i woke up earlier than usual because i got muslimah netball this morning. it was held at Zayed college, Mangere. it's a private college,only for muslim girls and it's quit far from the city. i never been in this kind of competition before, i mean all players are muslim. somehow, we became the center of attention because we never play in this competition before like other groups because this is an annual competition, they keep comming every year and the organizer keep on approaching us, asking whether we are ok or not. warm welcome really, from the school, the organizer as well as the other groups. we look kinda different for them because they said we are Asian. we look like Chinese ( they mean the skin colour, but actually not) for them. the players comes from every corner of the world; Somalia, iraq, Iran, India, Fiji, Bangladesh, Canada, New Zealand itself and others ( so many to mention) but they live in New Zealand. all of the are immigrants. they kinda suprise when we said we just come here to study. Actually, Afghanistan, Iraq,Iran are Asian too. but they seem not to address themselves as Asian because people typically address Asian when they see Chinese, Korean and Japanese.
really excited playing with them because they were so good. jangan ingat muslim girls ni tak terrer main netball. kitaorang kalah kot. at first they came with Jubah and head cover and some even cover their face, exposing only their eyes. when they were on court, they took off all their hijab and i was like wow. we can take off everything we want because there was no boy/guy at all there, except for very little boy la of course. all the girls with jubah, hijab i saw before the game were gone. they were different person. they look totally different. they wore something i could never imagine. you know what i mean. i never dress up like that even i'm not wearing jubah and hijab in my daily basis. but they did. but that was definitely fine because no guys right. melihat diorng ni, rasa sangat...should i say insaf or something running through my vein. i realised something. there are reasons why we have to cover our body. melihat pada diorng, i'm thinking. oh, they are REALLY beutiful. dan percaya lah, yang tertutup itu sangat indah. Itu janji Allah. sebab itu bukan semua orang boleh tengok apa yang bukan haknya. dan tujuan kita menhijabkan diri kita adalah kerana menjaga maruah kita dan ianya bukan satu exploitasi.
i took off my tudung too, but after the games because today was so hot. even though almost all girls took off their head cover while playing, i just couldnt do it because i feel so weird, akward and uncomfortable. plus, i never play netball with my tudung off. i went to the toilet to take off my tudung and i walked in to the hall. the moment i step in the hall, i felt oh no. i just cant do this. even no guys there, i just felt that i cant do it. yeah, because i used to wear tudung i guess and i feel embarrass for not to.
i cant upload the photo because most of the photo are not approprite to be uploaded since everyone playing without hijab. i can only upload this. this so adorable girl named Sky or her muslim name is Salma. convert to Islam because of her parent. she explained to me everything about converting, what is permissible and what is not and personally i think that is amazing because it's a complicated thing for a very young child.
to all new comers, selamat kembali ke fitrah. Semoga Allah redha.
p/s: Selamat menyambut Ramadhan. semoga amal kita diterima.InsyaAllah.