekap
-boleh main pondok-pondok
-pakai shawl bergantung gantung, warna warni Malaysia
-jadi fashionista [?]
-et cetera...
untunglahhhhhhhhhh.
tapi siapa tahu susahnya bila kena main hide and seek dengan emosi sendiri.this is based on my experience and observation.sebab aku perempuan, so aku lalui situasi sebagai seorang perempuan lah kan?

mood swing memang paling hebat dalam dunia.tersilap timing, engkau pun kena swing sekali.maybe sesetengah orang ingat eleh mengada betul tadi kemain happy tetiba moody pulak.aku, adalah jenis orang yang tak boleh kontrol mood swing tahap langit ketujuh aku ni.jadi siapa yang boleh kontrol mood swing memang hebat.#tabikhormat
kalau lelaki rasa mood swing is such a tiny tiny tiny thingy, KUCH NEHI BABUJI.kau boleh menghadapi perang dunia kalau berdepan dengan perempuan yang baru melalui mood-swing-transition.
girls are complicated, YES.sebab lelaki je yang boleh meleraikan ke'complicated'an tu.coba - perempuan tengah moody, datang sorang lagi perempuan pujuk.again, KUCH NEHI BABUJI.silap haribulan, dua dua swing sesama sendiri HAHAHA.

so in this case, guys harus menjadi cool.as cool as the big gulp at 7eleven.
ah tapi takkan perempuan je boleh sentap sentap, gua tak boleh sentap pulak?


Allah ciptakan lelaki dengan 9 akal dan 1 nafsu...manakala perempuan diciptakan dengan 9 nafsu dan 1 akal.kalau boleh buat kira-kira matematik, kau tahu kewarasan akal fi

kiran berpihak pada siapa.

which is why:
-perempuan suka mengamuk tak tentu pasal
-menangis tak tentu pasal
-buat semua benda tak tentu pasal

bila fikir balik, macam kelakar tapi sebenarnya logik.
aku pun kekadang tak tentu pasal.lagilah dengan memang pembawakan anak sulung yang suka nak ikut cakap sendiri [HAHAHA].unsur tanah katanya.
TAPI kalau lelaki duk nak mood swing jugak, itu yang terjadinya tragedi pinggan belanga berterbangan di rumah.ah-haaaa.dah macam perunding perkahwinan pulakkkkk.

tips: kalau perempuan mood swing, suruh dia tidur.bangun pagi esok mesti dia ok punya.macam aku HAHA.

cari gambar ni dekat Facebook, lepas tu baca description bawah dia.
i tell you, they're absolutely true.


p/s: girls ada nak share tips mengawal mood swing?one of the ways is berwudhuk dan mengadu kepadaNya.other ways?
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yeah. that's true. diakui sangat betul. kadang-kadang emosi tak terkawal. tapi xde la gila. tak paham nk huraikan macam mana. rasa marah tak pasal ni macam pelik juga. tapi bila belajar biology masa sekolah dulu bau tahu reasons nya kenapa. tapi punya la kan, hormone tu memberi impacts y sgt besar dalam mengawal emosi.

i grew up with all boys siblings. so tak kan la nak share like 'hey, orang rasa moody la'. diorng mesti freak out and say 'so what'. just sebb diorang tak paham. huuuuuu

memorable parade

hi all
rugby world cup has ended like nearly 3 weeks now. even the players have been in country after having long overseas vacation after the world cup. i know this is pretty lame, but i just want to share photos i've taken during the parade after New Zealand won the cup again after 24 years. what a great feeling. everybody was like in the dream. got to see All Blacks players. they were even nice in person. memang betul orang cakap, people are evn nicer in real world.
warning: heaps of photos

so many people on street. i never seen this before




Dan Carter. the coolest/nicest guy in All Blacks for me.
























my favourite


crazy crowd


kan





happy captain

what amaze me the most about All Blacks is how they become All Blacks. they themselves do not believe they finally become one because it's a big dream. tough journey really. it's everybody's dream. every boy in Nez Zealand wants to be All Blacks because people look up for All Blacks. but it's not easy because there are soooo many people can play rugby very well in New Zealand. so All Blacks are the best among the best. do you get my feeling now. full of expression. meremang bulu roma.