Woke up late !!!!!!

Pheuw!!!! finally it's weekend. freaking tiring week is over. penat sangat, penat sangat, penat sangat. ok, nk cerita pasal school visit. one thing you should know about me, I HATE BEING LATE. unfortunately i'm just an ordinary human being who is always makes mistake again and again.

berjanji dengan emma untuk tunggu kat ground floor pukul 6.55 pagi untuk berjalan ke general libarary untuk tunggu bas untuk ke Rangitoto. tapi tahu tak aku bangun pukul berapa? aku bangun 6.53 BOLEH!!!!!!.bila tengok jam aku rasa nak pengsan.aku terus melompat dari katil dan memikirkan aku memang mampos la kali ni. Haaaaa kau, ayat sampai macam tu kot. tapi memang betul pun. bayangkan nak mandi lagi, nak sembahyang lagi, nak letak2 barang lagi, nak make-up lagi ( tak sangat pun, less is more, kannn) dan yang paling worst nak jalan pergi uni ambil masa almost 30 minutes. bayangkan aku kena ada depan library kol 7.20..tak ke nak mati tu?

aku yang boleh terbangun lewat tu sebab aku tidur lewat. aku ni kan tak boleh tidur lewat. aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku boleh tertidur lewat, tapi yang pasti aku balik ke bilik kol 12 something. aku tidur kol 1. kol 1 tu dah kira lewat sebab kol 5 petang dah malam sekarang ni.masa aku tidur, dalam pukul 3 guy next door dan kawan-kawan dia baru balik dari somewhere. balik pulak cakap-cakap dalam bilik, kuat gile. kuat gile. aku ni dah lah senang terjaga dari tidur. even kalau dengan lipas terbang pun aku boleh terkejut. ni mungkin juga sebab fobia dengan lipas.

bila dah terlewat sempat pergi mandi. menakjubkan!!!aku biasanya mandi lama tapi mandi kejap je hari tu. lepas mandi sembahyang dan nasib baik baju dah iron. pakai baju segala, sempat ambik pudding roti yang aku buat sehari sebelum tu. bila aku turun bawah tengok ema takde kat groundfloor. masa tu pukul 7.06 am. wondering ema ni tak turun lagi ke or dah pergi. dia kan biasanya lewat....kahkahkahkah....sorry ema. kantoi satu habit ko. aku pun pergi naik bilik dia as in kat tingkat 9, tengok bilik dia gelap, tak berkunci. ema ni dah siap ke belum. aku gi toilet ada orng dalam satu shower. aku panggil EMA, EMA, EMA..tiada sahutan yerk. maknanya dalam shower tu bukan ema. aku gi bilik dia balik kot-kot dia dah balik sebab aku bajet dia tak gi lagi sebab bilik tak kunci kan. then, boleh tak aku gi balik toilet panggil orang yang dalam shower tu, sebab aku rasa macam ema tapi dia tak nak menyahut. tolong la aku ni. akhirnya aku mengalah, turun balik bawah assume ema dah pergi. by the the time i walked from HUIA it was already 7.10. can you imagine i have to walk to uni within 10 minutes left which usually takes 30 minutes? 

jalan la aku ni dengan laju yang amat. menuruni bukit, lintas traffic light, turun bukit sikit lagi, naik bukit, lintas satu lagi traffic light batu lah sampai library. bila aku sampai kat library, seriuos lutut aku nak tercabut. ni bukan nak buat cerita aku best ke ape, tapi memang serious aku rasa macam aku takde kaki. laju kot jalan. aku jalan 13 minit je kot.masa sampai nak terjelupuk jatuh. tapi ape pun, alhamdulillah sempai sampai before bas sampai.

masa sampai sekolah kitaorang disambut dengan upacan Powhiri. ceremony ni macam official welcoming ceremony untuk guest. dan yang best nya HAKKA dance la. kalau New Zealand ni kalau takde HAKKA memang tak sah sebab ni identiti orang Maori. kebetulan aku duk depan sekali. nak luruh jantung aku sebab muka sorang-sorang ganas sungguh. takut cikgu tau. ni bukan la 1st hakka dance aku pernah tengok tengok secara live. kt utube pun pernah tengok. tapi kali ni duduk depan sekali, dah la dekat as in beberapa langkah je depan aku. dengan dia buat muka ganas, jelir lidah, bergerak setapak demi setapak, aku cuba control muka aku buat-buat senyum. tapi dalam hati aku hanya tuhan je yang tahu. rasa nak pecah dada aku. aku boleh bayangkan perasan pemain England masa tengok team All Black buat Hakka sebelum diorang lwan masa rugby world cup tahun berapa ntah. team England muka cuak... tu lah aku rasa. 

sebenarnya hakka ni lebih kurang untuk declare kawan atau lawan. sebab tu dalam upacara ni lelaki sangat berperanan penting. sebenarnya perempuan kena duduk belakang tapi sebab satu side dah penuh aku kena duduk depan sekali side sebelah sana. kiranya lelaki berperanan untuk melindungi perempuan-perempuan dalam sesuatu group. sebab tu group hakka diaorang perempuan duduk line belakang. dalam upacara ni kena lawan-lawan lagu. pengetua diorang ada la cakap sikit untuk intro sape diaorang. tak paham satu apa sebab diorang cakap bahasa Maori. nasib baik kitaorang nyanyi agak kuat walaupun 17 drpd kitaorang perempuan. 3 je lelaki. kalau ada apa-apa 3 lelaki ni lah yang seharusnya melindungi kami kalau sekolah ni declare musuh kat kitaoarng kalau diorang tak suka dengan kitaorang. bak kata shyrell kalau diorang buat HAKKA sekali lagi means diorang marah dan nak berperang. tapi tu dulu la, sekarang tak tahu la kan.

last sekali ada HONGI. hongi ni gesel hidung dengan orang macam ibaratnya salam la dalm budaya kita. bila jumpa orang gesel hidung. oh, sangat berdebar masa ni. masa dulu-dulu kitaorang pernah gi Powhiri under Faculty of education. masa tu aku takut sangat, bedebar macam apa je. gesel hidung dengan semua lecturer. Penat tak? lecturer perempuan je tapi terlepas juga terpaksa buat dengan lecturer lelaki. hurm, tak tahu nak cakap ape. dah nak buat macam mana tu culture dioarang. tapi saya malu. tapi kali ni diorang paham dan respect juga la kitaorang ni kan Islam. salam je dengan principle diaorang. bayangkan budak-budak yang buat HAKKA ganas nak mati tadi buat HONGI. comel gile. diorang buat dengan budak lelaki kitaorang je la. kitaorang tak HONGI dengan diorang. just letak tangan dekat dada tanda respect. diorang senyum dan angguk je la. tak kan nak HONGI dengan diorang. Gesel higung dengan budak lelaki yang umur 16, 17, 18? oh, pengsan kau di buatnya. anak ikan gile ( hawa's best qoute of the day). 

lepas semua selesai, kitaorang makan. lepas makan lawat sekolah, masuk kelas English dan ESOL. makan-makan dengan staff. sembang-sembang dengan Glenn. best cakap Glenn sebab dia pernah mengajar dekat Malaysia, so dia banyak point nak cakap. Menariknya, dia pandai cakap Melayu sikit tapi Melayu Indonesia. ada lagi beberapa cikgu pandai cakap melayu. Menarik bila tengok orang asing cakap melayu. Ok, balik ko 2.40 dan aku ade kelas kol 3 sampai 5. oh , penat sangat.

sebab tu balik bilik, lepas sembahyang isyak dalam kol 7 terus tidur sampai pagi esok....

tak tahu apa maksud dia tapi rasanya pusat sumber kot...

he's Glenn..he's so nice and passionate about teaching

atas dan bwh ni student rep

moral of the story:

i) wake up late is bad
ii) be carefull when you talk, foreigner might understand what u r takling

iii) ape-ape je lah yang berkaitan..banyak sebenarnya...fikir-fikirkan

teori VS practikal

Assalamualaikum.....

teori dan practikal, sama tak? ada orang cakap sama tapi kebanyakan orang akan setuju kalau aku katakan these two thing are totally different. agree? SANGAT.

okey, for example we learn about theories and all stuff, the appropriate approaches and so whateve to tackle the students ( ok, sorry mood sekarang nak cakap pasal education je, sebab banyak assignment related to school, yeeee....seronok), but when it comes to real theworld all these are just something you get from book. somehow, you can't apply it at all in the real world. yep, i would say we have to create our own theory to handle the situation. if you say you are humanistic kind of teacher, you would approach you students softly, cater their need, treat them they way they deserved and care about their need and interst. but in the real world, as in the class would you do that. if you are too soft, the student might go beyond the limit. if you teach them based on their interest, how about the curriculum standard you should achieved? tak hairan la ada sorang 'kawan' aku ni sampai rasa nak hempuk kepala budak tu. baru mengajar melalui skype, tak mengajar depan-depan lagi. maybe he was just saying sebab geram sangat masa tu. in this situation, kita kena decide approach yang sesuai untuk handle masalh ni. combine je semua teori pavlov, vygotsky, brunner,piaget dan sape-sape lagi la.

hari ni pergi tutoring lagi. ashlee, student aku hari ni bagus. tapi macam biasa malas nak belajar. aku pun dah tahu nak buat macam mana. aku tanya interest dia apa. maybe aku boleh tukar cara pembelajaran sebab dia nampak macam bosan bila aku mengajar. aku tak suka nak paksa-paksa. lagi pun aku ni tak garang kot, sebab tu students tak takut. tak tahu nak marah macam mana. kalau marah kan benda lain pulak jadinya.dia tanya aku..' what is interest?'dalam hati aku ' oh, dia tak tahu interest'. aku cakap kat dia apa yang dia suka buat bila free, dia cakap cooking and fishing. kalau boleh dia nak baca buku masak je. paham...paham..aku cakap kat dia, dia kena banyak baca so dia boleh pergi ke university. dia cakap dia tak nak pergi even ke college ( college kat sni bukan uni, tapi senior high). dia cakap tak seronok. aku cakap senior high lagi best sebab banyak benda exciting boleh buat. tapi dia tak nak juga. last-last dekat nak habis masa aku just sembang je dengan dia sebab dia malas nak belajar. layan je la kan.

tetiba dia tanya aku...' why you wearing scarf?'...but i'm not offended with the question. typical question. so many people ask me this question. even the people i just knew. i don't mind. simple reply ' religion practice'. then boleh dia cakap ' you must be ugly without the scaft'. boleh dia cakap macam tu. aku ni sampai tergelak. belum tengok belum tahu...hahahhahahha...kannnnn....dia tanya aku dari mana, aku cakap la Malaysia. then dia cakap ada certain negara bann pakai tudung. tapi aku cakap kat Malaysia tak. New Zealand pun tak. aku tanya dia ' do you afraid of me we because of this'.. she said 'no, it's just kinda weird'. then dia tanya lagi ' do you wear that when you were liltle? i said ' no'.

banyak la soalan selanjutnya dia tanya pasal ni. aku tahu dia curious sebab budak. soalan pun sangat la telus. tak berlapik. kalau before this orang yang tanya aku agak berlapik la tanya sebab dia mesti bajet sensitiviti orang untuk tanya soalan macam tu. kalau budak, memang naked truth la jawapannya. last soalan aku dekat dia ' do you like me?' dia jwab yes sambil angguk kepala. aku pun tersenyum...will be meeting her again next week and she's looking to see me as well. Lega nak sangat gembira..

she's Ash...innocent and naive young girl of mine. love her. she's talkative

I'm going to Rangitoto Senior High tomorrow. Got to go now. need to sleep early and wake very early...as in gerak dari HUIA as early as 6.50..so not normal since we always got class at 10 now..ngeee

Ayah!!! Miss u

kepada issa, ni isi kepada entry kali ni...hari tu tak berkesempatan nak tulis sebab post guna telefon.

okey tetiba terasa rindu ayah sebab tengok drama series Prison Break. sampai boleh menangis tengok father-son relationship dalam cerita tu. sebab tu teringat terus kat ayah saya. tetiba teringat dah lama tak email ayah saya. so, kena email ayah saya. hari tu telefon mak, mak saya cakap ayah saya wondering kenapa saya lama tak email dia. bukan tak nak email, tapi yelah kan, dengan masalah internet dan sebagainya ni. pulak laptop buat hal.

So random...

awal-awal pagi ni saya keluar berjalan-jalan dengan sizuka. Bukan berjalan sangat pun sebenarnya, nak pergi beli stock makanan sebab utamanya.nak beli kasut juga sebab nak beli kasut yang agak formal sebab kasut yang sedia ada tak berapa nak formal. Nak bawak gi uni boleh la, kalau nak pergi sekolah...eeerk,kureng sesuai. Ok, sebelum pergi foodtown aku ajak sizuka pergi ruby. nak tengok-tengok kasut. aku ni biasa nya susah nak beli something sebab terlalu picky. ok, ended up not buying shoes today yerk. tak jumpa yang taste aku. Masuk valley girl. Mak ai, sale macam gila. nak beli tapi duit dah tak berapa banyak sekarang. macam nak pengsan tadi. sasau sekejap. tak tahan tengok sale. baju cantik-cantik. rugilah kiranya kalau tak beli. tapi apa kan daya, duit perlu dijimatkan memandangkan ramadhan bakal mendatang, kena save duit juga untuk raya. Adush, sesak nafas bila fikir. masuk kedai tu memang wajib, tapi sambil urut dada dan istighfar banyak-banyak. belek baju sambil menangis.ok, tapi sizuka sempat rembat satu coat...diri ini? hanya ingatan tentang baju-baju dibawa keluar dari kedai. lepas tu masuk pumkin patch.lagi nak menagis. cantik nyer. tapi perlu bersabar lagi. sabar sebahagian daripada iman, lagi pun tak penting sangat nak beli tu semua buat masa sekarang. nafsu je semua ni.

masa beli kat foodtown tadi tetiba tengok resit, mahal nak mati. apa lah aku beli, rupanya beli barang yang disangka kan ada promosi tapi tak promosi. patut la mahal. sengal...so, peringatan untuk semua, sebelum beli barang-barang sila tengok brand barang betul-betul.

ok, snack ni sepatutnya 2 for 5 dollar.maknanya kalau kita beli 2 dapat 5 dollar. tapi bila kita beli satu je harga dia 3.99.jauhkan bezanya. kedua2 brand ni ada promo, tapi aku ambik satu dari setiap brand, maknanya aku beli satu je setiap brand.tak perasan bole!!! 3.99 satu, geram sangat..patut la lembik lutut kejap aku tengok resit...

oh yap, kalau tengok fb aku sekarang ni gambar aku seriuosly banyak nak mati. nak pulak sampai 700 lebih. kalau dulu tengok fb orng kalau yang ada gambar 200 lebih pun aku dah rasa banyak, ni aku sampai 700 lebih, tak ke nak terpengsan mak aku tengok. mak aku cakap ape benda buat la banyak sangat gambar. nak buat macam mane, bestfriend ku photographer. sabo je lah...hahahhahha

sekarang ni pun seronok jadi stalker kt fb, tinjau-tinjau perkembangan dekat maktab dan orang-orangnya. wah, banyak perkembangan,kebanyakannya memberangsagkan dan ada yang sangat unexpected. well, people do change. so, it's not impossible. am i right?

yeap, i got something else to tell ya. lately so many people ask me this question:my friend, cohort mates, old friends and even people who is just know me ask me this question. i have no answer for this question. but the thing i know is I KNOW WHAT I WANT...yeah, when the time is rigth, but i'm not picky.

sekadar gambar hiasan, tidak ada kaitan 'sangat' dengan kandung entry blog kali ni. dipetik dari fb Fatin Farhana.

p/s: rasanya ayat aku ni tunggang terbalik, sebab aku ni tak reti nak menulis sangat. tak kira bahasa melayu or english, memang tunggang terbalik. lepas tu ejaan memang dasyat sebab aku ada spelling and direction disorder. MY BAD..my weaknesses

oh, i was tagged

1. what's the name of the blog and why u named it so?
Authenticity is Contagious. Here is the reason why.Its meaning parallel to the discription of my blog.

2. when did you started blogging?
1st April 2009, still new..

3. your first follower
A friend of mine, but she has deleted her blog

4. something for AZMI

I have nothing to give you, sorry


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Being a young teacher

Assalamualaikum...and hi all

Actually I just realised that this sem is gonna be very packed and tiring. At first I thought I have to take only 4 subjects and that's all. And good thing is that we have no exam at all.But then, when I went to PD class today, I just know that I got so many thing to. Godness. No exam but we got tests, reports and tons of assignment.

Ok, first of all is school visit. We have to go to 3 different types of schools in New Zealand. For next week I need to go to St. Heliers school.Well, it's a primary school. Not so bad and maybe not that difficult. Young kids are lovely and I will completely like them. The following week I have to go to Rangitoto college and Remuera school. Rangitoto is the biggest senior high school in New Zealand, wow menakutkan. Oh, bila fikir boleh pengsan. Sekolah menengah kot. Dengan budak Maori dan Pasifika yang besar kalah budak laki cohort aku. Tapi ni la cabaran sebagai 'guru muda'. Remuera school is for junior high. Age range around 12 -14 I guess. Somehow I can't wait for it.

Some of us were selected for tutoring programme. I am one of them. Last time I went to the school for tutoring but just replacing somebody but happened to be that day was PTA day, so I didn't meet the students. Today I went to the school. I got a girl as my tutee. Sebenarnya nak lelaki sebab aku rasa aku ni better dengan budak lelaki kot. Sebab aku ramai adik lelaki so aku lebih comfortable dengan budak lelaki.Sebelum ni aku ada cakap aku tak nak jadi typical cikgu yang akan suka pada student yang berlainan gender dengan tapi tak boleh bohong diri sendiri aku suka budak lelaki juga. But please dont get me wrong. I just like boys because they are easy to handle in the sense that they are not really bother who you are as girls do. Am I right? Tapi seriously aku tak memilih pun siapa student aku. Aku cuba untuk sentiasa ikhlas dan terbuka dengan sesiapa sahaja.Ok, pasal student yang aku dapat hari ni, nama dia Ashlee Anne. Bila sekali tengok memang dia mat salleh la. She's kiwi. She's thin. Bila aku tengok dia masuk dalam library then cikgu dia pangil nama dia tanya siapa tutor dia, aku terus tengok dia. Dia macam typical budak-budak, berlari lari masuk library. Cikgu dia sebut nama dia kuat-kuat, then aku angkat tangan. She's mine. Terus meruntun jiwa aku. Aku ni kan cepat kesian dekat orang. Bila tengok pakaian dia, tengok kasut dia, tengok muka dia aku rasa....something dalam jiwa aku. Luruh jiwa aku, rasa nak nangis tapi aku kuatkan jiwa aku. Ni just satu kes. In the future aku akan hadapi macam-macam lagi. Aku panggil dia duduk tapi aku. Dia tak banyak cakap. Aku tanya pasal background dia. Dia tak faham aku cakap. Maybe vocabulary dia tak banyak sangat. Aku tanya pasal sibling. Dia tanya aku balik sibling tu apa. Aku cakap la brother and sister. Baru la faham. Mak dia Maori, ayah dia Kiwi. Bila dia cakap pasal mak ayah dia aku lagi sedih.Kebanyakan budak-budak yang dalam program ni memang budak ada problem dengan family background. Either low income family, broken family and raised by single parents. Sebab tu diaorang ada masalah dalam pembelajaran. Ada sesetengah tu coordinator sengaja bagi kat kawan-kawan aku yang lelaki sebab ada diantara diorang yang takde lelaki dekat rumah. So, maybe bila diberi tutor lelaki dia lebih takut dan komited. Pasal Ashlee ni, masa mula-mula ok je, bila dah lama-lama dia buat perangai. Dia malas nak baca. Bila aku ajar dia tak nak dengar. Boleh pulak dia persoalkan accent aku. Masa aku suruh dia siapkan task tu, aku pinjam kan dia pensil picit. Dia tak pandai guna. Dia cakap pensil aku USELESS. Boleh pulakkan. Aku cakap kat dia aku takde ordinary pencil. tetiba dia persoalan kan pasal ordinary pencil. Dia kata knapa aku cakap ordinary pencil. Pening aku nak melayan. Kebetulan zaza datang mintak leads, dia pun cakap aku dengan zaza 'FUNNY'.....buka kelakar yer, tapi 'kelakar'..paham tak?

sakit jiwa aku. Bila aku suruh di warna, dia taknak. Bila aku suruh baca dia tak nak baca. Banyak words dia tak tahu..Sun burn tak tahu, tapi tan tahu..adush..Punyala banyak cakap yang bukan-bukan. Tapi tak pe, aku layan je. Tapi benda yang aku tak boleh terima dia mimik aku. Ikut apa yang aku buat dan cakap. Tu memang something yang annoying bagi aku. Rasa nak cekik pun ada. Tu la sebab nya aku tak nak student perempuan. Student perempuan akan perhati kita dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki. Diaorng even tengok apa kita pakai dan apa yang kita buat. Masa aku gi SBE dekat Larkin 1 hari tu pun macam tu. Ada student ikut aku betul2 kat belakang aku. Ikut setiap langkah aku, bila aku berhenti pandang belakang diaorng gelak-gelak. Tapi sebagai beginning teacher, aku tak boleh la nak cepat melenting. Aku senyum je dan cuba sabar.

Nak jadi seornag cikgu ni bukan senang sebenarnya. Memang kena betul-betul sabar. Kalau kita sabar, memang kita boleh jadi cikgu yang baik dan bagus. SABAR tu memang satu sifat yang memang semua cikgu perlu ada. Aku pernah juga dengan senior-senior kat maktab cakap budak-budak apa panggil dia kakak la, mak cik la. Tapi nak buat macam mana, tu la nasib nya being a young teacher. Walking to school with no experience, dont know what to do, no idea how handle the students and all stuff. Yang penting willing to learn and most important.......SABAR

Ni la muka-muka kami sebagai beginning teacher with no experince. Lesu, helpless. Ni first and only sbe yang kitaorang pernah pergi. Kami dalam process untuk memupuk insan guru. Tapi tak pernah pula join BIG. maktab yang tak pernah includekan budak TESL dalam program BIG. Kami takde cukup pengalaman

SEM 2

Holla all,

Okeh, where should I start? Yea, so many thing happened to me lately, but I just can't tell you all what's happening because I can't get the internet connection for 2 weeks. I am like dead zombi right now, living without internet in the so sophisticated world. Hate it. Just now I called the person for mantainance. Hopelessly. Tak boleh buat apa sebab not really undersatnd what should I do.Sekarang ni rasa sangat sakit hati. Geram. Geram pada diri sendiri. Okey, I lost my retainer. How to survive without it?

Ok, forget about it. yea, yesterday was my first day of lecture for this sem. It started as good as I expected. But something not really 'good' is that we have 6 hours non-stop lectures. From 10 to 4..Oh, I'm dying. Waktu solat macam mana tu ek. Some of my friends masuk lewat kelas sebab nak sembahyang and some of them just get out of the hall during the lecture. For me, I chose to jamak kan sembahyang. Last time, ust. Zain told us we can jamak the prayer because of the time constrain but we can't qasar the prayer. Apa-apa pun boleh, up to you. Yang penting jangan tinggal sembahyang ye kawan-kawan. Tapi yang penting sekali niat, belajar kerana Allah s.w.t. Belajar tu adalah satu jihad kecil. Insyaallah, semoga Allah kira apa yang kami buat sebagai satu amalan yang diredhau.

First lecture semalam was language teaching. I saw few familiar people. Means they are from the previous language teaching course. I hope I can do well in this subject. I wanna score this subject since I didnt get good mark for this course. How come? This subject not that hard, but just the matter of not putting enough effort I guess. Fighting FAREHA..

second lecture was Educational Psychology. I really like this subject. Wow, this class got so many people. 160 people, so it's a very big class. Most of them are Whites. So, it would be more challenging because I have the feeling that they are really really good. Some of them are teachers. Last sem, my lecture mates are mostly Asisn, Japanese and Korean..except for 283 subject, more Whites and Arabic.

Ok, next was ESOL. Our lecturer is Vaclov or Jaclov or something like that. Forgot his name. He is really really nice. When I saw him, listened to him, I felt like wathing Harry Potter movie. I like his accent. Fall in love with him...ops, not because I 'love' him but I love the way he is. Maybe he's not as hot as Robert Pattinson or whoever, but he has a good talent as an educator. He has very Bristh-like accent even though he's not an English speaker. Oh, sungguh comel..Boleh pulak kan.

Ok, penat dah bercerita. Nanti cerita lagi bila internet dah ok..bye2..

SALAM

I'm Home

I miss Auckland very much. I miss the warmness of Auckland. Bersyukur sebab dapat balik dengan selamat setelah bercuti selama 5 hari 4 malam. Alhamdulillah, it was a wonderful experience. Walaupun duit banyak habis, tengok duit dlm bank pun rasa nak pengsan tapi tetap nak juga cuba something yang baru. Lain kali belum tentu dapat lagi. Nanti saya update pasal perjalanan kami tu yerk..Penat lagi sekarang, plus tetiba tak dapat internet, lagi bengang ni. Tapi takpe, sabar.

Malam tadi tidur lambat sebab tengok gambar,kemas2 bilik. Masa tidur semalam, saya mimpi mak dengan ayah saya. Lama sangat tak jumpa, Ya ALLAH aku dilanda rindu lagi. Malam tadi saya mimpi jumpa mak dan ayah saya kat tepi pantai. Saya terus berlari peluk ayah saya. Lama saya peluk ayah saya. Rasa macam peluk betul-betul. Lepas tu saya terus peluk mak saya. Masa tengah peluk mak saya,mak saya cakap ' Angah, jangan macam ni, jangan nak rindu-rindu'. Hidup mesti berdikari, datang sini nak belajar'. Rasa terkedu sebentar. Peluk mak kuat-kuat lagi. Rasa tak nak lepas. Betul, rasa macam peluk betul-betul. Tiba-tiba terkejut dari tidur, oh rupanya mimpi tapi rasa macam real. Bila pegang pipi, Ya Allah, air mata punya la banyak. Sampai basah bantal.

Ya Allah, tabah kan hati ku...Lapangkan dada ku untuk terus bersabar...Tenangkan jiwa dan perasaan ku

BERSATU day 4

Assalamualaikum and hi all..

Argh, lately I'm so tired. Lots of thing to do like checking every single thing in FB ( not important), sleeping ( useless), watching movies in Utube ( wasting time) and so on. What a boring life right. Oit, actually busy with BERSATU lor, supporting friends until I lost my voice...Sebenarnya penat sangat hari ni sebab semalam dah habiskan masa dengan tidur sebab keletihan dengan BERSATU and so whatever la kan, so hari ni terpaksa buat semua kerja seperti basuh baju, bersihkan fridge, vacum bilik, masak, pergi beli barang dan banyak la lagi komitmen lain sebab esok dah nak g Welly. So, nak tinggal kan bilik dalam keadaan bersih, barulah balik dari Welly nanti tak fenin.

Ok, lets talk about the 4th day of BERSATU. Yep, as you all knew I played netball. Yeah, we got silver for that and we are not satisfied for not getting GOLD. hahahaha tapi bersyukur, Try harder next year and the host for BERSATU next year is Otago. Wah, if I still playing next year, I can go to South Island.

They are all my team mates...very supportive, warm and selfless

Silver for UMSA, yeah

Dan malam last ada dinner. Bosan boleh!!! tapi layankan la. Buat pulak kt Floating Pavilion, mau tak mabuk laut aku di buatnya. Teroleng-oleng atas laut, nak muntah pun ada tapi nasib tak obvious la. Bila oang ramai nak keluar tu lah baru macam gile sikit bergoyang. But overall BERSATU was awesome...Met nice people too..

Ok, need to go bed now because I need to wake up early to pack all my stuff. Can't wait for skiing. WUUHuuuuu...

No idea

I feel bad right now.
It's not about anyone, it's just about me. Nothing to do with others. So, don't get offended when you read this. This is not intended to anyone. It's about myself, what i fell right now.
A bit pissed off actually. Back off, talk to my hand.

ok, dh edit entry ni sebab macam bahasa tak sesuai. Bukan apa, marah sangat tadi. Tak nak tulis macam tu sebab aku tak nak termasuk dalam golonngan orang yang tekde manner.

BERSATU day 3

Yesterday, I wanted to watch rugby match. But when I was about to walk to Auckland Domain, a girl from Welly told me that the venue had changed. What the heck? North Shore some more. It was damn far. But I really wanted to watch the match because some of my course mates were playing. But I ended up not going because I have to spend money to get there. LOL
So, I decided to meet my friend who come from Christchurch. She was ex roommate. I have not met her for about 5 years. Both of us are from Terengganu but we never see each other after we finished our high school. I met her for about 1 to 2 hours because she had to catch the shuttle to go to the air port.

she's Diyana

At night I went to debate competition. It was between UMNO's clubs in New Zealand. I think UMNO Auckland was good but they didn't win. I was surprised. They had good points but they lost. They fight about Penubuhan Sekolah Sukan Pemangkin Kecemerlangan Sukan Negara. But best speaker went to UMNO Auckland third speaker. Good job guys.

First speaker for UMNO Auckland

For final, UMNO Christchurch met UMNO Otago. It was hot because the topic was much more challenging; Pemansuhan UPSR, PMR wajar sebagai langkah awal kearah pemantapan sistem pendidikan Nagara. And obviously Otago won because Christchurch was like so not formal but one of was chosen as the best speaker for the debate. No doubt, he was so confident and grab every point to fight back. Huuhuhu.

Otago VS Christchurch...sempoi habes

gambar orng y menonton pun tak boleh dilupakan...

p/s: I wanna buy SLR camera... Whenever I look at Sizuka's pictures collection I feel like the pictures are all awesome. I envy her..HHAHHAHAHAA

BERSATU, day 1 & 2

Hari ni a bit tired. Walaupun pergi ASB stadium agak lewat tapi tak miss mane-mane games pun terutamanya badminton. Tapi hari ni boring, so balik awal. Sebab balik awal boleh tengok perlawanan debat bahasa melayu ala parlimen. Suka, sebab tajuk dia Sekolah sukan pemagkin kecemerlangan sukan negara. Malam esok nak pergi lagi sebab tajuk perbahasan lagi hangat iaitu pemansuhan UPSR dan PMR. Tajuk sangat2 menarik, I dont wanna miss it. Jom tengok gambar, penat la nak cerita. Tapi ni sikit je sebab nanti lepas habis bersatu baru upload semua gambar kat FB.

here's ASB Stadium, but wondering why it was freaking cold.

for 1st and 2nd day we were supporting him...wawawawa...nanti jgn lupa support ku plk...

voleyball between CMSA and UMNO Auckland

This pic was right after debate..it was awesome..debates were good and funny..

ok, bye folks. need to sleep now for tomorrow rugby match...

Melayu, tapi bukan macam Melayu

Assalamualaikum and hi all,
I have something to say but I don't think I can say this. Even though this is my blog, I still have limited space to say what I really wanna say. I don't know who read my blog, so to be safe it's better to keep it to my own. But basically you can understand what I'm trying to say based on the entry title. Today I felt a bit annoyed.
Yea, you're Malay but you're not like Malay. Please be like a Malay. If you promote the spirit of 'being Malay' show yourself as a 'real Malay' then, but not just with the spirit of being together with Malays and stuff but also PLEASE act with good and respectable manners. That all I can say, the rest I will keep it to myself.



Memang betul lah apa yang Dr.Mahathir cakap....MELAYU MUDAH LUPA

sekian

Negaraku

Hi all,

I just came back from BERSATU opening ceremony. Overall it was lame and boring. It was just an introduction for the games and video presentation from each contingent. I just knew that BERSATU games has been held for 50 years. Wow, that really amazing. But it sounds ridiculous. Maybe I have mistaken, how can it be 50 years but I really sure it was 50. Never mind, let put it aside.
Just now I could see many people. They were so unfamiliar. Never see them before. I tried to find familiar face, but I didn't see any of them. During the ceremony we sang Negaraku song. I felt so...aerk...hurm.. I donno, I felt different...yea, meremang bulu roma because I have not singing Negaraku like for 9 months because before this back in maktab we sang Negaraku song every week. I felt the spirit. I was amazing. Saifful told me that some of them especially Chinese couldn't sing Negaraku because they have been living here for so long and they forgot Negaraku song. Most of them are New Zealand PR ( permanent residence). They couldn't speak Malay as well. It is not possible because they have been here, living in English setting, no need to use Malay. Last time I met a Chinese girl.She can't even speak Chinese language. She only speak English. I'm so worried. Same thing happen to me but a bit different lor. I forgot Terengganu song. That's so bad. I have not singing Terengganu song since after form 3 and it's about 6 years already. I totally forgot the song and gradually forgetting Johor song as well.
Before the ceremony began,Hui Wen came to me and asked me to play handball. That's crazy. I donno how to play even thought I used to learn handball formally for 1 sem with En. Fadzil...hukhukhuk...Tapi tak pandai main boleeehhh....it's a mixed between girl and guys. 1 girl and 4 guys.Don't you think it's crazy. They really need a girl if not our team for handball will be disqualified. Because I'm the only one playing one games, they push me to play... Justin begged me to play. So, I play...but will definitely blur.

my participation card

Welcome to Auckland, City of Sails

Assalamualaikum and hi folks,
Tomorrow is the registration and opening ceremony for the BERSATU Games. I would be fun because I can meet many Malaysians who come to Auckland from all over New Zealand. It would be fantastic. My friend from Christchurch is coming too. She used to be my roommate. Yea, I can't wait for tomorrow. Even today I met unfamiliar Malaysian. For sure they are not Aucklanders and come here for BERSATU and vacation. A group of Malaysian girls I met just now didn't know how go to 'somewhere'. I saw them looking at the map and suddenly asked me and Zati as we walked passed them how to go to Queen St. Glad to help them. There will be more coming and I'm wondering it must be a happening event. Oh, yap for the meeting just now, I got my jersey. Love it so much. I choose the number on my own. Here we go....

I'm playing for UMSA, it's basically an association for Auckland students. Most of them are Chinese. Most Malays join UMNO Auckland association. Oh ya ,all UMNO members are Malay except for this one mixed guy. No wonder I'm the only Malay playing net ball for this club. I don't feel neglected though. They speak English all the time and I have no problem with that. To be honest, they are warm and selfless. I really like Malaysian Chinese here. They are so lovely and kind. Even when I meet Chinese who are working here, they are the one who greet us first. They talk to us and share their experience. They are nice people, seriously.

I got the position that I always wanted, WA...

sizuka, sila tengok gambar ni betul2

I hope I can win and will be more motivated to play next year.

once again, welcome to Auckland